A/N: I feel weird still writing this. Only three faithful reviewers. Er, only three reviewers period. If it weren't for An-chan, Onee-chan and Dreamer, I would be giving this one up. But I don't think anyone will like this new twist I added at the end. It probably disgusts you and so you will quit reading because it gets too ridiculous. But whatever. I am not updating until I receive twelve reviews. Er, until I have twelve reviews. Either way, my goal seems unobtainable at this point. But that just means that people are finding this story horrid. I'm right though, aren't I? And I just can't get Reno's eye color to stay the same. So I probably already said his eyes were green but in this chapter they are blue. X.x
Warning: Yaoi Twincest. Don't read if you don't like that type of thing. Not that it goes into detail. Just a kiss. Or two.
I sound very down this time. Maybe I am. I dunno. Maybe if you think enough to review, I will get happy again?
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The blonde shifted in his sleep, moaning softly as his dreams shifted to nightmares. Not the normal nightmares of a boy of thirteen. No. They were filled with the face of the red-head as he imagined the horrors he had encountered in his short life to cause him such an attack brought about purely from fright. They must have been horrid. So his mind worked in the bizarre way that a mind does to fill him full of fright and dread and other horrible feelings, flashing images of gore and abuse. The last scene before he woke himself was Axel, covered in dripping blood in his alley, curled into a frightened ball and rocking. Roxas tried to call out but as in other dreams, his voice failed him and he hurtled into a bleak pit before his eyes wandered open, flitting at the bright sun-shine.
"What the heck's the matter with me?" he groaned, lifting his legs away from the warm mattress and into the cooler air of his bedroom. He stifled a yawn as he stretched before pulling his arms tight to his chest and gave a small shiver, partially from the remaining chill that hung in the early morning and also from the dream he had just awoken from. A tight knot formed in the pit of his stomach and it took all his efforts to stay sitting on his bed. What had gotten into him? Dreaming about that boy like that? His belly bubbled and then grumbled in the silence, yelling at him to get food. He complied, slipping out of the remaining covers and draping his house-coat over his frail, small body before making his way to the kitchen where breakfast was busily being prepared by the many maids and chefs that they had hired.
"Oh, Roxas, dear. You are about early this morning. I'm sorry but your meal isn't ready yet. Do you mind waiting for a few more minutes?"
Roxas gazed at the rather plump woman that had spoken to him and he gave off one of his award-winning smiles. "Of course I don't mind, Gloria. But I'm not really all that hungry, thanks. Maybe just a few pieces of toast would suffice?"
The woman smiled, nodding, before blustering off in the crowded kitchen to get the young master his desired toast. A small little girl hopped up to him happily, a large grin plastered onto her petite face. Roxas held in the groan that wanted to escape at the sight of the hyper-active girl. He didn't hate her but he didn't exactly enjoy her company either.
"Hello, master Roxas! How are you this morning?!"
"Selphie, how many times must I ask? It's just Roxas. You don't need to make me out to be a slave-driver. And I'm doing alright," Roxas lied easily, knowing full well that if he were to tell the child about his dreams, the whole manor would hear about it in a matter of hours. Her smile never faltered as she continued to blab away - Roxas only half paying attention - waiting impatiently for his tiny meal. Gloria came back within a few minutes and Roxas gladly departed, lying once again about needing to study a bit. But when he got to the front hall, instead of going up the stairs to the library, he opted to go straight out the large wood doors and down the front lawn. No one to watch him, the blonde strolled casually, down to the street and off to where he expected the older boy to still be waiting for him.
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"That kid was kinda cute, don't you think, Axel?"
The elder red-head glanced at his brother in shock, his math homework sprawled in front of him. Reno was frowning slightly, staring at him with glazed-over eyes. A sigh issued from his lips before looking his brother in the eye. "Where does this come from?" Axel asked.
"Come on, Axel. You have got to admit that he is rather attractive."
"He's off limits, Reno. Imagine what would happen if you started hitting on him. His father would have a fit."
Another sigh came from the younger boy of fourteen. "I never said that I would hit on him."
"No, but I now you want to. And it just about breaks my heart that you would go against me to have him."
"What do you mean?"
It was Axel's turn to sigh as he dropped his pencil and rolled onto his side, his features drawn up in a stony look that made shivers run down Reno's spine. "You know how much I hate the kid. And here you are saying he is cute."
"But, Axel, I'm just sayin'. I don't mean anything by it."
"Oh come off it. I know you better then anyone else and I know that once you get your sights set on a man, you obsess about him until you get up the nerves to make a move. I'm just saying that you shouldn't try, not this time. His dad already hates ours. You don't need to make it worse. Besides, I don't wanna share you!"
Reno's cheeks darkened at this last statement, making Axel laugh. "You don't have to put it like that! It makes it sound like you love me or something."
"Of course I love you, goof."
"No, I mean, love, love me. Like ... Love me."
Axel smirked and sat up, grabbing a pillow from the bed behind him. He laughed at the yelp that issued from his brother as he tossed said pillow at the boy's head. He followed his weapon, landing on Reno's stomach and making the younger's blush deepen considerably at the pressure. Axel lowered his face down to the younger boy's, making as though to kiss him. Reno scrunched up his eyes, struggling slightly to get away from the red-head who was straddling him. He felt his twin's breath brush against his lips for the briefest of seconds before he felt his elder's kiss land upon his forehead. Axel laughed at the confused look that was spread across his brother's face as he sat back. He noticed with a bit of pride that there was now a slight bump in the younger boy's boxers - but there was a rather larger rise in his own. Standing -before the younger could open his eyes- Axel was on his way to the door to relieve himself before Reno's voice broke through his blank stare.
"I do love him, you know."
"I know. Now, get our homework done, kay?"
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"I do love him, you know."
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"Axel?"
The voice broke through his dreams and he had to stop himself from jumping. He opened his eyes hesitantly but perked at the smell of food that the boy brought. "Food!"
Roxas chuckled, shaking his head in his disbelief as Axel almost clawed at him to reach the pieces of toast that the boy held. The red-head stopped suddenly, as though he had just remembered long-lost manners. His cheeks darkened as he looked to the ground he had just lunged from. "I'm sorry, Roxas. I don't know what came over me."
"I do. I bet you haven't had a proper meal in forever."
Axel's blush deepened slightly and Roxas couldn't help but smile. The blonde held out two of the pieces he held and the red-head gazed at him with grateful eyes, not daring to reach out, lest his prize be stolen from him once more. Roxas shoved the cooked bread into Axel's had and the older boy's face lit up considerably. "Are you sure? I mean, it is yours after all."
"Trust me, you need it more."
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"Of course I love you, goof."
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"What are you thinking about?"
Axel had scarfed down the chilled toast with slight moans of delight as the food traveled to his shrunken stomach. He had also become quiet after his meal, opting to stare at the wall as though Roxas weren't there at all. The blonde had almost become irritated before he realized dully that it was nearly impossible for him to be mad at this boy. Really, what was there to be mad about? He would have forgotten proper etiquette and even how to interact with humans in general. Axel was a starving boy who had lost everything, so really, what could a wealthy boy who hadn't lost anything so much as a dog in his life complain? Not much, I dare say. Besides, did he really mind the quiet? He was an anti-social boy himself (even if it didn't show), so what should he care if this one decides to ignore him? Perhaps because he wanted to know more. He always had wanted to know everything about the red-heads who stared.
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Something is really wrong with me. I know what it is to be gay as my father said that he would skin me alive if he ever caught me doing things with another boy. It hurts to think that he would discriminate against a whole group of people just for what they do in their spare time. But what I was getting at, I'm almost scared. There are these two guys at my school, twins actually, that really grab at my attention. I notice the younger staring at me every once in a while and he tends to wink when I catch him. But I don't care about him. It's the elder that I am interested in. But he only can spare me icy glances across the hall. It really hurts for some reason.
"Hey, Axel. Look. He's staring."
I knew my cheeks had gone a bright shade of red by the laughter that was coming from the two. I turned away, grabbing my book bag and hanging it on my shoulder as I stalked away. I wouldn't sit there and let them bad-mouth me. It just didn't feel right. Besides, I couldn't concentrate where I was. My stomach felt as though it was going to implode on itself, butterflies attacking and fluttering like mad.
Now that I look back on today, I think I did the wrong thing. I should just have gone over and talked to the jackasses. What harm could it have done?
No more then what I will cause them, that's for sure.
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"I miss him. I promised I would keep him safe, but I couldn't."
Roxas was brought from his daydreams as his question was answered, some five minutes after he had originally asked it. His cerulean orbs traveled over to the boy who he had just been thinking about.
"Who?"
It was really the only logical thought that came to mind. Axel jumped as though just realizing that the blonde was there. A small smile crept onto his lips as his mind drifted to happy places from long ago as he locked eyes with the younger boy.
"My brother, of course. Who else?"
"Oh, yeah. Of course."
Roxas blushed, thinking of how obvious of an answer it was. The blonde remembered with a stab the blue-eyed boy that would stare at him in the hall and in between classes.
"I couldn't save him, ya know? But I promised him... I promised that I would love you for him."
Roxas was taken aback by this statement and he reeled around to look the smiling boy straight in the face. Axel's smile turned into a smirk as he looked back over at the wall that seemed oh-so-interesting. The blonde continued to gape at the red-head but when he received no more words, rose to his feet and dusted himself off, his stomach feeling as though it was on a NASA simulator. Without another word he was gone. He didn't return the next day.
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Reno stood, not saying a word to his brother who had been sitting quietly at the table beside him. It was late March by now but it was still a little too chilly to eat outside. The snow was starting to slowly disappear just as Reno was. The younger boy took his tray and placed it on the to-be-washed-trays pile in the cafeteria but didn't return as he normally would have. Instead, Axel watched him make his way over to where Roxas and his small crowd of friends sat. The elder red-head groaned as he watched the smaller blonde boy stand and move away from the crowd with Reno. Axel jumped to his feet and started to make his way over to the two. He made it just in time to hear Reno's conclusion to a probably overly-rehearsed speech to the blonde.
"... And so I was just wondering if you would go out with me sometime."
Axel drew his hand to his face as the blonde began to laugh. They were screwed. Reno had just made the most idiotic move in his life and Axel knew it. The blonde boy of Reno's fascination spun on his heel and walked easily away from the boy whom he had just crushed to return to his laughing gaggle of friends. "Fag!" one of them shouted out as Reno turned away, his face finally breaking into one of distraught. Axel growled at the gang on his way passed and was willing to knock a few upside the head if his brother wasn't in dire need of him. He sent a horrid glare straight at Roxas who was the only one of the group that hadn't burst into laughter at the sight. Instead he looked on with grave eyes, clearly not liking the fact that it was he who had to break the poor kid's heart.
"Reno, come on. Let's get you home."
Axel wrapped his arms possessively around his brother's shoulders as the cackling continued behind him. "Like father like sons!" the same boy yelled out, making the whole place explode with laughter. Everyone had to laugh as no one messed with Seifer - the child of Sephiroth - unless they wanted the whole noble community against them.
The trip back to their house was a rather short one. Axel didn't let go of his brother the entire time, even after they had made it back to their room. He pulled the younger boy down beside him on his bed and hauled him closer to his chest, feeling his sob-racked body heaving in an attempt to breathe. Axel laid his head on his brother's shoulder, nestling against him to try and get him to quiet down. Taking a few more deep breaths, Reno relaxed slightly, leaning his back against his brother's chest. This wasn't the first time that they had done this. They were always there for each other. No matter what.
"You don't need him, Reno. You don't. I promise."
"But ... A-axel. I t-thought I really had a c-chance with him, ya kn-know?"
Axel chuckled lightly, breathing on Reno's neck softly. "His father is the biggest homophobe in the face of the earth and you thought he would let his son go with a boy? And they call you the smart one."
Reno pouted at the snide remark, causing Axel to sigh. "Need someone to show you how amazing you are?" his voice was less then a breath against the younger boy's ear, causing him to jump slightly. "Wow, you really aren't the bright one. Let me make you forget that little brat."
"H-how?"
"How do you think?"
Axel brought the boy around to face him while still sitting on his lap. Reno took a deep breath before allowing Axel to bring his face forward and his breath lingered on the younger red-head's lips, this time pushing forth to land against them. A second to make sure that he wasn't causing his brother to panic and Axel flicked out his tongue to lick at Reno's mouth, begging entrance. He could feel the shudder that racked his twin's body and it made him pause.
"I told you I loved you and I wasn't lying. But because I love you, tell me you want to stop. Tell me you don't want it. I know how wrong this feels for you, but I just want you to know I love you, Reno."
One more tear fell from the blue orbs before he sniffed and pressed himself against his elder brother. "I trust you. I trust you to do right by me, Axel."
Pressing their lips together once again, Axel could almost feel tears welling up in his eyes as well, feeling horrid for doing this to his brother. He wasn't supposed to be doing this and he knew it, but he couldn't help it. He just couldn't keep pretending any longer.
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TBC
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A/N: I love Twincest but I believe that it kind of threw off the whole drama and serious tone and now I hate myself for it. Tell me what you think, okay. Tell me all the horrible things that you have to say. Remember, no more updates until I have twelve reviews. So, you wanna find out more? Tell me. XD! I'm so cruel. Well, there you have chapter three. This one is a really short fic consisting of merely a week. XD And yes, that does mean only one or two more chapters. … Not that anyone cares. –pouts-
Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and you hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress.
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