Chapter 3
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Allen's Pov:
"Blood... I hate it... the smell... the taste... I hate it all!" I cried shaking my head from side to side. I looked up to that rounded moon in the sky and watched as its white glistening rays hit the water that lay in front of me.
I watched the the reflection of the white moon in the water become wavy from unknown caused ripple effects. I glared at the water and slowly fell to my knees my hands hanging limply to my sides.
I could not move or scream... I could not run form the fear that was gripping at my aching heart.
The sky began to cry... its normal dark blue covered in black... nothing but that same white rounded moon remained completely unaffected by the blackened sky.
The tears of the sky was not its clear colour of water no it was red...
"Blood..." I mumbled, leaving my mouth slightly parted. Not long the bloodied drops that leaked from the sky began to cover my body... my white hair... my white dress... my pale skin... all of it, slowly turning red.
Yet I could not move, my fingers only giving a slight twitch. I just stared at that water, completely covered in ripples from the bloodied rain... yet no matter how much red filled that water it remained a dark grey colour.
Suddenly all feeling returned to my numb body. I slowly stood and made my way to the small stones that made a dock to the centre of the water just were the moons reflection lay.
Soon screams filled my ears making me stop in my tracks. I was half way up the stone like dock. I stared with wide eyes at the end of the dock, the reflected moon still laying in the same spot. Ripples began to form with in the moon as if the screaming was emitting from the centre.
"No please stop!"
"I hate you!"
"DIE!"
I stared my eyes trembling as the voices filled my head. It continued over and over again...
"Fuck DIE!"
"REVENGE!"
"Please have mercy!"
"Ahhhhhhhh!"
I still made no movements trying my best to steady my trembling body. I took one more step closer and then another and another. I took my small baby steps and relented down the narrow stone path.
I was only three steps away when ashes began to rain, mixed with blood tinted snow.
A dark deep voice pulled me from my trance as it spoke, "Are you sure you want to see what's down there? It is not a pleasant sight..."
I turned my head round and round in search of the horrifying voice.
"B-But they need h-help..." I stuttered gritting my teeth once I realized I was letting my fear get the better of me.
The voice chuckled before releasing a crazed laugh, "Please... they need help? How stupid of you my dear... do you even know these people... They must all perish..."
"No... NO MOMMY!"
"RUN RUN!"
"IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"
"DIE DIE DIE!"
I clasped my head and gritted my teeth as the voices grew louder and louder. "Please... stop it..." I whispered.
"Why? Its your fault is it not?" The voice stated.
"My Fault?" I whispered.
The voice once again chuckled, "That's right... Allen Walker... The Destroyer Of Time..."
I shut my eyes tightly as my body began to shake in pure fear that swarmed deeply with in my gut. Why does it feel like what he is telling me is true... I don't even know those people...
"Its your fault!"
"You damn monster!"
"Something like that should have never been born!"
My eyes widen as I stared once again at the reflected moon, Was it true? Was I really just a monster?
I looked down to both by hands which caused my entire body to stiffen in fright, a scream hitched in the back of my throat.
Blood? Blood staining my hands?
"No... No I-" I was cut off as a shadowy hands began to form from the water slowly wrapping around my body...
"This is what you deserve my dear. A monster that's all you will ever be..." The voice grumbled out as my body began to go transparent. Soon I disappeared into the unknown.
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Narrators POV:
Allen's eyes suddenly shot open her sliver orbs trembling as she stared blankly in fear. Sweat trickled down her furrowed brows and a cold sweat ran down her back. The white haired teen clutched her silk blanket tightly, her knuckles clearly turning white from the strain.
'It was only a dream...' Allen thought as her eyes became half lidded, tears could be seen glistening in the silver orbs. Though the teens heart was slowing down from its crazed beatings before and her breathing became more calm, she made no move to relax her trembling muscles or loosen her grip from the sheets.
Allen then shut her eyes holding back the tears, she brought her red arm and laid it on her forehead as the headache she was suffering from since she first awoke worsened. That voice with in her nightmare had frightened her greatly, but she felt as though the unknown voice was trying to get her to remember something but for the life of her she could not rattle any forgotten memories form her brain.
"Well no use of stressing myself over it... It was nothing more than a dream..." The teen mumbled to no one in particular. Slowly she pulled the covers from her body and hung her skinny legs over the edge of the bed. Her room was dark but was lightened from the long stream of sun rays that entered threw her curtains that were slightly parted.
Allen stood from her bed and made her way to her curtains and pulled them open. She stared at the rows and rows of trees that surrounded the huge tower and glanced at the city that could be seen from the tower.
The cursed teen looked up to the sky and smiled at the warm sun enjoying the warmth it brought to her as the rays hit her skin. She pulled the latch of the window to push the window open, a nice warm breeze flew past her, tangling her white locks in the process.
"It's so warm..." She sighed in happiness.
Allen reluctantly pulled herself away from the warmth of the sun and walked over to her bathroom. Once in she removed her large t-shirt that ended just at her mid thigh and hopped into the shower and turned the water on leaving it at the cold selection. The cold water ran down her body sends shivers down her spine at the freezing sensation.
Allen laid her hands against the shower wall as she felt them still tremble in fear from her nightmare. Her hands soon turned to fists as she gritted her teeth.
'That nightmare... that voice it's all so vivid... why do I feel like I have forgotten something...'
Ten minutes later Allen was out of her ice cold shower, she wrapped a white towel around herself and made her way to her wardrobe pulling out her exorcist uniform.
Once she was dressed she decided to leave her exorcist Jacket in her room and leave her hair down because she felt it was fairly warm and would not wear the large comfy jacket.
Allen stared blankly to the window watching as the birds flew passed the windows and chirped in delight.
A lot had happened, in a few days it would be her birthday and was not even snowing yet.
Allen's Pov:
I walked over to thee window and sat at the couch that rested just under the window. So much had happened, first meeting Lavi, bringing Miranda to thee order, meeting Krory and the most important of it all 'The Noah's'.
The little boy Road, he frightened her...
Flashback:
When I first began to gain conciousness I realised the sate my body was in from the pain flaring up at every inch.
"L-Lavi?" I called, but to my distaste no one answered. I looked around not even noticing the presence a few feet away from me. I tried moving my left arm but to my shock it was like it was stapled to wall I was currently leaning upon.
"O-ouch!" I hissed while grabbing my left shoulder with my right hand hoping to ease the pain that flared at each movement.
"Hahahahaha!" A voice crackled out, my head shot up in alarm at the chuckling voice. Was I going crazy or something, I looked around the room I was in, but it was a vain attempt for the room was pitch black.
Whimpering filled my ears and I could tell that it was Miranda who was most probably a few metres a head of me.
"Miranda!" I shouted.
"A-Allen? Is that you?" The brunette replied between her sobs.
"Yes it's me! Are you hurt?"
"No."
I sighed in relief upon hearing her answer.
"O-Ow!"
I perked up at the familiar voice, "Lavi? Is that you Lavi?"
"Allen? Where are you I can't see a damn thing!"
I knew he was somewhere to my left but still fairly far by the sound of his voice.
"A – L – L – E – N" Allen looked up at where the letters of her name began to appear in front of her, they formed about two metres away, "Allen Walker."
The room began to light up as candles appeared out of no where flames lighting the little piece of thread that stood out from the top.
I looked at the spot where my name had been spelled out in mid air, I saw a young boy standing just behind the letters as if he was the one to write them there.
He had short blue hair and ashen grey skin, the said boy was currently wearing dark black trousers, a whit buttoned up shirt with a purple ribbon tied loosely around the collar.
The boy had a sadistic smirk spread across his face as he stared at me with what seemed as a lustful gaze.
"Hello there, my name is Road Kamelot ~
Flashback end:
That boy... every time I thought of him a blackened image would appear in my mind, it was a image of one of thee culprits that were behind Mana's death.
The battle continued with me being completely shocked about first hearing about the Noah and I had sustained heavy injuries from this Road.
Flashback:
I screamed out in pain as one of the candles pierced my left eye, my right hand instantly clutching the bleeding wound.
"Allen!" I heard Lavi scream, his arms were tied above his head with vines that had large thorns.
He was covered in bruises and scrapes, the only real damage was the large gash above his left eye and his bleeding arms that were wrapped to the elbow in vines.
"Hahaha!" Road laughed out, he slowly walked over to the me a sinister grin adored his features.
I could tell that he was maybe around 11 or 12.
Lavi began to struggle in his binds as he watched the little boy make his way to me.
"Dammit! Get away from her you bastard!" The red head screamed.
I was in a lot of pain right now, I had to admit, but I had to hang on.
"Allen." Road called, rolling my name off of his tongue in such a lustful manner, it made me feel nauseous, the way he called my name...
I began to tremble...
"Dammit!" I cursed softly staring at the boy who was now crouched in front of me, Miranda's sobs could be heard same as Lavi's struggle to break from his bonds.
"So pretty ~ "
"I want to hear you scream..."
As he said this his hand roughly grabbed my right hand, pulling me forward, I winced in pain from the candles that stapled my innocence to the wall.
Lavi stared in worry as watched the Noah pull me forward. Roads other hand grabbed my chin jerking it forward.
"The Earl has told me a lot about you. He described you as, 'The girl in the image of an angel'... but I have to admit, that is a bit of an understatement."
As he said this the boy leaned in, etching closer and closer -
"Get away from her you bastard!" Lavi yelled causing the boy to stop his approach.
"Lavi Bookman. What's your problem? Don't like me getting to close?" The boy asked in a mocking tone.
The hand that still grabbed mine tightened, I winced, this boy tightened his hold further with inhuman strength.
"I want to her her scream though..." He mumbled out tilting his head in a thinking pose.
Road looked back down to me and grinned making me shudder from the evil glint that sparked in his eyes.
"CRACK!"
"AHHHHHHHHH!" I screamed in pain as the blue head boy snapped my right hand wrist. He dropped it, making my arm fall motionless to my side. I gritted my teeth in pain as the broken wrist began turning different shades of blue and red.
Lavi struggled in his binds even more forcing his arms to tear out from the thorns, worsening the wounds on his upper arms.
Road chuckled as he watched the me practically shake and shiver in both fright and pain.
Oh, how he enjoyed torturing... though he had never felt such pleasure from a victim before, it was like pure ecstasy ran through his very vein's at each scream I released.
"A-Allen!" Cried out Miranda who had witnessed the whole scene in fear. Her hands burned each time she had moved, for the two limbs were tied with vines to her precious clock.
"This is so much fun! Though I want to save you for last... Soooo~ I believe trash should be the first to go." The boy stated while turning his head to the trembling Miranda.
"D-Don't you dare touch her!" I screamed out, glaring hard at the Noah before me.
Road just smiled and slowly made his way to the brunette.
Flashback end:
I shuddered at the memories, the rest of the battle continued with Lavi and I saving Miranda, finding out she was a host and the Noah retreated through some heart shaped door.
The next thing I knew was that I was once again in Miranda's home then convinced her to release her activation only resulting in the red head and I passing out.
Though once we both had recovered we were sent on a another mission to find out the rumours involving a vampire.
Though the mission was a strange one indeed we made a new friend at the end, one by the name of Arystar Krory The Third, who was the rumoured vampire, but the vampire teeth the man had possessed was indeed innocence for all his victims had been akuma.
Though for the man the battle had ended tragically, with him killing his lover and burning his grandfathers castle away.
I was happy though, Lavi and myself was forming a very deep bond, specially because we had been lumped together for every mission we took, I guess you could say we made one heck of a team.
I smiled at the thought of Lavi and I sharing our time together between our travels and breaks.
Though once the three of us had left on a train I did encounter a group of four, who looked very poor and who as well as cheated Krory out of his clothes and everything he had owned.
I then took Krory's place in this little game of poker and kicked their asses. Lets just say Lavi and Krory learned that I had a very dark side when gambling.
Though the meeting that took place between Lavi and myself... well lets just say it was a very awkward moment for the both of us...
Flashback:
I now made my way to the cafeteria, though it took a while because of the distance between my room and the food area.
As I neared the corner my mind began to wonder, nothing worth anything actually took over my thoughts, I guess it was just useless daydreaming. I turned the corner still not paying attention to my surroundings -
"SMACK!"
I crashed to the grown, someone fell on top of me and something soft smacking against my lips.
My eyes widen as I saw a red head on top me his torso between my open legs, his hands at my sides pressed to the floor, mine pressed to the ground behind me supporting my weight.
The red head's eyes widen as well as realisation hit him.
He pulled back, only an inch between the two of us, I stared into his emerald eyes to shocked to say anything.
Then I stared wide eyed as hearts formed with in his eyes.
"S-STRIKE!" He screamed out!
A tick mark formed above my brow and on my right cheek.
"Y-You... YOU DAMN PERVET!"
"SMACK!"
The red head now sat crossed leg on the floor nursing his bruised cheek.
"You didn't have to hit me... It was an accident I swear!" The older male wailed out, anime tears running down his cheeks.
I was on the other hand as well was sitting crossed leg on the floor while crossing my arms and pouting in frustration, I only hmpfed him and mumbled out a "you deserved it".
Lavi stared at the me, a blush heating up his face and he stared at me, "I-I am really really sorry! I wasn't paying attention to where I was going! I am so sorry!"
I stared at him noticing he really did mean the apology.
"No it was my fault, I wasn't watching were I was going. Sorry!" I said to him bowing my head down in apology, The older teen only chuckled.
"Well then I guess it was both our faults, by the way the names Lavi, Lavi Bookman." The boy stated standing then held out his hand to me, who was still seated to t he floor.
I blushed and smiled up to him as I grabbed his offered hand, "Allen, Allen Walker."
Flashback end:
That day felt as though it was just meant to be...
I stayed seated on the couch completely unaware of the person entering my room, I only noticed the figure when it laid a hand on my shoulder.
I looked up only to see a red head grinning at me, "Sorry Allen. I did knock but their was no answer."
I smiled and shook my head, "Sorry I kinda got lost in thought."
Lavi removed his hand and crossed them over his chest, "Hmmm what were you thinking of?"
I blushed remembering that it was him whom I was thinking of, "Well it was nothing important."
Lavi smirked, "Oh I see ~ "
I looked up in confusion.
"What are you on about?"
"Well you know! I was just thinking about our very first meeting ~ "
I blushed a shade darker and stood, I reached just to the level of his shoulders.
"U-ummm, why would you be thinking of that? I thought we agreed to act like it never happened." I said quickly my face darkening even more... if it were possible...
Lavi looked down to me, making me feel even smaller.
He came in closer, an inch more until he was just roughly two centimetres from my lips.
I felt his breath run across my face, he smelled sweet and so very alluring. I relaxed a little as his head moved only a smudge closer.
I felt weightless as I felt the older male stand before me, my heart beating rapidly.
Lavi's Pov:
I stared...
Damn she was beautiful...
All I could think about was Allen, her beauty, her smile and those eyes... those bright silver eyes. As a Bookman I am not supposed to be feeling such a way about any one, but this girl... I felt that she was a light that I should never allow to be enclosed in darkness.
Allen... Even her name, it would melt in my mouth like a block of ice in fire...
I wanted to kiss her so badly.
I moved forward bending my head down toward hers, our lips were a mere inch apart, I moved a little closer but still not enough to touch those soft sparkling lips.
I was just about to move in for the kiss, when a disproving look of Panda appeared in my mind making come to a halt.
To the teen before me I probably had a bit of a scowl on my face but I knew if the old man witnessed this he would be highly disappointed in me and would definitely not approve of me succeeding the line of the Bookman.
I wanted to kiss her, I want to hold her in my arms and never let go, but …. I knew I couldn't, I was a bookman and feelings such as this... I wont allow it to take over my chances of becoming a bookman.
Normal Pov:
The two were so close...
"Flick!"
Allen recoiled in shock, "W-what?" A small mark appeared on her forehead indicating that she had been flicked.
Lavi only grinned a sad look in his eyes, I guess he couldn't... his dream to become the mighty bookman over ruled all his feelings... no matter how much it hurt...
"Come one Breansprout, lets go get some breakfast!"
"B-Breansprout?" Allen who had still be a little shocked at what just happened only managed to stutter out her most hated nickname.
Lavi who was already at the door called out to her, "Come one Breansprout!"
Allen grew a few tick marks, gritting her teeth in anger, "Lavi you bastard it's ALLEN!" The white haired teen yelled out while running after the boy who had made his retreat to the cafeteria.
The two teen sat silently in the food court, Allen happily chowing down on her feast and Lavi eating the few odd things.
"Jerry's food certainly is the best!" Allen cried out while eating another bite of her chicken curry.
Lavi only chuckled in response.
'Allen...' The red head thought, he had to admit he felt stupid and very embarrassed for what he did back in her room. He really wanted to kiss her and he knew she did too.
'Bookman...' Lavi shook his head grimly, if he saw what played out between the two, Lavi would surely be scolded for his little affairs and emotions.
Allen glanced at the red head who was looking down grimly at his food.
Allen blushed when the thought of Lavi almost kissing her flashed through her mind, she would not have mind if he did... it's just that... Lavi who is eighteen she felt so young even though she was turning sixteen in a few days. Lavi made her feel warm and happy.
"Lavi?" The red head glanced up, "Are you alright?"
Lavi quickly grinned shaking his hands furiously beside his head a small sweat drop next to his head, "Y-Yea I just got lost in thought that's all!" he answered quickly.
"Oh."
"Allen lets meet up at the library in an hour there is something I have to take of." Lavi said standing from his seat.
"Okay, see you then!" Allen replied.
Lavi smiled and left, leaving Allen to finish what was left of her food.
With Lavi:
Lavi made his way down the corridors in search of the sister of his supervisor.
"Lenalee!"
As Lavi rounded the corner... Lets just say that he never knew his mouth could open so wide and his working eye could pop out to the size of a dinner plate, his whole body turning in an anime styled white due to the shock.
Around the corner was exactly who he was looking for but he had never expected her to be with a moody lady like man, both holding hands and by the looks of it, Kanda was pulling in fro a kiss.
Lenalee who noticed this, responded by kissing him full on the lips, but quickly pulled away at the sound of someone gasping.
"L-Lavi?" She stuttered out.
"Damn Rabbit!"
"Lenalee? Kanda? HUH?" Screeched the red head.
"Lavi shut it!" Lenalee yelled grabbing onto the red head.
After the huge commotion had ended, Lenalee had explained that her and Kanda were sort of a couple, She explained that ever since they started going on missions with one other the two developed a deep bond and eventually feelings.
Lavi who was anime crying due to the cuteness he saw before him.
"AWWWWW! LENALEE I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!"
"Lavi! Please you have to keep this a secret... If my brother finds out... he will..." Lenalee didn't even want to finish that sentence.
"Tch... As if that sister-complex could do anything to me..." The blue haired man stated in anger.
"Of course Lenalee, Yu! Your secret love lives of safe with me!"
"DON'T CALL ME YU, YOU STUPID RABBIT!" Kanda snapped grabbing the one eyed red head by the collar.
"Kanda!" Lenalee scolded smacking him over the head. Kanda just glared at her, he "Tched" then looked away.
"Lavi what is it did you want?"
Lavi who had just remembered the reason for looking for the dark green haired girl quickly perked up a big grin splitting across his features.
"Well you see Lenalee, Allen is turning sixteen on the twenty fifth and I thought maybe we should throw a little party for her! I mean it is her sixteenth."
Lenalee looked down to the red head, she had turned seventeen this year so the order always throw someone a party for their birthday.
Kanda looked to the rabbit, he knew that look in his eye, the one that sparked when he said 'Allen' it was the same one he shared when he thought of Lenalee. Kanda knowing the risks of a Bookman having feelings felt pity towards the red head. Though he acted he hated Lavi, the man was one of his best friends no matter how they acted towards each other.
'Lavi... you dumb rabbit, falling for that cursed beansprout...'
"The twenty fifth? But that's Christmas..." Kanda sated out loud.
"Ahh that's right! What are the odds of being born on Christmas..."
"Actually Allen doesn't know when her real birthday is..." Lavi replied grimly, a sad smile on his face. The Little statement did shock the two in front of him though. Kanda and Lenalee gave him a look to continue.
"Well you know Allen's adopted father... that was the day the two first met. So she said Mana her adopted father had decided that the twenty fifth of December will be known as Allen's birthday."
Kanda and Lenalee wore a look of pity. "That's so sweet..." Lenalee mumbled out.
"Yea... but because Allen and Mana were very poor she never really had a proper birthday, she always told me she never cared about having a party or receiving gifts, she was happy to just be with Mana... those thought of things never mattered in her life..."
Lavi looked down a sad smile still on his face, "So I want to allow her to have one... a proper birthday... every child should at least experience one birthday in their life, no matter how miserable their lives are."
Lenalee smiled, she always had a party for her birthday with everyone in the order once her brother came along. Even the cold hearted Kanda had a birthday with the order... Everyone has...
Lenalee felt a pang of envy creepy with in her heart, she wanted someone to care like this for her... she wanted the attention like she had always received. As far as Lenalee was concerned she was the only one with the tragic life... and now some cursed girl comes over and...
'NO!' She could not be thinking like this!
"Well Lavi I think we should have a party for Allen! I will go find my brother and get back to you once I talk with him!" Lenalee placed a kiss on Kanda's cheek then ran off to her brother's office.
"AAAHHH! THANK YOU LENALEE!"
The two male then walked down the corridor in a comfortable silence. Kanda was on his way which was down the hall from the library so Lavi and him ended up walking together.
"Oi stupid rabbit?"
"Hmm? What is it Yu?"
Kanda grew a tick mark at the name but quickly brushed it off.
"The beansprout... Do you like her?"
Lavi who had nearly tripped at the question blushed a deep shade of red, "W-what are you talking about YU? Allen and I we are... just... just friends..."
The last bit of the sentence was stated with a bit of regret which Kanda easily picked up on.
Kanda turned and grabbed the red head by the scruff of his collar once again, "Damn Rabbit! I understand you are a bookman, so you are forbidden to have feelings and such shit... but Lavi we are at war! Allen... Allen the women you love, could be dead tomorrow! So stop fussing over useless things! If your bookman laws forbid feelings then change those fucked up laws!"
Lavi stared wide eyed at the man before him. He was right, Allen could be dead tomorrow, the thought of him losing Allen made his stomach churn, even though he is a bookman... he is human as well... He didn't want to lose her...
'Allen... I … I-' Images of the said teen flew though his mind, her smile, her eyes, their first meetings, their missions they shared and their almost kiss. He can't run from her, he knew to kiss her was right, he sees it now. He, Lavi bookman the first bookman to brake the bookman law... by falling in love.
"Lavi don't waste time... with the war we face today, there is no time for regrets..." Kanda said in a soft kind hearted tone.
That's right, Allen... he loved her...
"Yu... Thank you Yu." Lavi said smiling at the male before him.
Kanda smiled or smirked, Lavi couldn't really tell.
"Go get her... before you lose her..."
Lavi nodded and was just about to run off but realised Kanda had yet to release him.
"Y-YU?"
"IT'S KANDA YOU STUPID RABBIT!" Kanda yelled flames of rage burning deeply with in his eyes.
Lavi laughed nervously.
Kanda threw him to the ground and walked off.
Lavi who thought he was about to die rushed to the library, he had to tell Allen... he had to tell her that he loved her.
Lavi pushed through the doors that lead to the library, "Allen-"
With Allen before Lavi had arrived:
Allen walked into the Library, she was about five minutes late, yea she got lost again...
"Lavi?"
No answer...
(Sigh) "I suppose he is also running a little late then."
Allen looked around the giant Library she had just entered. The place was huge she had to admit.
The teen looked around reading the titles of books that caught her interest.
"Mrs Walker?"
Allen turned to the sound of her name being called, she looked towards the entrance were she saw bookman standing there, his arms folded neatly behind his back, an interested look could clearly be seen on his features.
"Bookman. U-Uh sorry-" Allen stuttered out, bowing her head to the old man who now stood before her, "Lavi told me to meet him here..."
"Lavi did? I see well I haven't seen him since this morning, but he should be here soon we are supposed to be discussing a few matters." The old man said while slowly making his way to the two three seater couches in the centre of the room, both facing each other, a small coffee table setted with a tea set sat in the middle.
Bookman sat on the couch, "Would you like to join me for tea Mrs Walker?"
Allen feeling as though she shouldn't refuse nodded and sat in the couch opposite to the the old Panda's.
Bookman handed her a tea cup which she gratefully accepted.
"So Mrs Walker, tell me... where does your relationship lie with Lavi?"
Allen blushed, truth be told she was not expecting a question such as that.
"Lavi... Lavi and I are just friends..."
Bookman stared at her, making the younger teen tighten her grip on the cup.
"I see, but I am here to warn you... I can see that clearly you hold some sort of feelings towards Lavi... but if that is the case, then I will remove his title as the bookman apprentice."
Allen's eyes widen... she knew how much Lavi wished to take over from bookman... it was his dream... something he had been working on for years... she knew... she did have feelings for the older teen... though she was sure that she didn't love him... or did she?... The young teen sighed... she had never felt such a feeling to someone, so she wasn't sure how to react...
"Lavi and me are just friends bookman... he is just a very close friend... nothing more and nothing less..." Allen's eyes were shadowed by her white bangs, she shook... an odd pain filled her heart at those words... she didn't understand.
"Is that so..." Bookman said quietly, he didn't want to force Lavi to retire as a bookman... no … he cared for the boy far to much to do something like that... but as a bookman... to love, it's just forbidden...
"Mrs Walker... Lavi is a bookman and because of your little prophecy; The destroyer of time-" That name... she hated being called by that name... it made her uncomfortable. Allen narrowed her eyes as bookman continued, "Now the bookman clan is very interested in you... so Lavi, well I hope Lavi is only getting close to you for the sole purpose of documenting... you Allen Walker The Destroyer of Time..."
Allen felt a pang in her heart as it ached from those words, she thought of the possibility.. she just wish it were never true.
"I understand that-" Bookman was shocked at her response, he looked at her straight in the eyes, she was smiling down at him sadly, "As a bookman, you should not be have any feelings, right? Because being a bookman means that you kinda have to give up a few human qualities... So I know... I wont get involved with Lavi, the only thing me and him will ever be are comrades...friends. So Bookman there is no need for your concern."
Every word hurt, she hated feeling this way... she cared for Lavi but it was his dream to be the successor of the Bookman clan. She could not take that dream of his way over some pitiful crush.
"I am glad we understand each other then." Bookman stated while sipping his tea. Allen held her cup in her hand, she could not bring herself to finish it... this whole conversation had turned the tea cold in any case.
"ALLEN!" The two seated on the couch both turned to the panting redhead.
Back to normal time:
"Lavi?"
Lavi was to say the least a bit shocked he didn't expect the old panda to be here... that's when it hit him, he had forgotten that he had to discuss a few things with bookman.
"Ahh sorry Allen I got caught up-"
Allen place her tea cup on the table and bowed down to bookman, she walker passed Lavi stopping a few steps behind him, he stayed... staring straight a head in shock.
"Sorry Lavi something just came up. I have to go... thank you for the tea Bookman." And with that the cursed teen walked off.
"Wait Allen-"
"Lavi!"
The said red head turned to the old man seated with his cup of tea in his lap, Lavi felt rage burn with in himself, what had the old man said to Allen... he could see it... that tone of hers... it was the one she used when she had cut off all emotion... he hated it when she did that, it made her sound so dead...
"Come Lavi. We have important business to discuss.
He wanted to tell him off... he wanted to run after Allen, hold her and tell her how much she cared for her... but his bookman side wouldn't allow him to do so.
Allen's Pov:
It hurts... WHY?
Why does my heart hurt so much? I hate this feeling...
I walked slowly to my room... I was tired, I clutched the fabric were my heart lay and gritted my teeth, my eyes hidden by the bangs that hung in my face.
'Lavi... No I can't... Lavi has a dream of being the future Bookman, I can't take that away from him.'
I walked slowly to my room, I knew I had some feelings towards Lavi, but I was positive it was no such thing as love... well I believed that was the case, the only person I have ever coming close to loving is Mana.
I unlocked my door and entered, I quickly collapsed on my bed it was still early afternoon, but I was so tired.
I slowly shut my eyes as they began to blur from tears... I didn't even understand why I was crying. I guess my heart and my mind don't agree with another.
Normal Pov: Allen's Birthday:
"Mana!" The said man came up behind a small brunette who was bouncing around by the window at the inn they were currently staying in.
"What is it Allen?" The man asked as he crouched down in front of the girl.
Allen jumped once again a bright smile split across her face, "Look Mana it's snowing!"
Mana looked up at the window and indeed it was... crystallized little flakes began to rain from the now white covered sky.
It was Allen's birthday tomorrow... as well as Christmas. Mana had never really celebrated Christmas since his little brother and sister died...
The thought that him and Allen had already shared a year together already, it made him happy, he felt like a real father and he loved her dearly.
Tomorrow would be her first birthday so he would make it a good one.
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Allen opened her eyes, tears were running down her cheeks...
"I'm crying?" Allen mused, she hadn't had a dream like that in ages. Today was the anniversary of hers and Mana's first meeting.
She felt her heart clench. Its been a few days since the incident with Lavi and the whole talk with Bookman, she hadn't had any good missions... she hadn't spoken to Lavi since she walked off on him in the library.
Ever since that day, the things Bookman had told her... her heart still aches, no it wasn't physical pain... she had felt this pain far to many times and she hated it.
Allen rubbed her eyes and sighed, she slowly got out of bed and walked over to the window. It was snowing; small flakes slowly fell from the sky, an image of Mana crouched next to her smiling happily ran through her mind.
Allen smiled sadly, she missed him even after so many years.
Once she was dressed after a long hot shower, she slowly made her way to the cafeteria. It was so quiet, she hadn't passed anyone in the order or even heard one of Komui's crazy machines go on a rampage.
It was all just quiet...
Allen turned in to the entrance of the food area.
"SURPRISE!"
Allen took a step back in fright.
"W-what?" Allen was shocked, across the room their was a huge banner that said, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALLEN!"
Komui walked forward and hugged Allen, the whole order knew about Allen's little time with Mana and how her birthday came to be on December twenty fifth and so they all decided that should throw Allen the best party ever!
"Komui?"
"Happy Birthday Allen!" Allen who had yet to hug him back out of pure shock, stared blankly and wide eyed.
"B-but today is Christmas... so why would you?"
"Allen don't be silly! You are our comrade, a member of the family... and today we celebrate your sixteenth birthday."
Allen felt her eyes go blurry from tears.
Komui smiled softly and pulled back, he ruffled her hair and gave her one more big hug which Allen returned with a smile.
Everyone had decided they would treat the morning as Allen's birthday and the evening would be left for the Christmas dinner party. The rest of the morning went on with Allen getting many wishes and hugs form all her friends.
They all sat down to eat and then had cake with sixteen birthday candles upon the top.
Allen was told Lavi and Bookman had business to take of so won't be here until later this evening. Lenalee also informed Allen that the whole party was arranged by Lavi.
Allen was though a little disappointed that Lavi was not able to show but also relieved.
The whole order celebrated the rest of Allen's birthday with strange games and many presents Allen had received from everyone in the order.
Later that night: Christmas dinner:
Allen sat outside in the balcony she felt good and happy. She had never had such a birthday and it was fun.
"Allen?"
Allen turned around only to see the tall red head staring at her.
He came and leaned on the balcony, standing next her. They both stood in silence and watched the snow fall.
Allen's heart thumped loudly in her chest, her heart ached and yearned for the older teen to hold her.
"I heard you were the one that caused the whole party." Allen stated.
Lavi just looked at her, she was smiling sadly, he swallowed the large lump that had formed with in his throat.
"Stand straight and turn around." He ordered gently, Allen didn't protest and did exactly as he said.
She was wearing black tight pants and and a white blouse and on her head was a red Christmas hat, her hair was still hanging loosely. Lavi came up behind her and pulled out a small black box from his pants pocket.
"Allen... I know what the old Panda told you..."
"Lavi I -"
"Please let me finish..." Lavi heard no response so he took it as a sign to continue, "I know being a bookman forbids me to have feelings and any human relations."
Lavi pulled out an object from the black box and slowly pulled it around Allen's neck. Allen looked at the golden locket that now hung from her neck.
Lavi grabbed her shoulders and leaned his head onto her back, a lone tear sliding down his face, "I don't want to lose you Allen, I can't say I love you... because even I don't know that... but all I know is that I care for you greatly Allen and I just can't lose you! So please... please don't push me away!"
Allen couldn't move, she knew Lavi was crying from the sound of his vice which was shaky and the trembling hands that gripped her shoulders.
"Lavi... but... your dream of becoming bookman?"
"I don't care about that! All I know is that when I am around you I feel happy and when I am not... it's only you that I can think of. Allen please..."
Allen felt tears slide down her face, her heart ached... that's right she needed him too... she couldn't lose him either.
Allen turned and hugged him tightly burying her head into his chest. That's right she needed him, her heart eased, that annoying aching finally fading.
Lavi wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close.
She looked up, the two stared into each others eyes.
"Lavi.." Allen mumbled before the two slowly inched closer and closer.
Their lips met.
Allen gripped the back of his shirt roughly, their eyes slid shut. Lavi pulled her closer the kiss making his head spin.
The snow came down a little heavier coating the two in a thin layer of white fluff. Allen's heart soared and warmth filled her body.
The locket that hung around her neck and unclipped and opened, in the little frame was a picture of her and Lavi, the older male had one arm wrapped around her neck and was grinning, the white haired teen smile brightly her left arm was clutching to the arm that was seated around her shoulders and both of their free hands were up in the air clasping tightly together.
Yes... she knew this was right, it felt like this was meant to be... and she knew Lavi felt the same. It was true neither the two knew if the love each other, after all they were still young but the two did come to the conclusion they couldn't live with out one another.
AND IT IS FINISHED!
Sorry for all the skipping !
OMW AND MANA HAS A SISTER?
PLEASE EXCUSE ALL THE MISTAKES! XD XD
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