Remember the airport dropping me off

We were kissing goodbye and we couldn't stop

I felt bad because you missed your flight

But that meant we had one more night

"Hi." I said as Edward stepped in the front door.

Hey." He looked confused as to why I was sitting in the entry way of our house. "What smells good?"

"Dinner. Your favorite. Tacos."

"Really?" He looked shocked. The last time we had a nice meal together was, well I don't want to try and remember that long ago this was suppose to be about moving forward.

"Yea. I wanted to thank you for the flowers and maybe talk?"

"Yea that sounds good. Um, let me go change." He kissed my cheek rushing up stairs.

I was nervous as I made my way into the dinning room. I wasn't sure what I was going to say even though I had practiced this speech in my head a million times.

"Thank you, this looks amazing." He said sitting down at the table.

"Your welcome. And I'm sorry."

"For what?" He wasn't looking at me which was probably a good thing because I was giving him a dirty look for pretending he didn't know.

"For Jacob kissing me."

"Oh."

"Look, I am really sorry and I need you to know that I never sought him out to kiss me or anything. There was always innocent flirting at the office and I think I always knew it meant more to him then it should but I liked the attention so I never told him to stop." I blurted everything out before I lost my nerve.

"Ok, can I ask you something about all that?" I thought about telling him he did just ask me something but I refrained from trying to be cute.

"Yea sure."

"Why did you like the attention? Do you like this guy?"

"No, I don't like him. Not is a romantic way I mean. He's a friend that's it. And I liked the attention because I guess I wasn't getting it with you. It felt nice to be wanted again. To be chased again. For so long we have just passed by each other, after awhile I was just thinking you didn't care anymore. Or maybe you didn't love me anymore. I was scared to ask because I knew if it was true that you didn't love me then I would be lost without you. So then after awhile I think I just got use to just being here instead of being with you. Which is still no excuse to let a guy kiss me."

"I love you. I will always love you. I'm sorry I neglected you."

"You have nothing to be sorry about."

"Yea I do. We use to be a lot different. And then I started moving up at work and put all my effort into that and none here at home. I should have never let you think that I didn't love you. It's my fault that you ended up in a bad position with another guy."

"No you are defiantly not at fault for that. Please don't blame yourself. I shouldn't have allowed it to happen and I should have just been an adult and talked to you about the way I was feeling."

"But you should have never felt that way." He put his head in his hands. We had barely touched the food between our hurried conversation. "Can we get through this? Jasper and Emmett said you told the girls you weren't sure you were still in love with me."

"I, well, I love you. I just, I mean, we spent so much time not really being together that I think at some point I just I don't know. I want to be us again." I mumbled the last part.

"I want that too. I never want to lose you. Ever. I'm sorry I haven't been around enough but that is going to change. I promise."

"I'm sorry I wasn't honest with you about how I was feeling or about the kiss." He came around the table pulling me to my feet and kissing me deeply. Mt arms drifted around his neck pulling me closer to him. He put one hand in my hair as the other one drifted down my side resting on my hip.

"God I have missed that kiss." I breathed into his lips that still slightly rested upon mine.

"I hadn't realized it but I did to." He gave me another light peck. "Come on." He grabbed my hand pulling me towards the back of the house.

"What are we doing?" I asked as we reached the back door.

"Swimming." He opened the door to see that it was down pouring but still tried pulling me outside.

"Are you nuts its storming!"

"So? You use to love to swim in the rain." He gave me a daring look and I finally gave in and let him drag me into the rain towards the lake. Before we got there he started taking his shirt off.

"This is going to be freezing!" I said of the down pour joining him in taking our clothes off.

"So." He said turning to pick me up over his shoulder and running into the cold lake. We played in the water till our lips were blue. Not that we noticed right away because our lips barely parted.

We grabbed towels from the linen closet right inside the door laughing because of the race to get inside. Edward wrapped a large towel around my shoulders pulling me into him once again.

"I love you and if you ever doubt that again please tell me. I never want to fear losing you again. I never want to fear not feeling you in my arms like this."

"I promise. And I love you too."