Gibbs was downstairs making out a list of food he needed to buy if he was going to have Tony stay here. It was then he mental sighed as the memory of how much food that boy could eat in a day.
"Maybe I will stop by his apartment to get the food his has to help out."
The sound of movement upstairs told Gibbs that Tony was awake. Gibbs put down the list and went up stairs. When he reached the top step he saw Tony in the bathroom splashing water on his face.
"Are you feeling better Tony?" A shrug of the shoulders was the answer given. "I'll be back in an hour, so don't leave the house understand me."
"Yes sir." Tony finished washing up as he heard Gibbs' car drive away.
Quickly Tony ran into the guest room and went under the bed for his cigarettes. He made a mental note that besides the one he was holding he had two more left plus three more in the bag. He walk down stairs and went out the back door.
Once he was safely outside he lit up. His mind wonder back to the spanking he received from Gibbs and the break down afterwards. He took a long drag off the cigarette then slowly exhaled it.
'If Gibbs ever found out I'm a secret smoker what would he do to me?" Tony wondered. He had seen Gibbs smoke a cigar here and there, but wasn't sure what he thought about smoking cigarettes
Tony did some mental thinking to remember when the first time he smoked was. He was about nineteen years old, but the reason behind it was lost to time itself.
"Would Gibbs really spank me for lying about this habit or just ask him a million questions about the whole thing. Then again He was pissed at him when he found out about my pills." Tony took a look at the cig and saw it had one more puff left on it.
He quickly took it and dropped the bud into a nearby hole and kicked some dirt on it. His life has changed so much since the accident it seemed unreal. Gibbs' as he already knew was someone not to mess with, but he showed a different side he could have never imaged.
Was it the long buried father side of him that resurfaced when he got hurt or was it always there, but he never took notice of it until then? Tony pulled out another Cigarette and lit it too.
"Which rule was about lying?" Tony asked himself.
He stood there and puffed while he thought. Gibbs had a lot of rules so it was hard to keep up, but lying had to be near the top. Maybe those last ten smacks with the belt was for lying, but it seemed to be much more than that. Tony finished the Cig and dropped it in the same hole with the other one. He walked back inside to take his meds and lay down on the couch.
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Gibbs returned home with the food they needed.
"Tony I need your help." He called walking in the door.
There was no answer, so Gibbs walked into the kitchen to put away the bags on the table. He was wondering where in the hell that boy went; a short walk into the living room and he saw Tony fast asleep on the couch. The meds were going to mess with his body for a little while, while he healed. Gibbs went to cover him up when he saw a small box poking out of his pocket. He bent down and realized it was a pack of cigarettes.
"Well son, looks like your hiding more secrets from me." Gibbs said to himself.
Tony slowly open his eyes and saw Gibbs standing there. "Hey boss, sorry I fell asleep on you again."
To call him out on what he just found or not was the question at the moment.
"Not a problem Tony." Gibbs would ask him later, after dinner. "Can you help me with the rest of the food?"
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Dinner that night was a simple Mac and Cheese with Hot Dogs. They ate, again, in silence for the entire meal.
"Tony we need to talk about the spanking's aftermath." Tony was about to walk away and have his TV time before bed.
"Do we have to?" Tony asked in a low whisper.
Gibbs didn't answer with words, but grabbed Tony's arm and pulled him into the living room, having him sit on the couch while he sat on the coffee table across from him.
"Please Tony, tell me what happened to you to feel like a worthless human being." Of course Gibbs had to start out with a hard question.
Before he could answer he turned away, so he wasn't looking at his boss. "The words are in my head, but they can't form."
Gibbs understood what he meant. He grabbed Tony's hand and gave it a squeeze.
"Try," Was all he said.
Taking in a few deep breaths Tony went on.
"My father wasn't the best in the world which isn't a big secret, but after my mom died I was to be ignored and just there for business proposes." With a free hand he wiped his eyes. "I learnt from a early age that he didn't want to hear my problems so I keep them to myself."
Gibbs was starting to understand his Senior Agent a little bit more. "Have you tried to talk to therapist about this?"
"A few times, but talking to a complete stranger that is paid to listen doesn't work for me."
All of it was understandable. "All I need to know on that subject for now."
Tony final turned to look at him with a confused look. "Why is that all you need to know?"
"Because you don't need to be over loaded with information, but I do need to know what you thought about the spanking."
Tony turned a light shade of red. "It hurt like hell and I never want to be spanked by the belt ever again."
Gibbs gave a nod of his head. "Do you know why I spanked you?"
"Because I disobeyed orders to stay in the corner, locked the door and cussed you out."
"When I tell you do something you will do it right?"
"Yes boss, but are you going to wash my mouth out with soap still."
Gibbs shook his head. "No, but this is a onetime pass and if you ever do it again I will do it."
Tony gave a nod of head to show he understood.
"Good, it's now seven PM and I want you to get your two hour TV time in then bed time." He stood up and walked away, but stopped at the entrance to the basement and asked, "Is there anything your hiding I should know about?"
"No sir." Gibbs knew it was a lie, but knew it would come out in time.
Tony clicked on the TV and tried to figure out why Gibbs didn't ask him more questions about the whole thing that happened. Then again Gibbs had a plan and it will come out with in time.
TBC