It took me a while to write this chapter , hope you guys like it !

Disclaimer: As much as I would like to, I don't own the hunger games. :(

"Katniss?" He said softly . I raised my head reluctantly ,until my eyes met his .

"What are you doing out here?"

"I-I wanted to thank you - for the bread."

"You're welcome "

We stood in awkward silence for a moment before I whispered

" how are you ,Peeta ?"

" Good, I'm doing good "

I gave him a look of disbelief and he answered quietly ," I've been better "

I slowly nod my head and look down at the floor. It's quite for a second before he asks tentatively " How have you been katniss?"

" I'm doing fine "

" is that why I hear you screaming every night"

I turn to leave but am immediately stopped by Peeta , grabbing my arm. " I'm sorry I shouldn't have said that "

" it's okay ."

" I should get going I have things to do ." I say .

" Yeah me too "

I walk to my house and take one last look at Peeta's house before I walk inside . Sae is gone so I put away my bow and sheath, take out the squirrels and rabbit, get a knife and go out the back door. I start skinning the rabbit first but I'm quickly done with that . After I'm done I skin the squirrels. Déjà vú hits me full force. Then a name comes to mind - Prim. Tears well up and I drop the knife and run inside.

When I get inside I throw whatever I see . After every glass vase , every pillow , and every picture frame is shattered I collapse and end up on my knees sobbing. Prim, Rue, Finnick, Boggs , Wiress the list goes on and on. They all died thousands of people died because of me. People who had brothers, sisters ,sons , daughters etc.

I should've died in the arena. Then none of this would've happened. But the games would've continued - a little voice inside my head said.

At least one good thing came out of the war. The sound of the door opening . I must be a mess but I don't even bother to get up. I heard someone walking to the kitchen and I immediately know it's Sae .

"Katniss?"

I don't reply . I can't move . I feel oddly at ease as the darkness engulfs me.