Past is a hold, hard to let go
Chapter 3
Behind the mask of innocence
The look in every one's eyes shocked me at first, but I remembered that's how most people found out a can make a gun from pieces, or that I'm part of this organization, but I haven't seen it in a while. I heard a twig snap behind a tree. I don't remember most people, but the one person that would be that careless would be Sume Kazumi, he was part of my group, I think, I'm still clueless from when my memory was erased, I know he was of some importance to me though. If only they would let me be normal. Oh what am I kidding, life will never be normal for anybody, some are just a little stranger than other. What is normal anyways?
"Tohru, what are you doing with that." Shigure asked timidly.
"there's someone here." I said, getting up and aming at the tree. I shot straight through the tree and into Sumes shoulder. He yelped and fell onto the ground with blood dripping out.
"you should learn to keep your distance Sume." I said, but my girly voice doesn't seem to get to anyone. "I'm glad I still have my aim. It's been almost three years." I said, I guess I was kind of happy.
"Your forgetting it wasn't a fatal shot." He said with a smirk, grasping his shoulder, I don't know why he wouldn't look at me. All I saw was his brown hair and the back of his green shirt.
"I know, I'm not done with you." I said walking towards him, then grabbing the back of his collar. "Not yet anyways" dragging him through the dirt.
"I'm sorry if I get blood onto the floor Shigure." I said walking in. I got out a chair, and strapped him down with some duck tape.
"Spill it." I said. My face in his.
"Fuck you." Said Sume with disgust and…regret in his eyes. Or I think its regret; it might be a longing or loneliness. I can't decide. He's good at hiding his feelings with another.
"Sume, what's wrong. " I asked with a sympathetic eyes and voice.
"What?" he asked
"The mission can wait. I still care about you so please tell me whats wrong." I asked
"What are wrong is you! Its all your fault, how could you do this to us. I don't understand why you left. You left nothing. No goodbyes, no note nothing! You left everything, everything, you had for this! A lif where you work at some office, go to a low standered school, and live with three guys with the zodiac curse! Its disgusting of what you've become. And Tohru, come on, what kind of name is that. Its revolting to think about." He said.
I don't know much about my past, but there's something different bout him, his eyes, those brown eyes I always look up at, were now emotionless, an empty brown nothingness. Blank. Not human, no humanity, yet, there's still one lingering emotion left. Longing.
"You're wrong." I said. "You wouldn't understand what living is. What we were told was wrong. Living isn't just surviving. It's much more. The organization is full of meaningless souls. And you have said that, but I refuse to believe that! I refuse to believe a life is meaningless. I can be full of meaning, other souls that rely on it, befriend it, that place wasn't supposed to be there. That person who created it was killed because it wasn't supposed to excite!"
He didn't say anything after that. It was silent.
"what is all of this." Kyo said
"He can explain." I said leaving to go out side with my ipod.
"But-" I left before he could say anything more.
"Wait Hisoka." Sume said
"No" I whispered to myself. Why now. Why did it have to start now. I can remember now. Good memories, but then something came up. I screamed in agony as more and more memories came rushing through my head.
"Tohru." Kyo yelled, running twords me. He cant come near me. He'll see. He'll see every memory. He can't come near me.
"Back off outsider." Sume said. "shes just remembering. Shes just going through the bad ones. We all have them, hers are just….more extreme than others." He said looking away in shame.
Hisokas POV
It was done, just by my name being said. I was done regining my memory. With momoery came the teat that we did. The DNA testing. They had found a way to conbine the two, and for me, the cuning fox. Speed, agility, streath, and the ability to trick, seduce, anything in that way. The fox. A truly remarkable creature. A tail grew with red hair with a white tip. My ears moved to the top of my head, with redish brown hair. The fox is truly a remarkable creater, and I am truly a unwanted freak of nature. An exsperiment that went in every way right in all the wrong ways. I am the most unwanted creature, if I am even able to be identified as a creatur. More like a lingering orginisem that has no use to anyone.
"sume, why did I do it." I know he knows my way of thinking.
" a simple mission went wrong, you were told to kill a criminal, but he was innocent, he just had a lot of back up, people who would give their lives for that skumbag." He said.
I didn't know what to do anymore. I was lost, but uo knew everything that ii know know, I know she can help. I went for the phone when yuki grabbed my hand, but he ment to reach to tohru. But Tohru dosent even love him in that way. She love Kyo . she loves him deeply, and he has the guts to just ignore her this past week, it sickens me.
"Miss Honda, whats going on." He said with those adoring eyes
"I am not Tohru. I am Hisoka, I am the person Tohru used to be. Shes in a sort of slumber right now. She needs to forget, and I will die, and I will let her live without torment of me, but it might take a while. Im going to call Uo chan and we can exsplain together." I said. He just let go and stood their in, shock, or maybe hes just startaled.
"no! you are not letting Tohru live. You need to come back Hisoka. I love you, so please don't leave again." Sume said. He sounded concerened, but I know him. I chuckeled.
"Sume, I know you cant Love. They erased it from your soul…. Don't say that ever again, because I still have it, and I used to love you, but now I am no longer in love, because I am no longer living, Tohru is. Tohru is in love with that boy over there, who dosent even look at her. Its sad. It really is." I said pointing at Kyo.
"Now if you don't mind, I need to call Uo. She can help." I said picking up the phone while the others just staired at me like I was a freak. But I know Tohru isn't