Sorry this is so late everyone. Been having a lot of trouble trying to put in words how I want the story to go. But here's a little taste of what I've been working on. Hope you like it!

Hi this is Penny Cooper, I can't get to the phone right now. Please leave a message after the beep. Since that fateful Wednesday Sheldon never needed to call her. Now he's calling her over and over listening to her musical voice. Penny was always loud and outspoken. Sheldon always acted like he hated it, even going as far as trying to use chocolate to modify her behavior, but he secretly loved it and was really happy when it never worked. He called her cell phone hoping she would answer no matter how much he knew she didn't want to talk to him anymore. He needed to find her. He picked up the poodle and ran down the street to get back to the apartments.

Sheldon immediately jumped on his laptop when he returned home and researched apartments near the TV station Penny claimed she had an internship at. He found one called the Sunshine Terrace about half a mile away from the station. Leonard had gone out with Raj and Howard earlier so he called him and told him he needed to come home so they could go find her. When Leonard arrived he texted Sheldon to come down to his car so they could immediately leave. What if she doesn't want to see me? Sheldon thought over and over. He kept telling himself that he shouldn't care, he needed to see her. Everything he thought he knew about fear and pain was just a shadow of what he felt when he thought of losing Penny again. After a fifty minute drive from Pasadena to Las Angeles they input the address to the apartment building on Leonard's GPS. Fifteen long minutes later they found the building. Sheldon didn't even wait for Leonard to come to a complete stop to park the car before he unbuckled his seat belt and burst out of the car and into the main building. "Where's Penny!" he shouted over and over. Leonard, following as closely behind him as he could, tried to calm the frantic physicist but Sheldon just kept shouting. He was looking for anyone who would listen. The manager of the complex came out of a door behind the desk to help calm Sheldon to figure out what he needed. When they finally got Sheldon calmed the manager asked who he was looking for. "Penny Cooper. She's my wife." Sheldon said after a few deep breaths.

"I'm sorry, sir. We don't have anyone named Penny Cooper here." Sheldon's eyes fell closed. He cradled his head in his hands and stayed quiet.

"What about Penny Queen?" Leonard asked.

"No, I'm sorry. There is no Penny here. I know all of my residents." The manager looked at Sheldon sympathetically, then turned back to Leonard. "If there's anything I can help you with please let me know."

"Do you have a list of the other apartments around the TV station?"

"I can. Just one moment." The manager returned back within a few minutes with a list of the apartments Leonard asked for.

"Thank you." Leonard helped Sheldon up and led him back to the car. He showed him the list and Sheldon quickly punched the next address in. They showed up and received another sympathetic look from another manager. Over and over until almost midnight, Sheldon punched address after address with each one being less helpful than the last. Silently, Leonard drove around Las Angeles until three in the morning, letting Sheldon ponder over what had happened, and what he wanted to do next.

"Let's go home, Leonard. I don't want to be in the city anymore." Leonard heard Sheldon sniff, like he had been crying. He wished he could figure out what to do for him, but he knew nothing he said or did would help Sheldon move on. So he did what he knew how to do best, he drove Sheldon home.

Neither one of the men went to work that next morning. Around noon when Leonard finally rose for the day, he walked out into the living room to see Sheldon sleeping on the couch. He was clutching a small blue piece of fabric that Leonard knew to be a onesie from Jonah's things. Staring at his best friend holding a memory of his lost son was heart breaking. He knew how much Sheldon needed to find Penny and he silently swore to Sheldon he would do anything he could to help him. Leonard turned and walked into the bathroom to take a shower.

Sheldon heard the bathroom door close. He opened his eyes and was blinded by the sunlight streaming into the apartment. He quickly shut them again, holding the small fabric closer to him. He had drank a little more than usual last night, which for him was a few drinks of a beer. But last night he found a bottle of Vodka in the cupboard and poured himself a few shots. He lost count at five and then stumbled around the apartment over to the closet with all their junk. He searched and found a blue outfit that belonged to his son. The last thing he remembered was laying down on the couch with the outfit stuck to his face as he drifted off to sleep. Sheldon finally got up off the couch, folded up the onesie, and walked into his bedroom setting it on his nightstand next to his bed. Pulling out his phone he shot off a text to Penny.

Penny, I know you don't want to be found. You made that apparently clear by lying about the apartment complex you claimed to live in, but in fact, did not. You don't understand what you are doing to me by hiding from me. I love you and I will always love you. Just as I will always love our son. I remember everything now, Penny. I'm sorry that I even forgot in the first place. But I need you to come home, come home to me. I will never give up my search for you. I will never give up on you.

Penny heard her phone chime on the passenger seat next to her. It was the same familiar text tone she had unconsciously expected to hear every time her phone went off. As she read her eyes filled with tears. She knew she had done the right thing by leaving. She hadn't intentionally lied to Sheldon about where she was going to live, but when she got to the complex to move in something changed her mind and she kept driving. She didn't know where she would end up. She had spent the night in Sacramento after she became so tired she couldn't see the road, but she woke up early and couldn't get back to sleep so she got up, took a quick shower, and returned to the lonely road. With off exit she passed she contemplated what her life would be like in the towns they led to, but she could never imagine a life without her two favorite men. So she just kept driving. After she read the text from her soul mate all she could do was think of the pain in her heart that felt like nothing in her life would ever go right again. She wished he was hurting as much as she was, not because she wants him to hurt, but to know she isn't alone in this. When she read that message she knew he remembered their miracle and what happened to him. He was hurting with her, but she couldn't go back. Looking into his eyes was just too painful for her. Penny couldn't answer Sheldon's text right away, she wanted to reply to him when she could think of a way to tell him she had to escape because of him, but not make him feel like it was his fault.

Another two hours of driving went by and Penny finally decided she was ready to text him back. She pulled off the next exit and parked her car in a deserted parking lot. Sheldon, you are and will always be the only person who can put a smile on my face so genuine I forgot what had taken it off in the first place. But you are also the only person who will remind me of what I lost that day. You don't understand what you did to me whenever you looked at me. My love for you will never be the way it was before he left me. I'm sorry, but there is no way I am ever returning and I'm not going to tell you where I am going. Please have a good life without me. I really wish you the best Sheldon.
-Penny

Sheldon jumped at the sound of his phone vibrating near his head. He hadn't realized he had fallen asleep after he texted Penny. Picking up his phone Sheldon read a message that both tore his heart into pieces and put it back together all at once. She still loves me, he thought to himself. Sheldon couldn't believe she had replied to him in the first place. He needed to know where she was going, but he wanted her to have the freedom to grieve. So Sheldon made the hardest decision he had ever made, he chose to let her go. He wanted Penny to return to him when she was ready. Penny, my love, I understand that you need your space. Please take all the time you need to grieve the loss we have occurred. I know nothing will ever fill the void of losing him. I know better than anyone else, Penny. You will never be alone in this. Come home when you are ready. I love you. –SC

It had been almost a month since Sheldon had decided to let Penny go. He had tried to go on with his familiar routine as he had every day but found he was starting at his phone more often. She never replied to his message but he knew that she was going to come home. He always wrote her an email after work telling her how his day went and asking about hers. He knew should wouldn't answer him but he wanted her to read each message because in each message he would tell her how much he loved her. Leonard always told him nothing he could do was going to bring her back before she was ready but he never listened. He knew she'd come back eventually but he would do anything he thought would bring her back sooner than later. So he kept writing his emails.

Leonard had a secret about the reason he was trying to stop Sheldon from writing. Penny was reading all of him emails every day and she was responding to them. She wasn't writing Sheldon back but she called Leonard every night after Sheldon finally fell asleep and they would talk about what he wrote. Leonard would assure her that Sheldon was fine. He just missed her, they all missed her. They even invited Amy over for dinner at night to see if maybe she could fill the void. Eventually even Bernadette came over. No one knew that Leonard talked to Penny, but he kept telling Sheldon she was okay and she was safe and when he asked how he knew he would always say he just knows.

Penny you can call now. He's asleep. Leonard sent that text at 11:45 pm. They had talked every day for the last month and a half since she left. He expected his phone to vibrate right away, but it didn't. Penny, are you there? 11:55. Penny! 12:30. He called her many times but her phone had been shut off. He left message after message, never closing his eyes to go to sleep once. He tried emailing her, texting, calling, facebook messaging, and even going as far as tweeting her but the end results were still nothing. At 3:45, four hours after his initial text he slammed the door open to Sheldon's room, startling Sheldon so much that he fell off his bed.

"Penny is gone!" Leonard yelled.

"I know, Leonard. Forty-seven days of painfully missing and longing for her and you burst into my room yelling at me that she's gone?" Sheldon was angry. Tonight had been the first night he had easily fallen into a dreamless sleep. He had been having terrible dreams about Penny since she left.

"No, Sheldon you don't get it! She's gone! She didn't call me tonight and I've been trying any and every form of technology to contact her."

"You have been TALKING to her!?"

"Yes Sheldon! Don't you listen! She called me every night since she left to let me know she was safe so that I could try and reassure you that nothing was happening to her, but tonight she didn't call!"

"What are you trying to say, Leonard?" Sheldon was still stunned. His best friend had been talking to his wife since she left and never told him. All he ever wanted to do was hear her voice, even just once.

"Penny is missing!"