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All I Want

All I want is nothing more
To hear you knocking at my door
'Cause if I could see your face once more
I could die as a happy man I'm sure

When you said your last goodbye
I died a little bit inside
I lay in tears in bed all night
Alone without you by my side

But If you loved me
Why did you leave me

...

'Cause you brought out the best of me
A part of me I'd never seen
You took my soul wiped it clean
Our love was made for movie screens

But If you loved me
Why did you leave me

Take my body
Take my body

It was 7:00AM and Owen woke up with a start, sunlight was peaking through the curtains, his breathing was ragged, he looked around and suddenly realized he was coming out of a dream. It was really frustrating! He has been thinking about her so much lately that now he was also dreaming about her. He was so bitter, he grabbed his pillow and threw it to the other side of the room and let out a loud angry groan. He had been so on edge, this was the easiest way of coping. So, he took a deep breath, threw himself back in bed, closed his eyes very tightly while running both hands through his hair and he waited for his heart to stop pounding in his chest. A few minutes later he got up and went to the shower, he stayed there under the hot water for what seemed hours, just replaying his last-night's dream. She had come back, they were together! She was so beautiful, wearing her hair down, the earrings he'd given her for her last birthday with him, a black dress. Breathtaking! She always had that effect on him! But, as real as it seemed, it was just a dream! His heart sank. He blamed himself for being so stupid and letting her go without him! He thought about his current state, how things had changed. He had to make a decision! This was consuming him.

It was his day off, he decided to visit his mom. He was feeling very down and lonely. He could use some comfort food and company. But just before he left the house he saw she had replied the message he had sent her. He felt his whole body tingle, his stomach flutter. She still had that effect after all these years...

-Hey! How are you? x C.

- How are you?

- Been busy as always, but had great progress with my research! How about you?

- That is great! It is so good to hear from you! I'm so happy for you! I know it's not my place, but I feel so proud of you! You've become everything I hoped you would!

Owen felt he had nothing to lose, he really did feel so proud of her, he had to say it! And he felt sorrow for not being there with her. And since it had been an emotional morning, he couldn't hold back the tears now running down his face, he missed her so much! And hearing from her, even if it were in texts, opened all his wounds.

Cristina was really happy to be talking to him a little bit, even if it were in texts, they hadn't been very close in the last years, they really needed the space to try to move on, and when she got his last message, she couldn't hold the tears either, he was vulnerable, she could feel his pain. And she missed him so much. But they were so far away, what could she say?

- Owen! You will always be one of the reasons of my success! And you can always tell me anything! Remember that! I know we haven't been very close, but you know you can always talk to me! That hasn't changed.

She felt she should be honest too. They were so far away, but she knew things were hard for him! She would never turn her back to him. They had survived so many things together, endured so much hardship together, the least she could do was listen to him when he needed, even if it meant opening old wounds for her, and yet, she felt bad she was not there to hold him and ease the pain a little...

Owen knew the instant he read the message, Cristina saw he was having one of those days. She always did, she knew him, she understood him like no one else did. Which only made him feel more vulnerable, like she had hit an exposed nerve. And it only made him miss her even more. God, he just wanted to hold her and be in her arms.

- Cristina! I know! Thank you!

I miss you so much! Why are you so far away?

She closed her eyes, sighed deeply, and didn't know what to say! She felt the tears forming in her eyes, she missed him so much too, but where would that take them? She felt she shouldn't encourage him in that direction though.

- Owen, I need to go! Just got paged! But if you need to talk, if I can help, let me know! Xx C.

The air escaped his lungs! What did he do? What else could he say to her, he was driving her away, when all he needed was her to be close! He wanted to hold her, he wanted to smell her hair, taste her kiss, feel her touch, her skin. Laugh with her again, feel loved. So he frowned, rubbed his hands on his face, and rested it over his mouth, he decided not to push her anymore. He had some thinking to do. He sent his last message.

- Happy Birthday, My Dear Cristina! XX O.

Cristina felt terrible lying to him about being paged. Felt terrible for not sharing her feelings too, after all, she remembered every detail of him like they saw each other the day before! She had all memories vividly imprinted in her. She missed him just as much as he missed her, but why would she do that to the both of them? She desperately wanted to help him, but she couldn't allow herself to get hurt again.

- Thank you for never forgetting! XX C.

Owen set out to his mom's house, he could only think about Cristina now, how much he missed her.

When he got there, Evelyn was waiting for him with a nice breakfast set on the table for them. As soon as she opened the door, she saw on his face something was wrong. He was broody, sad, anxious... She opened her arms, he hugged her very tightly! He tried to smile, but she just knew. So they sat at the table, he asked her about the house, how she was feeling health wise, they talked about how Meghan was settling in in LA, they talked a little about the hospital, Owen told her Amelia had recovered well from her surgery, he even told her he had dated another doctor for a while, his mom was a little worried that he would start another serious relationship, but soon realized that was not the case. So she finally asked:

- Owen, son, what is bothering you?

- What, mom? What do you mean?

- I mean, what is really bothering you? You are pensive, distracted, plus the sad look! You don't fool me, you know?

- Oh, Mom, I really don't, do I? (he gave her a half smile) I didn't want to bother you with my problems. I just wanted the company. Am I not being a good company today? (he smirked!)

- Of course that is not it! I just know something is bothering you, so, just spill it!

- Today is Cristina's birthday! And I have been thinking about her a lot, and I don't know what to do! (and his smile faded) She is so far away. But I just really wanted to see her.

- Ah, Sweetie, I see now. You never stopped loving her, did you? I know you two had your differences, but I have never seen you happier then when you we together. Plus, she brought you back to me! (She looked into his eyes, smiled, took his hands in hers and squeezed them gently.)

So, Evelyn continued:

- I don't meddle because you are grown up, but I never thought Amelia made you happy. I am not saying she's a bad person, I just think you never looked at her the way you did with Cristina. And you never talked about her the way you did about Cristina. She was so your heartbeat.

- But Cristina wanted different things, Mom, and she moved to another country, to another Continent even.

- And yet, she is still closer than you realize aparently, so deep within you that after all these years you can't help but miss her. And about wanting different things, 5 years have gone by, Owen, people change, you are both more mature now, plus, are you sure you haven't changed? Do you still need the same things you needed before? And the real question is: Does she feel the same way?

Owen analyzed every word his mom said, he never thought she had contemplated his past relationships and ex-wives so well. Did he want the same things as before? He had been asked that a lot recently, He wasn't so sure anymore. His mom was so right about him keeping her so close in his heart, after all he had been through recently, was he willing to let her go forever? Could he live with himself if he did? What was more important now? Cristina or a chance of a family with someone else? And it hit him hard, there would never be anyone else for him! He was ready to accept whatever she decided. He just HAD to see her. He was determined this time, he finally thought this through.

His mom was looking at him while he was thinking, and suddenly she saw his face changing, a broad smile, a determined look, and she knew right away! So she said:

- Owen, don't make the same mistake again, don't let her go this time! So go, son! Go! Don't waste any more time! And, Owen, you know I love you, right?

Owen got up, thanked his mother for the breakfast, hugged her, kissed her on the cheeks and left!

On his way home, he called the hospital, talked to the chief and asked for a few days off.

At home he packed his bag, and went to the airport.

- One Ticket to Zurich, please!

To be continued...