*I do not own Suite Life on Deck/of Zack and Cody or any of the characters!

"Hey lovey," Zack wrapped his arms around Angel from behind, kissing his neck.

Zack had been dating Angel Tipton, London Tipton's nephew, for about a month now. It all seemed to be too good to be true. Maybe it was.

"Hi.." Angel sounded upset, rather depressed.

"What's wrong?" Zack walked in front of Angel, looking into his beautiful eyes.

"We're docking in Alaska today..."

"So?" Zack looked out to the approaching land.

"It's my last stop.." he hiccuped and tried to fight back tears.

Zack stood in silence, unsure of what to say. Was this it? Would he ever see Angel again? Yeah, they would have contact by phone and email, maybe regular mail- but Zack lived on the ship, and when he didn't he was in Boston.

His heart sank as he looked at Angel, "W-well.. you could stay here? Right? You don't have to go...do you?"

Angel shook his head, tears finally falling, "I can't stay..."

"Will you be back..?" Zack asked.

"I, don't know..." he looked to the floor.

"Angel..." Zack hugged him and didn't want to let go.

He feared that one day they wouldn't be able to see each other, for various reasons. But they had only been together for a short while. It was too soon to see him go. Possibly never see him again. What if he found someone else to love him? Zack would be heart broken. Same as if Zack found someone else to love... It wasn't fair; life wasn't fare; nothing was fare... Zack felt angry, sad, and oddly confused.

"The ship is here for two days... I don't live far from here, so... why don't you come stay with me? For the night..." Angel wiped his eyes.

Zack nodded, "I think that would be nice..."

"Pack what you need for over night, and I'll take you to my house..well, my dads house..." he faked a smile.

"Okay love. I'll be right back, okay?"

"Alright," Angel watched a few men walk past with his things, unloading them from the ship.

He sighed deeply and folded his arms in front of his stomach, holding tightly to himself. It felt as if a hole was being drilled through him. He didn't want to leave Zack, it wasn't right. They belonged together; everything about them fit. Their hands, their lips, their bodies when they laid together...Their personalities may have been a bit different, but that's what made them a perfect match. They were nearly opposites. One of Angel's favorite things about Zack was his height. He was taller than the younger boy, and it felt wonderful to reach up to him, wrap his arms around his neck and be lifted off the ground for a passionate kiss. This couldn't end... not so soon.

"Angel, we heard you're leaving?" Bailey walked up to the boy.

"Yeah..."

"I'm sorry, that's too bad..." she leaned on the railing beside him, "What about Zack?"

"What about him?" Angel hung his head.

"I mean about your relationship."

"It's.. I don't know," he teared up and turned away from her, "excuse me..." he choked on his words rushing off to find Zack.

Meanwhile, Zack was in the bathroom sobbing into his hands. Love was hard when it came and was about to walk out the door, (off the ship in his case) especially when you were still in it.

"Zack, do you have a hair brush I could borrow, mine broke..hey what's wrong?" Cody walked into the bathroom, closing the door behind him.

"N-nothing...It's nothing..."

"Did something happen with you and Angel?" he walked over to Zack and hugged him tightly.

"He's leaving..." Zack cried into Cody's shoulder, "I don't want him to go...he can't go..."

"Oh, Zack..." Cody rubbed his back and held him, "I'm sure he'll visit..."

"Yeah but when? I might not see him for months at a time..."

"I know but...you've got me..." Cody wiped some of his tears away and smiled at Zack, kissing him softly.

"What are you doing?"

Cody blushed, "I-I assumed..." he shook his head, "never mind, Zack. It was stupid of me," he smiled.

Zack nodded, "I love you Cody... And, I am glad that I have you..." he kissed his brother and held onto him, "And I'm sorry I'm always such an asshole to you..."

"It's fine... We're brothers, sometimes I'm an ass to you," he leaned back in, kissing Zack again to comfort him. They kissed deeply, tongues dancing together. Zack wanted comfort, and right now he didn't know where else to turn to. Cody seemed like his best bet; they were close. Very close. Maybe even closer now than they were before.

A knock at the door caused them both to jump and push apart, blushing.

"Come in.." Zack said quietly.

"Zack?" Angel stepped into the bathroom, looking between him and Cody, "I'm sorry...am I interrupting?"

"No, it's fine babe..." Zack walked over and hugged him, "I was just spending some brotherly time with Cody," he smiled gently, "Codes, I'm going to Angel's house tonight... But I'll be back tomorrow before the ship leaves, okay?"

"Yeah, have fun," he walked from the bathroom, Zack following close behind. He turned and hugged Zack tightly, leaning against his shoulder to whisper in his ear, "Be gentle with him..." he smiled and kissed his cheek before leaving.

"Thanks Codes..." he closed the door and leaned against it, sighing.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-"

"-shh..." he walked over and kissed him deeply, "You didn't interrupt anything..."

"Okay..." he nuzzled against his chest, "we should go have breakfast.."

"Can we...can we just spend some time together? Get some breakfast to go..and maybe take a walk?"

Angel nodded, "There's a trail by my house, I walk it a lot and we're up here during a good time, so it wont be too cold."

Zack lifted his backpack from the floor and tossed it on, walking with Angel from the room. They walked to the lobby of the ship and departed with the rest of the guests. It was hard to think that they were leaving the ship together, and only one would return. It was like some sort of sappy love story, only it was real.. As they walked onto land, Zack looked around. It was beautiful. Zack had learned a new appreciation for nature since he'd been with Angel; looking at the stars and strange little creatures... It was amazing, seeing all the things with Angel that he never saw before. But what was more amazing was that despite everything he saw, Angel was always there. He loved watching the boy.

Zack grasped his hand and smiled, wondering what they were going to do for breakfast. Angel led him along the road until they reached a small diner. Zack looked the place over, and it was just a regular old beaten up building. There were cars parked around it and some old junk around the sides. It didn't look like much of a place for breakfast, but if Angel was taking him there, it had to be good. They walked inside and a group of older men turned and stared at them. A few women off in the corner did as well, until one of the men behind the counter smiled.

"Angel," he greeted him, "it's been a while, where have you been kid?"

"I've been on a cruise with my father around the coast," he walked Zack to the counter and hopped up on a stool, patting the seat beside him, "this is Zack."

"Nice to meet you Zack," the man said, "I'm Jim."

"Nice to meet you too," Zack said in return.

"What can I get you boys?" he pulled a pad from his apron and took the pen from behind his ear to write.

"Could we get two breakfast burritos to go? Zack and I are going for a walk to spend some time together..."

"What would you like on them?"

"Swiss cheese, scrambled eggs, home fries, and elk for me.." Angel turned to Zack, "What would you like?"

"Elk?" he questioned.

"It's good...They cut it very thin here, almost like sliced beef or ham..."

"I guess I'll have the same as you," he smiled and held his hand under the counter.

"Coming right up," Jim said before jamming the paper into the line for the cooks to read.

Zack smiled when Angel leaned over, resting against him. He placed an arm around the boy and rubbed his sides, "I'm going to miss you..." he whispered.

"I'm going to miss you as well, Zack..." Angel sighed.

It still hurt. Even if they were going to spend their last day together, they felt as if they were solo.. The walk from the diner to the trail wasn't far, and you could see Angels house from where they were walking. Zack was satisfied with his breakfast, and even satisfied that he was hiking through the woods.

"I used to come out here a lot more than I do now," Angel walked ahead of Zack, "I used to have a fort that I made out here...it was built of sticks, I guess it must have fallen down during a storm.." he ran back to Zack and kissed him.

"I love you Angel," Zack held him tightly.

"I love you too..." he looked to the ground.

"Let's keep walking," Zack held his hand and walked further down the trail.

He admired the tall trees and considered climbing them. Angel ran ahead and spread apart a few branches of a bush and smiled back at Zack.

"Hurry up silly. I want to show you something."

Zack smiled and ran toward him, "What would you like to show me?"

Angel walked through the bush and pulled Zack behind him, showing him a large field filled with wild flowers. The sun was shining down into it and there was a deer at the other end, feeding on some grass.

"Wow..." Zack whispered.

Angel nodded, grasping Zack's hand tightly and walking out into the field. To Zack's surprise, the deer didn't scare, but just continued with his eating. Angel wrapped his arms around Zack's neck, kissing him deeply. They fell into the flowers and grass, holding onto each other.

"I brought my phone with me," Angel pulled his iPhone from his pocket and turned it to the video camera. He clicked the record button and aimed at Zack, "Smile Zacky."

Zack laughed and stuck his tongue out, "I'm not the one who should be on camera," he grabbed the phone and turned it around, aiming at Angel, "you are..."

"Yeah?" Angel smiled and made a cute attempt at being a model, "I'm ready for my closeup," he giggled.

Zack laughed and hugged Angel, aiming the camera at the both of them. They kissed gently and laughed together. Not only did they have memories, but they now had a video of them together. Angel would send it to Zack's phone and they would always have that wonderful memory of their last day together...

The rest of their day was spend together outside. It began getting colder out, so Zack figured it was time to see if Angel wanted to head back to warm up. The younger boy agreed and walked back to the trail with him. They walked the three miles back to Angel's house and he opened the door, letting them in. Zack looked around and was completely amazed.

"You live here?"

There was a large kitchen off to the right, attached to a dining room. The living room was the first room that they entered, but it connected to a bedroom off to the left. Above the open area bedroom was a staircase that spiraled up and connected to a loft filled with books and a small bed. All around, the place was a studio. It was gorgeous in many ways.

"Yeah," Angel took his shoes off and kicked them aside, Zack doing the same.

Zack walked over and looked at the large bed, then at the stairs to the small loft, "What one is your bed?"

"Both, I normally relax on the one upstairs but we sleep on the one down here..."

Zack nodded and sat on the bed, "So what should we do?"

"Uhm.." he thought as he walked over to a stereo, turning it on. Some nice, slow, romantic music began playing and caused Angel to blush, "We could make some lunch?" he turned back to Zack who was smiling.

"You going to teach me how to cook?"

"Sure," he danced to the kitchen and opened the fridge, "we could make ..." he frowned, "okay so our options are limited to pasta and," he opened the freezer, "fish."

"Okay," Zack walked over and wrapped his arms around him from behind, "teach me how to cook."

Angel blushed and pulled a piece of fish from the freezer and tossed it into the microwave, defrosting it, "Could you get a pan for the pasta, and a pan for the fish from under that counter?" he pointed as he washed the fish off.

"Yep," Zack did as he was asked and set the frying pan on the stove and brought the pasta pan over to Angel, who filled it with hot water.

"Now put it on the burner and boil it," he smiled and tossed the fish into the frying pan with some oil and spices.

Zack turned the burner on and leaned on the counter, waiting for it to boil. Angel continued to direct Zack through cooking such a simple meal, until it was done. They plated the food and sat at the dining room table together. Angel began eating, as did Zack. The meal was average, something obviously that was thrown together last minute. But they didn't care, they were together. As happy as they were right now, the thought that they only had a few hours left together was nauseating. Zack kept watching the clock, counting the hours down. And once the clock struck nine at night, he knew that the day had gone out the window, much as the last month had. Angel was everything Zack wanted, and Zack was everything Angel wanted. Zack changed into a t-shirt and boxers as they got ready for bed, watching his boyfriend change into his own night clothes. Angel turned to face him and reached his arms out, wishing for a hug. Zack quickly pulled him into a hug and buried his face into his neck, kissing softly. Angel enjoyed the embrace until Zack let go, the two of them feeling strange. It wasn't common for Zack to feel this way about someone; Cody on the other hand would..

"We should go to bed..." Angel whispered, holding onto Zack's hands.

"Yeah..." Zack followed Angel, who climbed up the spiral stairs to the small loft, "up here?" he questioned.

"Yeah..You can see the stars through the skylight..." he smiled and laid on the small bed, curling up under the blankets.

"Oh," Zack followed him up and curled up beside him.

They laid together, watching and talking about the stars until Angel rolled so he was on top of Zack. Zack smiled softly and kissed him, holding onto his hips gently. Zack sat up slightly, holding his small boyfriend in his lap. They continued to kiss, their tongues mixing together in a heated twine. Angel's hands shot up to Zack's hair, running his fingers through it as he pulled the older boy in, kissing him deeper. Zack groaned quietly and began sliding Angel's night shirt off. They broke their kiss to remove the shirt before going back in for more. Their hands were now roaming all over each other, touching every inch they could. Zack removed his own shirt and smiled at Angel. Angel rolled off him and onto the bed, pulling Zack with him. Zack was now on top and was kissing harshly against the boys neck. He pulled away and hooked his fingers into Angel's pants, looking at him for an 'okay.' Angel nodded and blushed as he felt his pants get pulled down to his ankles, then clear off. Zack looked his body over and smiled. It was gorgeous. He had a flat stomach that went down to hips that curved slightly and between his legs lay a perfect size erection. Zack took in the sight and ran his hands down Angel, grasping his hips. Angel whimpered, spreading his legs. Zack groaned and grasped a hold of Angel's cock, jerking it slowly. The boy gasped and bucked his hips, causing Zack to become even more excited. He removed his boxers and tossed them with the rest of their clothes before leaning down between Angel's legs, licking up his length slowly. The younger blonde gasped and moaned, grasping Zack's hair between his fingers. Zack smiled and licked two of his fingers, getting them moist. He dove back in and took the length in his mouth, sucking slowly as he slid a finger inside of Angel. Angel squeaked and tried to relax, the intrusion not making him feel so comfortable, but the movements of Zack's mouth around his cock making him feel wonderful. Zack inserted a second finger after a while that caused Angel to scream quietly. He thrust them slowly, scissoring the boy. Angel began moaning and thrusting his hips downward to meet the fingers that were prodding him. He let out a loud scream, followed by a moan, as Zack found his prostate. He kept his fingers in that spot, ramming them against the area and rubbing them against it. Angel thrashed around and screamed out Zack's name. Zack's cock twitched, and he realized he needed Angel now.

Zack removed his fingers and crawled up to Angel, kissing him. Their eyes never left each other as Zack licked his hand to moisten his cock before positioning himself. Angel took a deep breath as Zack slowly pushed into him. He got wide eyed, gasping at the searing pain. Tears sprung to his eyes, but he fought them back for Zack's sake. If this was a final way that they could be close...he would do whatever it took to be a part of Zack's life forever. Zack moaned at the heat and tightness of Angel, trying to control himself.

"Angel.." he whispered.

"Zacky..." he spread his legs further and wrapped them around Zack, pulling him all the way in.

They moaned together as Zack began thrusting, causing Angel to roll his hips. They held each other while Zack whispered soothing words in Angel's ear, hoping he wasn't hurting the small boy. Angel suddenly let out a loud yell, arching his back.

"Again.." he whined, begging for that wonderful spot to be touched again.

Zack nodded and aimed himself in the area he did before, ramming his cock against Angel's prostate. Angel moaned and raked his nails across Zack's back, feeling exceptionally good. Zack bit the boys neck before thrusting harder.

"I love you...Angel..." Zack blinked back a few tears as he thrust deeper, wanting to feel as much of Angel as he could.

"I love..." he screamed and rolled his hips faster, "mm..."

Zack smiled and rolled over, positioning Angel on top of him. Angel looked down at Zack with confusion, but caught on quickly when Zack grasped his hips, moving him front to back. Angel began to ride slowly, causing Zack to moan and thrust his hips gently. Angel found a good rhythm and bounced quicker, slamming Zack inside of him. He gasped and moaned as Zack thrust up harder.

"I feel strange..." Angel ran his hands down his body, biting his lip.

"Are you cumming?" Zack panted.

"I-I don't...know.." he moaned and grasped his cock, jerking it in his hand.

Zack watched and just wanted to throw the boy down and fuck his brains out, make him scream louder, beg for more...but now was a more intimate time...

Angel leaned down and kissed Zack deeply, "T-take..over..I'm getting tired.."

"Okay," Zack rolled them over and began thrusting harshly against Angel.

Screams came from the smaller boy as Zack pounded into him, nipping at his neck. He wanted to prevent having an orgasm, and it was going to be hard to do. But soon, Zack could no longer take it and felt himself cumming.

"Angel.. I'm almost..." Zack held back and jerked Angel's cock.

Angel nodded and knew that he was almost there as well, "Zack!" he screamed loudly, arching his back from the bed with a moan. Cum shot from his cock and onto his stomach in short strands.

Zack groaned and came at about the same time, spilling himself inside of the boy. Their lips met, and Angel began crying quietly; as did Zack. It may have been their first, and last, time together. Zack held onto Angel as tight as he could without hurting him until they finally stopped crying and fell asleep together.

"Zack? Angel?"

Angel sat up quickly, and realized it was a mistake. He was sore. He groaned in pain and rubbed his tired eyes, "Daddy?" he called out, looking over the edge of the loft.

"Ships going to leave soon...Zack should get going."

"Okay..." he frowned. He gently shook Zack and crawled on top of him, hugging him and kissing him awake.

"Hm...?" he woke up and looked at Angel.

"The ship is leaving..." he choked on his words, tears spilling out onto Zack's bare chest.

Zack nodded and sat up, looking for his boxers. He pulled them on and kissed Angel deeply, "Walk with me?"

"Of course..." he stood up and walked down the steps, finding some clothes to wear for the day.

Zack hopped down and opened his backpack, removing his clothes for the day. He pulled on a sweater and jeans before seeing his favorite hoodie in the bottom of the bag. He half smiled and closed the bag, throwing it over his shoulder, "Ready..." 'not...'

Angel grasped his hand, "I'll be right back daddy..."

"Okay. Hey Zack?" Ezra said.

"Yeah?" Zack turned.

"Be good."

Zack smiled and said goodbye, walking from the house with Angel. They were silent the entire walk to the ship, holding hands and tears falling down their faces.

"I'm gonna miss you..." Zack looked to Angel as he stood by the plank that walked up to the ship.

"I'm going to miss you too..." Angel hugged him around his waist and nuzzled into his chest, "I love you Zack..."

"I love you too, Angel..." he held onto the boy and regrettably let him go. He opening his backpack, pulling out the hoodie that he had seen before they left the house. He placed it on Angel and kissed him, "This is my favorite hoodie...You keep it."

"I can't do that," Angel cried.

"Yes you can.."

"I didn't get you anything..." he looked to the ground.

"You got me you..." Zack kissed the back of Angel's hand and smiled, "Call me..."

"I will," he nodded and kissed Zack.

Zack walked up to the ship and waved as the door shut behind him. It was normal for Zack to be the last one on the ship after they departed. He ran as fast as he could to the sky deck, seeing that the ship was already leaving port. He spotted Angel standing in his hoodie, crying his eyes out. They waved and mouthed the words 'I love you' before they could no longer see each other. Angel stood in that one spot until he had no more tears to cry, or what felt like he had no more tears to cry. His throat hurt and he just wanted to go home and sleep. For the rest of his life.

Zack walked to his room, feeling angry and sad. He was about to open the door to his room when the door behind him opened.

"Zack?" Cody placed his hand on his shoulder.

"What?" he said, bitterly.

"Angel's gone...isn't he?"

"Shut up..." he felt the tears returning, rushing down his face.

"Zack, I'm sorry," Cody followed him into his room and hugged him.

"It's too soon..." he cried, "It's too soon for him to leave me..."

"I know..." Cody rubbed his back and sat him down, "you might be able to see him again...you never know."

"Cody... I don't know what to do without him... It's like..if I lost you," he curled into Cody, crying softly against him.

Cody just held him, soothing him as they sat on Zack's bed. Zack soon cried himself to sleep and was laid down.

"What's wrong with him?" Marcus walked into the room, Woody trailing behind him.

"Angel's gone..." Cody said quietly, laying with his brother.

Woody gasped, "He's dead?"

"No, stupid.. Gone off the ship," Marcus walked over and grabbed up a few things from the floor, putting them away.

"I've never seen him like this before..." Cody admitted.

Zack was normally strong, especially when it came to emotions. But as the next few weeks went by without Angel around, he began distancing himself from his friends. He would skip meals, refuse to participate in class activities, he found no pleasure in anything. Well, anything other than looking up at the stars at night; he knew that somewhere, sometime, Angel was watching the same stars.

"Zack," Miss Tutweiller walked up to the blonde teenager. Moseby was close behind, along with the school guidance counselor, Mr. Blanket, "We think it's time that you started going to therapy and... talking about your feelings."

"You've been very upset lately Zack, and we are all worried about you. I've contacted your parents and they agree that you should attend group counseling, or regular therapy," Moseby said next.

Zack just looked at the trio standing before him, a blank expression plastered on his face. He said nothing as he walked away, leaving the three there as they called after him. He wasn't in the mood to talk, and lately the only one he could talk to and cry to was Cody. Of course, that's how it should be..they were brothers after all; twin brothers.

"Zack?" Cody ran up and smiled at his brother.

"Hm?" he looked out at the ocean. They were currently docked in Iceland, and Cody was excited to get off the ship and explore what he could in their short stay.

"Want to go bird watching? I hear it's mating season for the puffins," Cody grinned.

Zack thought for a second; he'd been cooped up on the ship for weeks now. He should get out, at least to think for a while.. of course, he'd been doing a lot of thinking lately. A lot of 'non-Zack' behavior. He had been thinking so much, he didn't realize half of that thinking was schoolwork. His grades had improved, and it didn't faze him in the least. Normally when a person becomes depressed, their grades tend to drop..but Zack drilled himself into the work to avoid thinking of his lost love.

"Okay," Zack grasped his brothers hand and walked with him off the ship.

"How are you feeling?" Cody looked to him and found a tour group that was going off to watch birds.

"I dunno..." Zack shrugged.

"Have you talked to him?" Cody asked.

"No..." he looked to the ground, "we've been emailing...he doesn't have service in Alaska..." Zack sighed.

"I'm sorry... he doesn't have a house phone?"

"No..." Zack shook his head.