A/N: The ending turned out a bit longer so I've divided it into two parts. Reason is I wanted to explain the feelings more and it turned out that I'm no good with short stories Ugh whatever I hope you guys enjoy it.

Sasuke was having his lunch while sitting in the nearby café of his university. He did his Ph.D. there together with Naruto and then when they offered them job both of them accepted as a matter of factly.

For Sasuke to be around Naruto was like a torture and in these years there were thousands of time when he thought that he would just jump on his best friend but he contained himself. He built walls around his heart and his emotions and buried his love for Naruto deep down his heart.

He didn't want to ruin their friendship for his own selfish desires because if he were to be rejected by Naruto what they have would be lost too. Also the problem was one of his rational or most like the egoistic part or him too. He loved Naruto with every fiber of his being but it didn't change the fact he wanted Naruto to understand by himself and come to him on his own. It was a matter of his feelings and his pride.

All of this converted him to a rather cold and sarcastic person and maybe this was the reason his relationships never lasted long. After Sakura he tried to date once or twice but it never worked and he knew the reason, he couldn't love anyone, he couldn't feel the connection and he never felt the urge to have sex with his female partners unless he was far drunk to even think straight.

Maintaining a delicate relationship under the name of 'best friends' while having aching and yearning feelings in his heart, all those passing years were like hell for Sasuke.

He could remember the time when Naruto came out about liking boys. He wanted so badly to just confess and jump him right at the spot but then Naruto blurted out dating Haku.

Sasuke sighed miserably, after Haku Naruto dated quiet a number of boys and girls but he never settled with only one or more like he couldn't. Because after seeing Naruto with so many different people he knew that none of them was able to capture Naruto's heart or more like none of them was that 'one' person Naruto was loving for all this time.

Sasuke finished his coffee and sandwich; he got up, paid and came out of café. Naruto has been gone for almost two month on some conference and was returning this week. Sasuke threaded his finger through his hairs and sighed, Torture was beginning shortly.

If he was out of sight, it was unbearable.
If he was within the sight, it was torture.
This is what is called living hell and Sasuke was living through it…

"I've decided to confess"

Itachi raised his eyebrows and looked at Naruto, who was fumbling with his coats buttons and had a crease on his forehead, Naruto was dead serious.

"And why is that?" Itachi sighed while shutting off TV, "Or should I ask why now?" After Naruto realized his feeling Itachi was the first person he told so Itachi pretty much knew all of his suffering.

Naruto returned early from his trip and after greeting his parents came straight here and Itachi knew right away that Naruto came here for something important.

"I know I always said that I'm not going to confess and I'm not going to get my feelings in the way of our friendship but I can't anymore Itachi I love him so much that it's messing with my mind." Naruto said sighing deeply and slumping his head on back of sofa.

"Well I'm happy that you finally decided to do it because I was getting sick of seeing you pretending to be normal around Sasuke." Itachi smirked and Naruto pouted.

"You are so mean Itachi! When did I pretend?" Naruto glared daggers at Itachi and Itachi just chuckled and then he turned fully to Naruto, "So you are going to leave me alone huh? Why does he is getting all of you? I want some of Naruto too." Itachi purred flirtatiously and brought his face or more like his lips closer to Naruto. Naruto smiled mischievously and brought Itachi's chin up with his finger and opened his mouth to tease Itachi back but then he heard a loud thud and both him and Itachi turned to the door.

There stood Sasuke with a bewildered expression, his lips parted and eyes immediately watering after so many years, 'Oh so it was like this 'Sasuke thought, his mouth felt dry.

"Sasuke! It-it's not what you are thinking!" Naruto quickly got up and approached Sasuke and tried to touch Sasuke's shoulder but Sasuke just slapped his hand away, "Of all the people it has to be Itachi huh." It wasn't more like a question but a statement and then Sasuke looked up and Naruto winced inwardly, Sasuke's eyes were filled with hatred and disgust.

"Calm down Sasuke and stop being childish. Just listen to what Naruto has to.." Sasuke cut off Itachi in the middle of the sentence, his voice cold, "You disgust me" He said and looked directly into Naruto's eyes, "I hate you" Sasuke said in a barely audible voice but Naruto heard it loud and clear and then Sasuke left slamming the door shut behind him.

Naruto stood there stunned, tears streaming down his cheeks and fell on the carpet on his knees while Itachi barked curses while pacing around in the room.

Naruto looked at his hand which Sasuke slapped earlier and thought painfully, "Disgusted huh?" 'So I got rejected even before I asked him out.'

It was winter and it was getting dark outside .Sasuke came into one of the gay bars.. He visited sometimes when Naruto wasn't around .but today he didn't even care if he were to caught by Naruto what would happen because the thing he feared the most happened right in front of him. Naruto and Itachi were…

He didn't want to even think about it. He came back early because he wasn't feeling well and what he saw was his worst nightmare.

Sasuke bit his lips and gulped down his third glass and looked at his cell, screen was yelling Itachi's name and Sasuke saw red. He turned off his cell, 'Fuck you Itachi! How could you do this to me?'

Sasuke gulped half of the liquid and stared at the counter and then he felt someone taking a seat right beside him and looked up. It was some guy with a muscular tanned body and dark hairs and brown eyes.

Guy smiled at him and Sasuke just ignored him sipping his drink, "Hey. I never saw you here before. Uh by the way I'm Seiji and you." Seiji ordered a drink too.

Sasuke looked at him again calculating and thought, 'I came to forget about everything. What could be better than this?' He sighed, "Sasuke and I don't come often so." He finished his sentence with a small smile and Seiji guy gulped down all his drink in one go. The guy in front of him was a rare beauty no a rarest beauty and that smile, just that simple smile made his pants tight.

"Well you are up for some fun?" Sasuke gulped the remaining liquid and looked in to Seiji's eyes darkening with lust. Seiji would have flirted more normally but that guys pale skin showing from his opened buttons of shirt was doing so much to Seiji's mind.

Sasuke smiled faintly again this time more seductively, "It depends on the type of fun you are offering." Sasuke loosened his tie and Seiji followed every movement of the pale delicate fingers.

"Why don't you come see yourself?" Seiji said in a deep voice and Sasuke narrowed his eyes and then got up, "If you say so."

Seiji smiled and led him to some room in the bar and unlocked it with a key. Bar was now filled with so many lights, music and people. When they got into the room Sasuke looked around and there was a single bed, a couch, TV and mini fridge. "My friend is the owner of this bar and he gave me the key to use it whenever I feel like it." Seiji said while sliding his hands around Sasuke's torso and started to unbutton his shirt and trailed rough kisses on his neck.

Sasuke didn't reply and just moaned which in turn made Seiji even more aggressive and he grabbed Sasuke by his wrist and then shoved Sasuke on the bed and climbed on him.

He then sucked Sasuke's lips roughly nipping and biting them and also working out him and Sasuke out of their clothes.

Even though Seiji was devouring his body Sasuke still couldn't respond fully. His body was aching for Naruto and for no one else and boy he wanted it so bad. Sasuke winced a little when he felt Seiji sliding his rough finger into his hole and felt uncomfortable. He never let anyone did this to him because he didn't wanted anyone else inside him and also he was way too prideful to let anyone else dominate him yet here he was letting this random guy do something so intimate to him, guess this was how it is gonna be. His eyes stung and he felt tears gathering in his eyes.

"Damn Sasuke your insides are so hot and wet I can't get enough of you" Seiji said in a husky voice and Sasuke just withered uncomfortably but Seiji thought it was a sign of pleasure and thrust his fingers more roughly. Sasuke's body squirmed while Seiji worked on his member too. He couldn't hold longer and came right into Seiji's hands.

"You are so gorgeous Sasuke. Fuc* I came just by looking at you." Seiji said smiling and fell next to Sasuke spent and tired, "Man that's embarrassing." And tried to hold Sasuke again but instead Sasuke just got up and looked at Seiji with a tired and impassive gaze. He grabbed his clothes and got dressed.

"Wait Sasuke! What happened? You didn't like it? Why are you leaving like this?" Seiji asked desperate and Sasuke didn't turned, he just answered while leaving the room, "It's not your fault. I'm the one who is broken."

Sasuke left with this and came into another bar but not a gay bar this time and just started to drink until his mind stopped working and all the rational thoughts disappeared from his mind fully.