Falling

By ab012

Pairing: Harry/Draco
A/N: Haven't updated in a long time. Will not be surprised if this has no reviews. But if you come across it, do review. Double enter means, 'next part', or what we usually use arterisks for.

day iii. lonely

I'm a little of lonely

One the third day, he was sad. He was frustrated. Mainly because he's realized that there's absolutely no way to get rid of his fee --- desires. Yes, they're merely desires. Nothing more.

He was torn. He'd promised himself that he wouldn't fall in love, and it was becoming more and more apparent every second that that would be the case if he didn't do something to get rid of his desires soon.

The problem was, he couldn't do anything, and yet he had to do something.

So he was sad.

He didn't even see the new emotions flickering on his hormonal interest's face when he saw him. He didn't see the wonder in his eyes, not concern, no, but there was definitely curiosity.

Harry got this look on his face all of the time. He was frowning and he looked like he was about to do something, but changed his mind just before he began. He'd become more and more isolated from his best friends, who, in turn, were becoming more and more concerned. They weren't happy to see their best friend so sad and down.

He'd gotten so worked up about the whole thing that he didn't even do his best in Defense Against the Dark Arts. Lupin, who'd returned for the year once more, just gave him a sad, concerned kind of smile.

He'd been too preoccupied to even notice.

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He was thinking. Of what to do, what to say, how to do and say it, and who to say what to. He thought about a lot of things throughout dinner, and he just thought and thought.

By the time he got to bed, he'd tired himself out from thinking. What was worse was that he had gotten the conclusion that…

…There was absolutely nothing he could do.

He couldn't stop what was happening. In fact, he wasn't even sure he knew what was happening. But he knew he couldn't stop it. He couldn't even if he wanted to, and he didn't want to, and he promised not to.

So he went to sleep amidst all these emotions.

He didn't get as good a night's sleep as the previous night.