Later on in life, Dean will never understand how he could walk around for the whole day, more anxious than usual, sure, but still surprisingly normal.

Maybe he just wants to walk around there and live his normal life. Maybe he knows on some level, even though it will be such a big shock later on, that the life he's built up soon will be broken, crushed and shattered, and nothing will be left.

Like there's anything to be broken .

But he doesn't think about that right now.

He only thinks about Carter and when he's going to come out the building safe and unharmed. He knew he should have went in, should have made a better effort to take Carters place.

He cursed himself under his breath .

Carter didn't care how Dean felt about him going in undercover without anyone . That if he got hurt it would shatter Dean's heart .

He doesn't care.

Carter knows. And he doesn't care

Completely quiet.

There are usually at least some noise. Some rattling with the chains, some pounding on the doors. But now, it's completely quiet. That almost annoys him. Only the dull thumps from his boots against the floor are heard, and what's he supposed to do with that?

It annoyed him, there had to be a van full of cops but not one person had made a noise for what seamed like ages.

Only the static from the walkie talkie and the static in the air that was it, nothing else.

And Dean screams. Into nothing, without words, without strength, just a completely brief, frustrated shout, and makes Ty jump, drop his phone, see him. Has to see him.

" I'm going in, I can't wait any longer!" Dean roars, his green eyes flaming.

" I cant let you do that , man . You will ruin everything we set up just by walking in there" he grabs Deans arm .

Dean tries to pull away but he knows it's useless.

Silence.

If something went wrong he would hold that over Ty's head, till the day he died.

The walkie talkie buzzed, then what he had waited for almost three hours for .

" Ok, were on the west wing . Just made the deal" his voice was calm, no strain or nervousness .

That's all he needed, that's all they needed . They went in and made the bust, finding what they already confirmed there .

Carter had shot at, punched, and kicked about half the guys there, but he was bound to get hurt. He never showed it but Dean knew, saw it, saw the way he limped back to his car and dove off. Leaving him with Ty.

Jamie had left, Boyfriend was sick. Had to take care of him .

Pathetic. Couldn't take care of himself when he had a little cold. Dean huffed

Now it was only him and Ty .

" You want to go get a beer or two?" he looked over at Dean who was staring out the window " my treat " .

Dean shook his head " No, just take me back to office" he mutters

The office is where Carter would be, he was always there.

" why would you want to go back there ?, we can go to strip club anything you want" Ty's eyes were

full of concern .

Deans closes his eye, couldn't, wouldn't look at the concerned worried eyes that fell on him.

" what is with all the questions Ty just take me back, I don't want to hang out !" he hisses " I just

want to go back to the office"

Ty gives him a look, and now, it's his eyes that are covered with ice, and Dean hates that, but he doesn't have to see them for long, he quickly starts the car up and they drive off.

"You know I'm trying to help you, right?"

Softly. Like a growl.

Dean feels nothing.