Change Chapter 3 (Alice)

I feel so miserable these past weeks I don't even know who I am anymore. Jasper was walking towards me smiling I gave him a little smile back not enough for him to notice though I felt a little sad.

"Hey I was wondering if you want to come bowling with me tonight."

"Um no thanks"

I felt low as ever because I love bowling but I'm not really in the mood.

"Oh what about the cinema" Jasper said surprise by my rejection again

"Nah" as I was opening the car door just about to get in.

"What about we go down town to do some shopping I really need some new clothes and I think you could help me pick some what do you say?"

"NO!"

"Alice what's wrong?"

"You just don't understand jasper just leave me alone!"

"How can I understand if you don't tell me?"

"I JUST CANT JASPER!"

"YOU'VE CHANGED ALICE... I miss you"

"Yeah well people change don't they?"

" Yeah but not vampires at least Maria would trust me, sometimes I think she trusted me more then you trust me now!"

I gasped I can't believe he actually just said that there was a long pause I turned around and walked off without getting into the car, struggling to carry all my books. Jasper shouted my name but not loud enough for everyone to hear I mumbled "I'm walking home if you like it or not because you don't need to hold my hand everywhere I go!" I knew he heard it the moment he stopped calling my name. After that I felt horrible maybe Jasper is right I have changed because before I would of never of had that attitude towards someone unless there my enemy like the wolf pack, AAR just thinking of them makes me shiver. I was walking as slow as possible thinking of all the happy moments which put a little smile on my face. I was home finally it took me ages to get home though it did really make me realise how fast I get home by car. I walked up the stairs to the door without putting any effort into it at all. I closed the door behind me and switched the light on, when I turned my back to the door I jumped back with a deep quick breath. Jasper and Emmett where standing still in the hallway with their arms across their chests "God you startled me" I said quietly and highly embarrassed. "Where were you, I've been worrying about you all afternoon?"

"What so I can't go anywhere without permission now, Emmett tell him!"

"No Alice he has a right to tell you off"

"Alice all I am saying is that you could at least replied to my messages and then we could have talked"

"You know what jasper I'm not really in the mood to do this right now" I headed towards the door opening it again

"Where are you going no-

I shut the door before he could even finish I walked down the steps the same way I did 10 minutes ago and went to my old car which I hated so much, where shell I go now I can't bare to even go back to Jasper because I feel so guilty.