I. AM. SO. SORRY.

There is no excuse as to why this is so overdue. All I can do is send my apologies.

I really hope you enjoy this chapter, and again I am so sorry that it took this long to get this posted on here.

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I was sitting down in a field, probably an open meadow or the nearest park; I always get those two confused. It was around noontime, which made the sky turn an odd orange color. It blinded my eyes a bit, but it still looked damn pretty. Adele filled my ears as her voice serenaded me into a depressed mood. I let out a sigh trying to hold back tears from showing because damn it, that's just what Adele's music does.

Oh friend, why are you so shy? Ain't like you to hold back… Or hide from your light.

I got myself thinking about Hayner every time I listen to Adele. My actual human emotions felt sorry for him, and how horrible of a person I was to him. There's no excuse for almost killing him because he had sex with my arch nemesis. I finally understand why he went to Seifer in the first place. But how could he have not known that I loved him? Or, at least felt something strong for him. The wind brushed back my locks, and I was forced to close my eyes as the soft, gentle piano played, and I began whispering the next lyrics.

Never mind I'll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too.

I felt movement in front of me, which made me open my eyes quickly. My eyes stared straight into long, jean covered legs. I didn't dare to look up because I just knew who it was just by looking at the legs. I let out a sigh, out of relief and annoyance: Annoyance, because this little bitch is annoying, and I wish he would just leave me the fuck alone. Relief, because he is the only person actually making me forget about Hayner, and moving on with my stupid, pathetic, confused life. I swear it could be only this guy who can make me forget about Hayner, and all his stupid shit.

Axel sat down next to me, letting out a breath as he sat. He was a bit closer to me than usual. It's funny, because now that you think about it he has been coming closer to me more and more. Not that I mind, but I just thought it was a funny thought.

Aha.

"What's on your mind Blondie?" he asked in a deep voice.

I shrugged, and so willingly and so normal, I responded back with, "You."

I slowly turned my head back to Axel, who was already looking towards my way. His eyebrow did that weird thing where it raises, stays there, and then comes down quickly. He looked away for a brief moment, letting out a sigh.

"I'm trouble kid." He answered back. "You don't want to get involved with me."

I had no idea what came over me. It was as if whatever I felt I did, which is something that I do not do. Well, something I do not usually do.

I leaned forward towards Axel, making me about an inch away from my face to his.

"I don't mind the trouble."

I smiled a smile that was usually something he would give me, and placed my hand on the back of his head. I pulled him forward to my face, and let my lips do the rest. There was no hesitation once my lips touched his, everything was happening on its own. I had no control over anything whatsoever. And you want to know the most awesome part of it all?

I didn't give one flying fuck.

I immediately pushed him down into the grass, and sat above him. I forced a bit of friction, but I was more focused on where I was touching him, and how I was kissing him. Axel made no movement to push me off, or to stop anything. On the contrary, he hands were placed on my hips, trying to get more friction going on. I left his mouth a quick second to leave a trail of kisses down his face to his chest. I heard a long sigh, and it was more of a sigh of content, which made me smile. His long hands trailed up my back making me shiver a bit because his hands were so cold. He smiled, and motioned me to continue whatever I was doing. I felt his hands roam around my back and chest. I sighed as he began to squeeze my hips, which sounded weird, but it felt so good.

"Roxas…" he whispered my name, "I want you…"

Those are deadly words. I know because I've said it to Hayner plenty of times. Wanting someone leads to sex, and that's what I wanted from Hayner. Hayner kept coming to my mind, and all I could think about was what he was doing, how he was doing, what has happened to him while I was gone.

"Roxas…"

I suddenly found myself caressing Hayner in a way that I've never caressed him before. I backed away, leaving just an inch of space between us. I was breathing down on him, and I towered over him. He sat up, his arms still wrapped around me. He smiled his cute little boy smile, and began pulling me closer. I laid on top of him, placing my fingers on his face, my breath lingering around his face.

"Take me…" he said.

I hesitated, and suddenly remembering everything that happened. My eyes widened as I felt him take off my pants, and I felt my whole body panicking.

I sat up in my bed, having difficulty breathing. My hand was placed on my heart, and I felt the beats of my heart, its fast tempo scaring me even more. I heard the sound of Adele coming from my iHome, which happened to be what I woke up to every morning. I grabbed my phone from the night stand, checking the time. My eyes began to adjust from the light as I read the time. Four in the fucking morning, and I have a wet dream about Axel and my ex. Oh grateful joy.

I figured after a dream like that, I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep. I got up, grabbed my things and took a quick shower in the new and improved restroom in which I cleaned. Also, in which Axel almost raped me in. In fact, I was heading into the same shower in which we had our encounter. I thought about it, and shrugged it off.

The hot water hit my face, which was refreshing and relaxing. My thoughts came back to my dream. I wondered why I have got myself thinking about Hayner. Why was I thinking about him if everything is done and over with? I don't know if deep down I still felt something for him, or I felt sorry for him. I just knew that I had a dream about seducing Axel, which then turned into Hayner seducing me.

I took a shower, taking about 20 minutes. I turned the water off, and rested my head against the tiles. I softly banged my head against the wall, but making sure I wasn't making too much noise. I sighed, and closed my eyes. I wasn't ready for today. I didn't want to go experience my first day of school after having that dream.

I knew I had to get out of the shower, so I quickly wrapped my towel around my waist and headed off to my room. The morning weather kissed my skin, which made me want to go into my room even more. I fiddled with my doorknob, but it wouldn't budge. I began to panic, realizing that I was just locked out of my room, even though I'm the only living here. I could have sworn that I left it open just a bit so I would just swing it open without twisting the knob. I sighed in frustration, and rested my head on the door. I just locked myself out of my room, on the first day of school, and a towel is the only thing I'm wearing. You're fucking kidding me.

"Well good morning Blondie." A voice echoed down the hall.

I turned my head quickly towards the voice, my heart beating faster because I know exactly who that voice is.

"Oh, did you get locked out of room?" Axel cooed in his voice that made my skin shiver from down the hall. "Tsk tsk, maybe you should have a roommate to let you in."

"Oh, I need a roommate?" I began to talk. "Is that you're way of suggesting yourself as one?"

"Why Roxas," Axel walked up to me. "How thoughtful of you, but sadly I'm taken by Demyx. But maybe I can convince him to move in with his lover Zexion so they can finally get it over with it."

"I was only kidding Axel…" I leaned on my door.

Axel took one step forward closer to me, his breath lingering on my face. His big green eyes were watching me, up and down. A smiled crossed his face as he lifted his hand and placed it on my door, leaning forward. I could tell he wanted to say something, but he was holding it back because of something else. All he did was smile and fiddled with some piece of my hair that was sticking up. I tried not to look into his eyes because I knew my towel would 'accidently' fall. This man could make many unexplainable things happen around me. I just now came to realize this.

My senses started to come back, and I took this moment to realize that I wasn't going to be his damsel in distress anymore. I wanted him to see me for what I truly am. He needed to know that I can be an asshole too.

"Well if you want to be my roommate so badly, why don't you be a man and ask me yourself? Ditch the blonde; besides he'll probably room with Zexion and then there you are, roommate-less." I lifted a brow for dramatic affect. I can be a very persuasive person.

Axel smiled his wicked smile, and one more took a step closer to me. He exposed his beautiful pearls, and he breathed lightly on my face. I got a big whiff of his fresh toothpaste that he just brushed his teeth with, which was weird yet attractive at the same time. I licked my lips softly and just thought about how his toothpaste tasted like. Maybe he's a mint kind of guy, or what about flavored kind? I hope it isn't fruit.

What the hell am I thinking? You know, this is why I am most defiantly not a morning person; I think about shit like how Axel's toothpaste tastes like in his mouth.

"So what I'm getting here is that you want to be my roommate Blondie?" Axel placed his arm on the door, and I was now trapped. I both enjoyed this and feared this at the same time.

Before I had time to answer back with anything, he smiled, and leaned in closer to my face. "I'm going to hold you to that." He then backed away from me, which made me sigh in depression as I now felt the morning air attack my bare chest. "See you later Roxy."

I watched him as he walked off, and with that my heart was well. Yeah, Axel has taken my heart, whoop-de-fucking-do. This guy needs to know what he does to me…

I eventually got into my room because Axel found the room attendant for me (he has his moments, which I learned after this). I got ready for my first day of class and once I was finished, I walked over to Riku's dorm. I knocked on his door, and not a second passed that he opened it, and came out of his room with the biggest smile. I began to wonder what would make him smile so early in the morning, but I stopped myself and thought that maybe my brother may have to do with this.

"Well good morning good sir." I greeted.

Riku sighed in content, and smiled at me. "Good morning Roxas."

"What has got you so filled with joy?" I dared to ask anyway, even though I know perfectly well.

Riku clapped his hands, and we began walking down the hall to our first class. On the way he explained how Sora would be visiting soon. I found this shocking at first, and realized that he wasn't coming to see me, but then I knew that if he did come visit me it will only be to see Riku. Yeah, it bothered me a bit, but I knew that he made Sora happy, and that's all I want for my baby brother.

"You better treat him with respect." I warned him. "If I find out that you even touched him and he didn't want you to, I swear Ri I'll kick you so hard that you'll feel it where the sun don't shine."

Riku stopped and gave me look. He then laughed, which made me laugh because I just realize what I just said didn't make sense. "Okay Roxas, whatever you say. And relax." Riku told me. "I wouldn't do that to him." He let his reply linger for a bit, and then he was going to continue, but I stopped him from saying anything else.

"In other news," I began a new topic of conversation. "Axel saw me half naked."

Riku stopped me with his arms, and pulled me back. I looked at him, and he had the biggest smile on his face.

"You dirty slut." He said.

I pushed him off me and began to smile as well. "It wasn't even like that. He caught me when I just got of the shower."

Riku lifted his hands in the air. "You were wet too? Oh Roxas, Axel would have fucked you right then and there."

"Will you please shut up and let me finish?" I started laughing. "I got locked out of my room and he came to help me."

Riku gave me a raised brow and shook his head. "I bet that's not all he wanted to do."

"Oh God, Ri you're such a pervert. Anyways, he just talked to me about roommates and he mentioned that he should be my roommate."

"Wait-wait-wait, pause, I thought you didn't want anything to do with this guy, and now you want him as a roommate?"

I shrugged and answered truthfully. "Yeah, I do."

Riku raised a brow, and let go of his grip on me. "Well shit then."

We laughed together as we walked into our first class. Riku took a seat around the middle of the classroom, and being the lost puppy that I was, I just sat next to him. I began looking around the room, trying to figure out what kind of atmosphere it's like. There were many pictures of different places in the world; Paris, England, Peru, Ireland, Russia, and many other places. They looked like professionally taken photographs, which intrigued me even more. As I looked around the room, I found that it wasn't decorated as much with colorful things, but colors that made the pictures stand out. It's nice to know that I'll have a good stuff to look at when I get bored of this class.

"So this class is pretty much kickback." Riku began. "Not a lot of people are in this class, so the teacher is basically talking to no one."

"When you say kickback, do you mean Mr. Xaldin kickback?" I asked.

"No, this is nothing like Mr. X. He seriously let you do nothing in his class. You could pop a joint and wouldn't get caught. No this guy just lets you do whatever you want, but nothing to that extreme."

I sat back in my seat, letting my feet stretch over to the next seat in front of me. I swung my arms on the back of my head and smiled. "Sounds like a Mr. X class to me."

Riku shoved me, and smiled.

The teacher walked in, or whom I assumed to be the teacher. He had this essence of just wanting to be pushed over by the 10 kids in the class. I smiled and thought about how much fun it is going to be in this class. I looked over at Riku, and he mouthed something like "Go easy on him." Please, of course. I will be an angel in this class.

"Good Morning despicable children of the world please do not make so much noise."

He took a seat. This was my chance to take not of what kind of person his really is. He had long blonde hair, and his bangs straightened up, and then back down to the sides of his forehead. His big eyes were a shade of light green, and his facial expression was just plain sad. Poor soul…

I got up from my seat and walked over to his desk. I had my transcript in my hand, and I smiled over his at his desk.

"Hi!" I said more happily than usual. The teacher jumped, and he looked up fast. His big eyes were even wider, and once he made eye contact with me, annoyance came on his face. He simply lifted a brow toward me and went off with his business.

I wanted his attention, so I cleared my throat once again, and straightened my papers on his desk. He glanced away from the book he seemed to be reading, and gave me a huge glare. Right away he noticed that I was a different student, set the book down. He raised his hand and took off his glasses. His eyes seemed to travel up and down from my face to my clothes. If I didn't know any better, I could have sworn that he was checking me out, which is kind of gross because he looked like 50 years old.

He said nothing else, and made a motion with his hand to give him my transcript and papers. I smiled and did such.

"So, your name is Roxas Rogers." He snorted with no expression. "No relation to Mr. Rogers I presume?"

I still kept my smile, but I was now annoyed. "No, no relation."

He sniffed his nose and read through the papers. I left standing there smiling for about 2 minutes, which felt like forever to me. Time was never really my friend.

"Well Mr. Rogers, my name is Mr. Vexen, and welcome to U.S. History."

"Roxas, I prefer Roxas." I corrected.

"Well I prefer Mr. Rogers. Please, have a seat and we'll begin shortly."

I walked away from his desk, even more annoyed. I slammed my papers on my desk, and sat. I crossed my arms and glared at Mr. Vexen. What a huge dickwad.

"Hey, take it easy. He's always like this. You just have to calm yourself, and get used to the class."

Riku's words were sort of appealing. We did nothing for the rest of the class, so I guess it was something I could get used to easily. Every class that I went to seemed to be right next door. Each class had something wrong with it; either the teacher was a bitch, or the class was just too prissy, or it was a sad excuse for a class. I had one last class left before lunch, and it was English. Secretly, I always liked English. There was a time that I wrote kick-ass poetry. I had no idea why I stopped, but I know I was good at it.

I walked into the class and noticed how there were only 5 students. However, I happened to know one of them, but I wish didn't. He made eye contact with me, and smiled his huge wicked grin. He stretched out his arms, which expanded to both ends of the seats next to him because they were that damn long. I sighed, and closed my eyes, hoping he would disappear or something. I opened them once more to find him right in front of me, smiling like some stalker meeting his victim for the first time. I pushed past him and took a seat in the corner of the class. To my surprise he sat right next to me.

"Aw come 'on Roxy, you're gonna be like that?" Axel spoke in a soft cooing voice.

For a second I received chills, but I brushed them off, and sat up, moving to another seat. Of course, Axel followed and sat next to me. Not a second passed that I got and moved to the middle of the room. Axel then followed and sat. I then moved once again and sat where I once began. When I didn't see him around me, I sighed.

"I'm getting the feeling that you don't like me." His voice crept from behind me. "But I mean correct me if I'm wrong."

I turned around and smiled. "No. You are most defiantly not wrong."

Silence broke between us and it quickly became awkward. I wanted him to keep talking, even though I also wanted him to go take a hike. I both liked and hated Axel at the same time, which was weird because I never do have mixed feeling for someone, or for anyone for that matter.

"So Roxas," Axel began. I figured there was no use of getting rid of him so he might as well just stay there. Plus, I liked the company. "What you say about me and you as roommates?"

I smirked towards Axel, which made him smirk back. Damn, I can never win with him.

Everyone's attention focused on the teacher who came into the room, and he quickly went to the chalkboard to write something.

"I'll tell you what," I spoke in barely a whisper as I kept my eye on the teacher. "I'll think about it."

Axel perked up. "Really?" His eyes were big like a cute puppy that got a new toy. I couldn't help but get lost in them.

I managed to focus back in reality. "Yes, I'll think about."

We leaned back into our seats and waited for the teacher to finish writing on the board.

Riku found me after lunch, and sense we both didn't have a 5th period after lunch, we went back to the dorm. I began to tell Riku about how Axel's proposal was brought up once more.

"Wow, he must really want to get in your pants."

I shoved Riku away from me, making him trip and almost land in a bush. He laughs as he continues to walk with me.

"Well I'm just saying that he must really like you if he wants to be your roommate. Usually, he would just trick them into getting into bed with him."

I stopped walking because my heart leaped. I reached for Riku's arm, and I didn't breathe. I had to keep rethinking what I was going to say because my thoughts were going back to what Riku just said; 'Them', as in 'more than one.' He has tried to get at more than one boy than me, and he actually slept with them. I knew he was this type of person, but for some reason it hurt so much to know there were others.

"He," I stopped to breathe once again. "There were others?"

Riku looked at me smiling, not realizing that I was serious about this. He caught my expression, and quickly felt sympathy.

"He likes to play with his boys before he breaks them."

"Meaning, what exactly?" I dared to ask.

"He doesn't really like them. He's just looking for a good fuck."

My fist began to clutch, and my anger was ready to burst out. Immediately I tried to find something I could break. I looked away from Riku and focused my attention elsewhere. Sadly elsewhere was him walking up the path and catching my eye. I watched him as he wore his stupid yet hot sunglasses that hid his beautiful emerald eyes. I guess he didn't notice Riku and me, and he kept advancing his own way.

"Hey Rox, I didn't mean to upset you, I was just telling you what kind of person he is.

I held my tears back and approached Axel. My conscience was telling that what have I got to talk to him about? All of this was pointless, and you're still going to end up hurt. However, my integrity was telling me to give him a piece of my mind because he needed to hear it. Fuck my conscience right now. I needed to make him pay.

I walked over to him, trying to think of something to say to him as I did. Suddenly a force pulled me back and I was pushed into a bush. I began to squirm in annoyance, but then a hand covered my mouth in doing so. I looked to see who the idiot was, and by no surprise it was Riku. He was looking out to see if the see if Axel had gone away. The next 2 minutes was the longest minutes of my life. That bitch took forever to pass by! I was ready to punch Riku in the ribs and walk up to Axel but Riku kept me hidden in the bush until he was a good 10 feet away.

I pushed Riku more into the bush as I tried getting out of it.

"What the hell was that for? I now have scratches all over my arms and my face."

"Just what exactly we're you planning to say to him huh?" Riku continued to whisper my way even though Axel had passed. "Look from what I understand is that you are crushing on this guy, hard. Why do you keep pushing him away?"

"I don't know!" My anger began building up once more. "I have no fucking idea why I like this asshole!"

Riku stayed quiet as he looked at me shocked. It wasn't until Riku I realized that I was holding Riku by his shirt while I was pulling him out of the bush. I quickly let go of his shirt and walked away from him. Riku was calling me, but I ignored him. I didn't want to listen to anything else about Axel. I just wanted peace and quiet for once, nothing to bother me anymore.

"Roxas!"

"Get the fuck away from me Riku!"

I kept walking but he pulled me back and then I stood frozen as I was looking into big forest green eyes.

"Hey." He greeted with a wondrous smile. "You and Riku are fighting?"

I gasped, because I didn't know what I was to say. I just found out that Axel had more than one infatuation rather than me. I don't know why I was making a big deal like I had just found out that he was cheating on me. Burgh! Pull it together Roxas! You're better than this. Alright, whatever happens, make him know that you don't care about his significant others.

"Roxas?" He asked again. "You okay?"

"You're a whore."

Well so much for that.

Axel lifted a brow. "I'm sorry?"

"Why are you trying to get at me? Why am I someone you're suddenly interested in?"

Axel shoved his hands in his pockets and breathed out deeply, creating a small white puff.

"Because I have a crush on you?" he answered simply.

And yet because it was so simply put it made me so pissed for some reason. I was so pissed at how annoy he was yet how attractive he is. It pissed me off that I'm not the first person he would have had sex with. I mean, yeah that isn't something I couldn't control, but damn it pissed me off so much.

"Roxas," Axel began speaking as I was thinking intently which also pissed me off. "Why don't you give yourself a break and go out with me once and for all. A new band is playing just around the block from the school and I would like you to come with me."

"No." I flat out said. I have no idea why the fuck I said no, I wanted to say 'only if we go to your place afterwards' but I couldn't say it for some stupid reason that I was trying to make up! I'm a fucking hot mess…

Axel smiled, leaning in closer a few moments later. "Well then I guess I'm going to force you to come then huh? Relieve yourself from all this stress you're putting on yourself."

"But, all those guys…" I began to whimper now. He has me whimpering now. Fucking asshole…

"Were in the past, and they're not coming back anytime soon. Roxas let me take out, please."

I gave him a glare, a very long glare. I was still so very mad at him for reasons that I don't even know.

"Stop trying to be mad at me for every little thing I do. So what if I fucked over some guys, it's just what I do."

And that was it. I had found my one reason to stay away from him. I didn't even have to look any more.

"Well I don't want that to happen to me." I spoke through gritted teeth. "So leave me the fuck alone."

"Roxas, come 'on." He reached for my arm, but a pulled it away from him.

"Stay away from me."

And that was the last thing I said to Axel. I began to walk away trying not to punch something but then yet another force pulled me back.

Axel pushed up against the nearest wall and he held onto one shoulder as he pointed his finger at me.

"Now let's get something straight here Roxas." His voice wasn't calm at all. It sounded more of like how a villain sounded when confronting his enemy, and I guess right now I'm that enemy.

"I kind of like you, like a lot. Now, I just asked you out, which is something I normally don't do. I even invited you to be my roommate for next semester, which is something I will never do. And now you're turning me down flat? Bullshit. I know you have something for me and I think you're too much of a pussy too admit it because of shit that went down at your old school."

"That' not –" I began speaking, also pushing forward to get away from his grip.

But Axel slammed me back into the wall, and pointed his long boney finger at me once more.

"I'm not finished. Now continue to listen or things will happen."

"Or what?" I asked, adding pins in my words.

Axel chuckled. "You don't scare me midget, not one bit. Now if you will please allow me to continue?"

My anger began to build up as I let Axel continue.

"Now naturally, I would do anything to get my boy, but for some reason, I don't just want to sleep you. I want to get to know you."

"Touching". I tried to hide my emotions, but inside I just wanted to wrap my arms around him, and have him kiss me like in the shower. Fuck that actually happened… And I want shit like that to happen more often between me and him.

"Roxas stop trying to be big a bad because one, you're not even big enough to be 5 feet tall, and second, you being bad is like a puppy trying to be fierce. So cut the act, and just be you."

I leaned in closer to Axel, smirking as did. "Let me go."

Axel closed the distance between us just by an inch so that we were now we shared the same air. "No."

I tried not to lose the expression on my face, but something inside me made all my anger go away, and soon I felt myself blushing.

Axel smiled, and began to flutter his eyes back and forth towards my eyes and lips.

"That's more like it..." He whispered.

I sighed, and then not a second later Axel let go his grip of me and pulled me into a kiss. All sense of being bad melted away as Axel picked me up and pushed more into the wall. Unlike the almost kiss in the shower, he had a longer period of time to kiss me, and he took advantage of that. He began to pick up the pace as he held my face into his, tasting every inch of my mouth. I hadn't really done this in a while, but I tried to keep up with him. I placed my arms around him and hoisted my legs up so I could wrap them also around them around him as well. Axel smiled into the kiss, and began to hold me up as he touched my ass.

I began laughing because it felt so weird, which made him laugh because instead of kissing me he missed and kissed thin air. The suddenly he leaned backwards, and he fell on his back, me on top of him. We continued to laugh afterwards, finding everything funny. Axel sat up, and when I made the motion to get off him he pulled me back down and made me sit on him.

"So Roxy," he began as he fiddled with a piece of my hair. "How about that concert?"

I smiled, and began to thinking about what I had that might interfere. I really didn't have anything at all. I just wanted to make that big dramatic pause in which makes Axel worry that I won't be able to make it.

"I'll see if I have anything planned."

"Bullshit," he smiled cutely. "Bologna and you know it."

I laughed, which made him smile even bigger.

"You are such a cutie. Quit the bad boy act because I like you just like this."

"What, you mean on top of you?"

Axel laughed as he shook his head. "Well, yeah maybe just a bit. No but seriously, I like you when you're being, you."

I smiled at him. "How do you know what me is?"

Axel then became a bit serious, which made me worry. He reached for my face and held my chin.

"Because when you're you, you smile a lot. And when you're not you, you try so hard to be someone you're not."

I have no idea, but it was at this moment that I felt like I was caught with something. I felt like I needed to hide myself because someone actually saw me. It made me feel so weird, and I was never used to having people see me as a person rather than a jerk because, well, I saw that being a dick was better than being myself.

"I have to go." I quickly got off of Axel and began walking towards the path once again. I heard Axel calling my name, but I ignored it. I knew that once I left him, I would leave my true identity with him.

"You are such an idiot!"

"Sora calm down." I told my brother as I was putting away the rest of my clothes.

"No!" He loudly whispered as he tried yelling at me with the loudest whisper he could manage. "No I will not because you just had another person, particularly and very hot person, tell you that he liked you, and you chickened out because he didn't like 'Badass Roxas'!"

"Exactly!" I shouted.

"No!" Sora yet again whispered. "Roxas he liked you as you, not asshole you. Is it so bad that someone likes you that way?"

"Yes! Because then everyone will think of me as a softy, and I don't want that to happen. I'm more than that."

Sora had face palmed himself, and he was shaking his head. I sighed as I checked the time. It was 10 o'clock. In exactly 2 hours I would have completed my first week of school. Also, the concert would have started.

"Roxas, I beg you. Please give Axel a chance."

"Sora you don't even know how this guy is like."

"Well from what I'm hearing, this guy kind of resembles you..."

I gasped, and looked at Sora whose arms were crossed and smirking evilly.

"He is nothing like me." I stated coldly.

Sora shook his head. "I think we need to bring in more advice in here."

I watched my computer screen as Sora began texting something on his phone. In less than a minute, I heard the door open to Sora's room, and I quickly closed my computer. What the hell was he thinking? We had practice this routine that when we web chatted it is in the wee hours of the morning and our father was snoring happily.

My phone vibrated. I quickly checked it because I knew it was from Sora.

Open your computer up! It was mom. I texted her because you need some advice, some good advice.

I did as he said, and opened my computer. I quickly signed back in, and there on my computer screen I saw my mom smiling at me as she saw me. I almost began to tear up, but I kept it together.

"Oh Roxas honey stop being a man. I know you're happy to see me." Even through webcam, it sounded as if she was there in the room with me.

"Now, Sora tells me that you're having boy troubles?" she asked.

I laughed because I found this the most funnies thing. "Yea mom, something like that."

"Well honey I don't mean to hurt your feelings, but I'm going to answer you like I would answer if I had a daughter, okay?"

I shook my head, and then nodded in agreement.

"Alright, I'm just checking. Oh! And before you go off expressing yourself, know that you're going to school to learn, not to just like boys."

"Okay mom!" I laughed afterwards.

"Well, being you is the key Roxas. It always will be if you want to make it work with someone. If you try so hard to be something that is the total opposite, then nothing is going to turn out the way you want it to. Even though it may not seem like it at times, being yourself gets you to more places than being fake ever will. Roxas honey, you have to be yourself. As much as you might not like it, not being yourself will get you only so far, whereas just being you will make others realize that there is more to you than black clothes and make-up. You are your own person Roxas, and you should feel free to express that to everyone. And forget those other people who don't see what we see."

"And that would be?"

"Someone who is remarkably wonderful, and kind. And how amazing you taste in music is."

We both laugh afterwards.

"Now from what I gather, this boy likes you as you, yes?"

I nodded.

"Well then that's all you need to give him honey, just you; not the person are pretending to be. You do have to guard your heart first. And when you know him well enough, then you can open your heart to him."

I sighed as I looked at my mom. "I do need to talk to you about more things often."

She laughed as she began hugging Sora. I had missed her hugs, and right now I wish I was there with her, having this conversation, and having her hug me. I had missed you presence so much, it began to hurt.

"Oh Roxas what's the matter?" my mom asked.

"What?" I had now realized that I was crying, and I tried covering it up.

"Roxas it is okay to feel honey."

I laughed as I used my sleeve to wipe my tears. "Yeah mom, I do have a soul you know."

Sora and she laughed. "Well sometimes it doesn't show."

I shook my head and began to laugh with them.

Suddenly my door flung open, and Riku came in and began talking.

"So a certain someone who wants your dick wants to know if the concert is on."

My eyes opened wide, and I looked over to Riku who was eating chips. He looked at me, then at my computer screen with my brother and mom. Riku had dropped his bag, and was now wide eyed too.

After a whole minute of awkward silence, Riku decided to speak first.

"Mrs. Rogers! How lovely to finally meet you! I'm Riku, Roxas's friend and across the hall neighbor."

My mother raised her eyebrow and gave a side look towards Sora, who was stiff as a rock.

"Why, hello Riku nice to meet you. I believe that Sora talks a great deal about you."

Both boys were wide eyed, and I found this moment to be the most funniest I had ever lived to bear through. I began to laugh I told my mother goodnight, and that I would text her as soon as I went to bed.

"It was a pleasure meeting you Riku. I hope we meet again in person."

"Of course Mrs. Rogers, I look forward to it."

My mom left Sora's computer screen, and right afterwards, Riku pushed me off my seat and began to talk to Sora. I rolled my eyes as left my room to go find Axel.

I found him laying around in the lounge, flipping through channels. I slowly crept up to him, standing near the edge of the couch. I peeked in the corner of the edge of the couch to see his face. He eyes were fixed on the TV screen. I leaned over the edge of the couch and made my presence known.

"Hey."

His eyebrows went up in acknowledgment.

"So, I wanted to know who was playing at that concert tonight."

Axel shrugged, still focused on the TV.

"Look, I'm sorry about earlier this week. I just, have to work thing out with myself first before I let anyone see who I really am."

Axel's attention was now focused on me.

"I really am sorry, and I'll try working on toning down my asshole-self."

Axel smiled and sat up, facing me.

"Actually, I thought it was kind of cute. So maybe you shouldn't get rid of it that quickly."

I laughed and shook my head. "So, what say you and I head over to that concert?"

Axel lifted his arms and held my head. He looked into my eyes, and began playing with my hair like before.

"There is no concert."

My eyes opened wide. "Oh really?"

Axel smiled. "I just said that as an excuse to get you to go somewhere with me. I heard you liked music a lot."

"Well doesn't everybody?" I smiled as well.

Axel smiled, and just looked at me. "I like you, Roxas. And I want to get to know you."

"How touching."

We both turned to face the voice who spoke suddenly.

We both saw another teen, standing in the doorway, arms crossed. He looked expressionless but yet he managed to pull of the pissed look. His long blue hair reached just below his shoulders, and he seemed to have a scar across his forehead. His big brown eyes stared at me as he noticed Axel touching me. He walked over to Axel and me.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"Saïx and I am the head of this hall."

"You wish you were." Axel commented.

"Why wish when you can just simply take?" Saïx spoke in response to Axel.

"Tell me Roxas, what did Axel say to you just now?"

"What do you care?" I asked. This guy was starting to piss me off.

Saïx smiled and uncrossed his arms. "Because I'm Axel's boyfriend, and I demand to know just exactly what you two are planning."

My heart stopped at the words Saïx had just spoke, but I knew that he was just fucking around with me. There's no possible way that Axel could have been with him. Just one look at him and you think of thorns and cobwebs. Just thinking about made me shiver.

"Saïx, you dick." Axel let go of his grip on me and got up from the couch. "Roxas I'm not with this douche. He's just sore from our one time."

"Only one time?" Saïx asked. "Oh Axel, you can try to cover up your past, but it's always going to come back and bite you."

"Yeah apparently, you're the proof."

Saïx laughed. "Roxas don't waste your time with this fiery red head. Not worth the trouble."

"I think I'll decide for myself, thanks."

Saïx gave me a sour look and smiled. "He's cute Axel. Better than the last one. What was his name again? Oh that's right. It was her."

My eyes were wide, and I had to clutch the couch for support. Saïx smiled as he noticed that I had to support myself up because of what he said.

"Well, thought I should drop by and say hi. Have fun on your date."

And then the bitch left.

I clinched my fist so I could hold back my anger. I closed my eyes, not wanting to look at Axel. If I thought that he being with other guys hurt this much, then just knowing that he was once straight made me crazy.

"Roxas, I'm sorry."

"So what are you? Are you straight? Are you bisexual?" I just wanted to know. All of this, finding out his past and making pissed off, it was just ridiculous. I was going to go do crazy shit if I found out more.

"I can't just tell you my past Roxas. We don't know each other that well."

I gasped a bit, and then looked straight up to him. "Well maybe we should let others tell me what's going on with you?"

"Like you're perfect!" Axel threw his hands up. "Stop trying to blame for every little thing you hear!"

"Well maybe I wouldn't be mad if you just told me yourself!"

Axel then shrugged and turned around to turn off the TV. "I knew you would be such a girl…"

Well so much for a whisper. My eyes grew big, and I didn't need to clinch my fists anymore because my hands had somehow reached Axel's face. I was on top of him like before, but this time I was punching the crap out of Axel, and he was letting me hit him, which made me even more pissed.

"Defend yourself!" I yelled in his face and I stopped hitting.

Axel then took this opportunity to push me off him, pushing me to the nearest wall.

"You're not as tough as you think you are, or how yourself chose to be. Quite frankly you're starting to piss me off."

"Then why don't you just go then?" I asked through gritted teeth.

Axel smiled, exposing blood stained teeth. His whole expression freaked me out, but I stood my ground and looked him straight in the eye.

"I'll go," He spoke softly, leaning closer to my ear. "But before I do, I need to return something."

The second later Axel had punch me in the stomach so hard I banged against the wall again. For a few more seconds I couldn't breathe hell I couldn't even see. Axel had loosened his grip on me and let me slide down to the floor. Once I regained my sight, just barely, I watched as Axel walked away, looking back once he reached the doorway. I tried giving him a look of annoyance but he had already walked away.

I was mad at so many things that I soon realized that I was just trying to pick something to stay mad at and let my range come out. It's being the Ghost Rider or something, and having the true devil come out of you because of a little thing that upsets you. I didn't know where Axel came off, punching me in the gut like that. Hell, I don't even know why I thought I had the right to be pissed at him like some little girl. I hated what had come out of this. Actually, no I don't hate it. This is actually the opportunity I need to sort my shit out and get away from Axel; because that's what I wanted all along. I wanted to get Axel off my dick. He got what wanted out of me, and I got what I wanted in return.

So why the fuck do I feel like I'm lying to myself?

A month passed by fast, and I was slowly forgetting about Axel. He on the other hand had made it seem getting over with someone is the simplest thing to do. That dick. I watch him as he begins talking some boy across the hall from my locker. I remember that not long ago that I realized he was like that with me. Holy shit, get over yourself Roxas. You need to get a life; a life that does not include him. He don't need him, you don't need to be with him. I keep saying shit like that to keep me from go crazy. Every time I try to pick myself up, there's always my fucking conscience saying that I needed to work things out with him.

Bullshit.

I need to forget him, that's what I need to do. But it is so fucking had every time I see him talking to that boy across from me. Instead of trying find the negative things, like I always do, I begin to find myself being a girl. 'He probably is only talking to him because he has a closer view of me.' 'Maybe things will turn out bad between them, and he'll come to me.' 'Why isn't he talking to me, and more to him?'

It drives me fucking crazy sometimes I just want to punch something.

Today unfortunately was the day that I did.

I was watching the two disgustingly flirting. My anger was building up and up and finally, I punch my locker closed. All the noise in closet had ceased, and I was left there, feeling the stares of many. I didn't care if people were staring. I didn't even mean to cause this much attention, but it sure did caught Axel's eye. I glared at him, and then began to form my hands into fists. It was at this moment that changed from frightening silence, to awkward silence. I realized that I had placed my backpack inside my locker and I needed to get it to go to my next class. So I was the first to break that silence by turning around, which made a squeak from my shoes, twisting my lock, clicking the handle, and then reaching inside for my backpack. I slammed it once more, trying not to create another attention grabbing sound but I couldn't help it.

I walked to my last class of the day pissed as hell and embarrassed like fuck. I wanted today to be over with and done. I tapped my fingers on the desk as I waited for the teacher to come and start class. My eyes suddenly shifted to a big flash of red that appeared at the door. Big green forest like eyes stared at me as it noticed the attention I was giving him. I quickly looked away and began focusing my attention on something else. I brought out my iPod and began looking at what new games I could install. But of course I kept my eye on the red head that was talking to the teacher, and then heading towards my way. My heart began to race as I felt his presence near me when he walked to his seat.

What I found odd was that I felt movement from behind me, and then suddenly an actual presence. No one sat behind me in this class, so why would someone start now?

But then it was when I felt vibration on the book holder under my seat. I closed my eyes and tried not to turn around and say anything. I needed to control myself, not let something like what happened a month ago. I began taking breathes and focusing on my iPod. Then the vibration began to increase, which also made my anger increase. No, I wasn't going to let him get to me. I needed to control myself, and get through the day.

"Quite a show you displayed back in the hall."

His voice sounded the same, and it was at this moment that I realized how much I missed it.

As much as I wanted to have a huge conversation with him, I ignored him; because it was the right thing to do, or so I thought it was.

"It was really," Axel sighed, and then let out his breath near my ear, making me shiver just a bit. "It was really entertaining to watch you try to be a badass." He chuckled evilly as I heard him take out something.

"You know, call me crazy, but it seemed like you were jealous of someone."

I stood still for a brief second, and managed to say something in response.

"You're crazy."

"Whoa! He speaks." He laughed. "Why don't we have this conversation facing each other? It's rude to not look at the persons eyes when you're having a discussion."

"That's okay, I'm fine like this."

Axel 'tsk' and although I didn't see it, I felt him shaking his head.

"Now you don't want people to take you as a rude now, do you?"

I scoffed and turned around slowly.

"Rude? Please. I can never be rude."

"Well you can sure put in a good punch."

I noticed the cuts around his lip, and realized that I was the one who had done it him.

"I forgive you, by the way." Axel said a few minutes after.

I looked at him, and for the time in a while, I smiled at him.

Class couldn't go by any slower. But I really didn't care. I liked, and missed mostly, talking to Axel. It was at this moment that I just wanted to be his friend, nothing more. Okay well that's a lie. I still liked him but I wanted him as a friend, just for now. Maybe someday soon things will heat up for me and him and we'll do something about it.

The bell finally rang, and Axel and I stayed behind after class to pack out things.

"So who's you're new boy toy?" I asked hurtfully.

Axel smiled as he put away his last book. "Which one?"

I almost dropped a book from my hands, but I managed to keep in steady in my hands.

"I'm kidding." Axel chuckled. "He's just some guy that was flirting with me."

Bullshit, every single fucking day starting from the day after we fought? I don't believe it.

"Oh."

Axel then laughed a bit, but kept quiet.

"What?" I asked.

Axel swung his backpack across his shoulder and looked at me.

"In the same week, you had told me you were straight, and then later on you had kissed me. I'm starting to think if I should be the jealous one."

I smiled wickedly. "But I there's nothing going on between us."

Axel then gave a small smirk. He walked to me and grabbed my chin. "You keep telling yourself that sweetie."

I pushed his arm away, and let him walk past me. Although it was a bit creepy, I smelled the air that he left when he walked past me. Yeah I know girls do this with guys, but I couldn't help myself. It was like an instinct to do it. But it was at this moment that I decided to do something kind of out of the ordinary.

"Axel!" I called out in the hallway.

He was barely half way to the door when I had called him. With such anticipation, he turned slowly, smiling his wicked smile when he got what he wanted. That bastard…

"What happened?" I asked breathlessly for some reason. "Everything was just going great, and then I kept finding out about your past that pissed me off… then it just went downhill from there."

Axel slowly walked towards me, his steps echoing in the empty halls. Fuck, now I know I'm going to get it.

"I don't mean to be so forward," Axel began as he stopped once he was face to face with me. Then in a low tone he said, "But it was your entire fault."

I scoffed, and then chuckled afterwards, pushing him on the shoulder. "That is a bit forward."

Axel smiled. "Well I am a very straight forward person."

We both laughed. I didn't want to look at him anymore. Those huge ass emerald eyes were distracting me, and I wanted to just say what was on my mind.

"Hey." Axel called. He lifted his hand and grabbed my chin, forcing me to look into his eyes. "I'm not finished with you yet. I just wanted you to blow off steam. Now, if you really want to know about my past from me, meet me in the courtyard at 5 today. Bring some snacks because it's a long ass story."

I looked at him wide eyed. I didn't know why he was doing this, but all I knew was that I was for sure coming to meet him at 5. But at the same time I didn't know what I was expecting. Was his story that bad that he needed to tell me in order for us to be together? Wait, are we even going to be together? Holy shit I was confused so much my head began to hurt. Axel was a big confusion ball of terror that liked to follow me around, although, I liked every moment of it.

"Okay. I will." I smiled.

Axel still kept his grip on me, and he lingered there for a moment. He looked into my eyes, and then down at my lips, as if trying to figure out how to kiss them properly. I tried pushing that though aside, but damn I knew it was coming one way or another. I just knew it. Damn it Roxas, you hope for the best too much. I have to start thinking negative things for once.

He's not going to kiss me. He is not going to kiss me.

Axel smiles, and begins leaning in forward towards me face, touching his lips with mine.

Fuck thinking negative. Obviously it isn't right.

He smiled into the kiss, and pressed for more. I thought 'What the hell, I'm going to be here for a while.'

I wrapped my arms around him, and the moment after I did so, Axel pushed himself away from me. I was confused at first, and I could tell it was on my face because right after Axel chuckled.

"I got to break up with that kid I was talking to earlier before we do anything else."

What. The. Fuck.

"You're with him? You're with him and you kiss me?"

Axel smiled. "Well I can't really help myself when you're so cute, and I'm just here in front of you."

"Yeah well try. That dude is probably texting you lovey-dovey shit huh?"

And right cue, Axel's phone beeped twice, proving my point. I shook my head in disappointment, and embarrassment in myself.

"Don't do this Axel. I want all of you. Not half you."

"Since when do you know what you want?" Axel began to raise his voice. "One day we're fighting with each other, then the next we're kissing each other all over the place. Make up your damn mind Roxas."

"Well maybe I would choose easily if you didn't go off and mind fuck with other guys!"

"Well then maybe you should just stay away from me then huh? If I'm such a mind fuck then stay away!"

"I can't!" I yelled.

Axel took a step back, and he examined me. My fists we're clinched and I was trying to control my breathing. Anger wasn't building up, it was all this confusion mixed with frustration. I was so upset about how much Axel was playing me for a fool, and it was at this moment that I realized that I didn't mind. That is what got me. I was about to let him do this to me, and I would be okay with it because I liked him that much. But I wasn't going to let myself be the victim in this. I didn't want to be. But then I wanted to be. Argh! All this confusion was now starting to piss me off.

"I can't stay away from you anymore." I confessed.

Axel lifted his head up, looking down at me from the corner of his eye. He had placed his hands in his pockets and was now just glaring at me.

"Why are you trying to stop us from being something? I can't tell if you want to start something with me, or you want to mess around. Make up your mind. That's why I gave you time, so you could think this through."

And then something crossed my mind. This probably might cause my relationship with Axel, but I needed to say it.

"If you were giving me time to sort my shit out, then what were you doing? Fulfilling your needs while I was unavailable?"

"No, Roxas it wasn't like that."

"That's exactly what it was." I interrupted him. "You can't stand not being after someone, and if you don't get them to where you want them, then you go run off to the next one."

"But I came back to you Roxas."

"But you are still with him!" I yelled once more. "You're still fucking around with him and you're not fully with me."

Axel crossed his arms in annoyance. He looked the other way and scoffed. His energy looked irritated probably because he wasn't making out with me like he wanted to. Son of a bitch, he was making me change my mind that minute, but I still stood my ground to what I wanted to say.

"Fine," He broke the silence. "I don't want to waste my time with you anyways."

Axel turned his back, and began walking towards the exit. My anger reached its limit, and belted out once more.

"Fuck you Axel!"

He had raised his finger right after.

I realized that everything that had started, and just recently ended, was pay back from my dad. He sent me here to get rid of 'this disease', but instead I went off and messed around with Axel. I took this moment as my father getting back at me, and telling me this is what happens if you I try to love someone that's not a girl.

I watched him leave, his finger still raised in the air. I turned the other way once I heard him turn the hallway because watching him leave would be just another reminder of how much hurt came from him. Why was all this going downhill? Why is it that every time I touch something, it ends up turning to shit. With Axel, it was just plain confusing. Anything that I thought of when I was around him, my father came to mind. He was always there in my mind to tell me that being gay was wrong, and that I needed to change. The crazy thing about all this though was that I wanted to! I wanted to change my life style because of my dad. Just for him. Not even for me because I thought it was wrong. But my own thoughts? I didn't giving a flying fuck if I liked girls or guys or both! I just listened to my gut feeling, and it somehow it led me to Axel.

But look where it got me! Alone in a hallway, clinging to the kiss that was still fresh on my lips and knowing that is the last kiss I'll have for a long time. I stand there and wonder why in the hell did I decide to get myself in this mess. I guess this is one of those moments where father does know best.

From now on, no one is going to fuck with me. No one is going to mess me up and treat me the way I don't want to be treated. Now, I take matters in my own hands. Now, I need to find myself again, and get out of here and go back home. Why should I be worrying so much about myself when I have a little brother who might be in the same situation as me? I should stop being so selfish and think of others, particularly my brother.

So as of right now, I am going to forget that asshole, and focus on having my dad to let me come back home. But what I need to do first is convince him that I've changed my ways just a bit…

Suddenly I hear footsteps coming from the hallway. It was some random boy putting up posters to some dance that will be coming up. I quickly run up to him and ask for a flyer. He handed me one, and I read it fast.

SPRING FLING!

Bring your hot date for a night of FREE drinks and food.

'Bring your hot date' were the words that caught my attention. My thoughts go back to a certain school that has such girls.

Operation straight for a day phase one: Get a hot girl from Lavender Academy to go as my date.

OKAY.

Again, I am sorry this was late, and let me also apologize if the story made no sense D: Mistakes, please point them out. I wanted to get this up as soon as possible. I won't make any promises on ch.4, so all I can say it will be up soon ^^

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