3 Hey! ShamanShadow here! For those who reviewed to my last chapter thank you and sorry for the long wait for me to update, you see, it was my last year in junior high and my parents wanted me to get good grades. I also trained very hard as the team captain in volleyball…and plus we had this assignment in english to write this novelia/ short novel, and I kinda placed a lot of my ideas in there and had a huge writers block… So I'm really sorry… and if you want to read my original story… its in fictionpress, title is Destiny's Course… And now… on to the story! XP
Chapter 3: PerfectionSakura's P.O.V.
I lay on my bed, my pink hair scattered everywhere. Although my body was lying in my room, my mind was somewhere else. It was set on what happened yesterday; when I cried on Sasuke-kun, the day he opened up a part of himself to me…
I could still here his voice, telling me over and over again, " As you still have those you love and those who love you around you, your life will never be terrible…"
Tears gathered in my eyes as the tiny droplets finally fell.. "As long as I still have those who love me, huh?" I let out a nervous laugh, "No wonder I'm so miserable," I cried, "It's all because I've lost the faith and trust they gave me… I lost their love, because of my choice…"
When I was just a toddler, I felt loved. For when I was the naïve child that I was, they adored me. They had decided to shape me into the perfect child; a daughter that any one would want to have…
Once they were sure with their decisions, they started their plan to mold me into the perfect child. My path to perfection started with my mother. She taught me everything that a girl would need to know. From cleaning the house to cooking the food, form washing the clothes to stitching them up once torn. Everything was perfect. I became skilled at everything I learned from others; pottery, painting, decorating interior parts of homes, cross-stitching, and even singing. My life was going as planned. And everyone that knew me, everyone that heard about my perfection, adored me. They were always pleased by the actions that I did. However, when the time came and I had to learn things from my father; my life started to change.
On my first day of school as student in the ninja academy, I was nervous; sensitive and shy. I hadn't spoken a word and hardly participated in class. And when my parents heard about this, they were dissatisfied and disgraced, knowing that their daughter, their child who was supposed to perfect in every way, had put them down…
Normal P.O.V.
A young Sakura with short hair ran towards her home. "Oh no," she thought, "I was supposed to be home a few minutes ago! Mommy and Daddy won't be pleased with me tonight." Sakura ran faster than her legs could stand until she was standing on the front porch of their home. Sakura fixed her hair and straitened her clothing, wanting to look clean and tidy in front of her parent's eyes. She checked herself one more time and took a deep breath before finally opening the door and entering her house.
As Sakura entered her living room she walked towards the steps that led to her room and shouted, "Oka-san, Oto-san, I'm home!" She placed her back down on the first step and walked around her house checking every room till she found her parents.
When Sakura finally spotted her parents, they were in the dinning room. Her parent's had a serious look on their faces, discussing a very important matter. As Sakura entered the room, she stayed silent until her parents noticed her; not wanting to be rude and interrupt a very important discussion. As soon as her parent's looked her way, Sakura walked towards them and greeted them, "Conbanwa, Oka-san, Oto-san." she then bowed and only lifted her head once they acknowledged her.
Sakura's P.O.V.
My mother held out her hand to me, beckoning me to come closer to her. "Sakura-chan," she said, "Come here and sit, we have something very important we have to tell you."
I nodded to my mother and walked towards them. By the time I sat down, my father stood up from his seat and started to walk around the room, a stern look on his face. "Sakura, you know that we have enrolled you into the ninja Academy. And because of that, I expect a lot from you. I want you to specialize in at least one kind of jutsu, but you must also do well in your other techniques. You have to be smart and have the mind needed to be a ninja."
My father stopped walking around the room and stopped in his place and gave me a stern look, "Sakura, I don't want to ever hear from your sensei's again saying that you do not participate much in class. I want them to see that you have the potential to be a ninja, the perfect ninja there ever was in konoha. Sakura, you must remember to have the heart a ninja should have and to have the strength and will power that a ninja should have. I don't want you to fail me, do you understand!" He lectured, making sure that every single word he said got into my mind.
I looked at him with an expression that showed I understood what he meant and nodded, "Hai, Oto-san," I replied.
My father gave me an approved look, "Very good, now you better ready our dinner, so you can get to bed early today," he said in a demanding tone.
I bowed to my father and to my mother before leaving the room and entered the door that led to our kitchen. I started preparing our food for that night, remembering the meal that my parents wanted to eat for tonight…
Ever since that lecture, I aspired to be the smartest student in the ninja academy. I learned how to have perfect control over my chakra, and I learned how to create jutsus and perform seals. So far, I had the capabilities needed to be a perfect ninja, to be able to graduate from the ninja academy as one of the smartest students. But if there was one thing I lacked, it was to have the heart that a ninja should have. I had the one thing that would cause a ninja, especially a kunoich, to their weakness; I fell in love, with Uchiha, Sasuke.
I fell in love with someone I knew would never love me back. I hurt knowing that he could never return the feelings I had for him. However, despite Sasuke's coldness, despite the solitude that surrounded him, I hoped and believed that there was still a part of him that could love and care for others. And that belief led me to my downfall. And ever since I had hoped to catch his attention, ever since I did everything that I could to get him to notice me, I lost it. I lost the perfection that was in me, the training and plans that my parents had to shape me into the perfect ninja was gone forever. And that was because I had decided to show something a ninja must never show; their emotions. I left the path that my parent's showed me and started a new one; a path that would be mine forever, the path that I will lean on until my wish for Sasuke-kun to change will come true.
Ever since my father learned about my weakness, they tried everything they could to keep me away from Sasuke. They made sure I got home early right after school, and they always sent someone to watch me from afar. However, my father's plan to keep me away from Sasuke was in vein. For when I graduated from the ninja academy and finally became a genin, I was in the same group as Sasuke. Our team was team 7. It consisted of Sasuke-kun, Naruto-kun, Kakashi-sensei, and me. It was a new beginning and a fresh start…
Ever since our genin days, the perfectionist in me, was gone, as it had faded away with the "love" that my parent's gave me. For when I disobeyed them, they started treating me as if I weren't their daughter anymore, they stopped loving me and supporting me as I ventured on a new path. Although from the outside it seemed like we were a perfect family, once you see it from our point of view, you'll learn that we are nothing but a broken family. We forgot how to love, and when we did, it was all fake…
Though my happiness seems to be eternal, though it seems like I was the most cheerful girl in konoha. The truth is, when you look inside me, all you'll see is a broken glass, never to heal, never to mold again… shattered forever, in darkness…
Author's Note:
Hey, ShamanShadow here, sorry if this chapter is a bit sucky, well, I think it is. Just so you know I was typing this at night, and I still have a writers block. I was able to write this, with luck, pure luck. And now, I'm stuck with another story so ya. And I want to thank Mina. If it weren't for him/her review, I wouldn't be writing this chapter now, because I'm really stuck.She told me that I can't stop at just a few chapters so, you know I didn't. So ya, thanks! XP
I promise you that I will make the next chapter a lot better with a lot more dramatic and tragic stuff happening! I hope XO Thanks to these people for reviewing:
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