Chapter 3: pushed away
A/N: to anyone reading this read/review. Also sorry for the late update, and to answer a question Beast Boy's past will be explored a little bit in the next chapter and much more in depth in future chapters. Now on with the story.
Raven didn't speak to Gar for a few days she figured she would give him some space.
He was different now like he and Beast boy were like two different people and in their own right they were.
Whenever the titans were all together either at a meal time or just hanging out Gar was as emotionless as Raven and his voice equally monotone.
Gar spent most of his time with headphones in his ears listening to music. Though none of the titans knew what kind of music he was listening to.
Another strange thing about him was that Gar had taken to eating meat this shocked all the titans but none more than Cyborg.
At dinner, the titans all had steak including Gar
.
"Friend Gar are you no longer a vegetarian" asked Starfire?
"No, I'm not anymore" replied Gar in monotone.
"So, Be- Gar after dinner you wanna play gamestation" asked Cyborg?
"No" replied Gar. He then finished eating got up and left the room.
That night Gar was on the roof of the tower alone thinking about his past.
Raven walked up to the roof hoping to find him. And there he was. Raven sat down next to Gar. "Beast boy can we talk" asked Raven?
"Go ahead talk I'm not stopping you". "And its Gar now not Beast boy" he replied.
"Look Gar" she said his name like the words tasted sour to her. "I'm sorry about what happened the other day" Explained Raven.
"I'm not" replied Gar "I should thank you this is who I really am, what lies under all the disgusting optimism". "And sorry doesn't change anything" Gar repeated what she told him a few days ago.
After he said that he got up and started to walk away.
Tears started to form in Ravens eyes after hearing what Gar just said she was devastated. Before he walked out the door Raven spoke. "Then let me change things" she said with tears in her eyes.
Gar turned around and looked directly at her. "No", he said and turned back around and walked away.
Raven felt like her heart had been ripped out of her chest and crushed into a million pieces
Tears now streaming down her face. Raven phased through the roof to her room.
Once inside she walked over and collapsed on her bed her hands covering her face as she sobbed. A few moments later a knock came at her door.
"GO AWAY" she shouted through her crying.
The door opened, and Robin walked through her room and sat on her bed next to her.
Raven was too distraught to yell at him for invading her privacy .
"Do you want to talk about it" he asked?
Raven sat up and once again she hugged Robin and cried on his shoulder.
"He hates me" she cried.
"No, he doesn't" Robin said in a soft voice. "But if it makes you feel any better, I think he hates everyone now".
Raven gave a small giggle at his last statement. She stopped crying and calmed down, but she still clung to Robin.
"Hey Robin, I think if I can help Beast boy, I need to know more about him, and you know more about him than me". "Can you tell me about his past" asked Raven?
"Yeah, I'll tell you about it just ... not tonight" Robin replied.
"Raven can I ask you a question" said Robin?
"Sure", replied Raven.
"How long have you had these secret feelings for him" he asked?
"Since he and Cyborg went into my mind" replied Raven. "I have a question for you Robin" said Raven.
"Sure, anything" replied Robin.
"How do you know about Beast boy's past" questioned Raven?
"Let's talk about all that tomorrow" suggested Robin it's getting late.
"Okay" replied Raven "good night Robin and thank you for listening".
"Anytime Raven you're like a sister to me and I'll always be here for you".
Raven gave Robin one last small squeeze before she released him, he stood up. "Good night Raven sleep well" said Robin.
"You to Robin good night" she replied, and he left.
The next afternoon Gar was aimlessly strolling around the tower listening to his iPod emotionless features grace his body and face.
Starfire was playing with silkie and Cyborg was working on the T-car.
Robin and Raven was sitting on the couch in the common room.
"So, can we talk now" asked Raven?
"Sure", replied Robin" let's go to the roof".
As they approached the door that lead out of the common room the alarm sounded along with a strobing red light.
Robin and Raven immediately turned and ran back to the computer to see what the disturbance was.
A moment later the rest of the team was in the room.
"What's going" on asked Cyborg?
"Adonis is causing destruction downtown" replied Robin.
"Titans Go"! He shouted.
Starfire and Raven took to the sky, Gar and Cyborg were in the T-car and Robin drove his R-cycle.
Once downtown the titans saw Adonis attacking buildings and cars and just plain causing mayhem.
"Ahh titans you think you can take the mighty Adonis then come get some" bellowed Adonis.
"Titans take him down" shouted Robin.
Adonis lunged at Raven and all the Titans lunged at Adonis.
Robin went to hit him with his Bo staff, but Adonis was faster and hit Robin in the chest sending him careening into a building rendering him unconscious.
Cyborg shot his sonic cannon at Adonis, but it had little to no effect.
Adonis grabbed a piece of a broken building and threw it at Cyborg hitting him causing him to be severely dazed.
Starfire shot starbolts at him which also did no damage.
In one fluid movement Adonis grabbed Starfires ankle and slammed her to the ground and kicked Gar.
Raven was throwing things at Adonis with her powers but that also had no effect.
Adonis then tackled Raven and pinned her to the ground.
"How about you ditch these losers and let a real man show you a good time".
"When you find a real man, you let me know" retorted Raven.
"I like e'm feisty" said Adonis seductively.
Raven shuddered at those words.
Gar shook off the pain he received from the kick and saw Raven pinned to the ground. He remembered what happened last time and a wave of guilt, regret, and self-loathing filled his mind. He used these negative emotions to his advantage.
Raven could feel the negative emotions radiating off Gar.
And again, his memories flashed through her mind so fast she couldn't understand them. And his emotions were overpowering her again, but she was determined to stay conscious if she could.
That's when she saw the scene before her.
Gar ran and punched Adonis in the back of the helmet to get his attention.
Adonis turned to face Gar and had no time to react as a studded glove connected with his face throwing him off balance, he stumbled back a few steps.
Gar took advantage while Adonis was caught off guard he jumped up and tore through Adonis nose with the spike on his boot.
Blood splashed Adonis face as he let out a scream of pain and fell to the ground.
Gar jumped on Adonis with incredible speed and was savagely beating Adonis with his studded gloves.
Blood stained his white gloves with every hit he delivered.
Adonis was unconscious and still Gar didn't stop.
All the team were starting to regain consciousness, but Robin was the most recovered he looked over and saw Gar savagely beating Adonis to death. "STOP IT GAR IT'S OVER" yelled Robin.
Gar didn't stop he seemed to be completely lost in blood lust.
"Starfire grab Gar before he kills Adonis" yelled Robin.
Starfire looked at Gar in horror but did not hesitate. She flew over and wrapped her arms around him and flew him up away from Adonis.
Gar struggled against Starfire's alien strength, but it was useless he could not break free. Gar let out a loud guttural scream of desperation but the Tammaranians grip never wavered.
Raven watched Gar nearly beat Adonis to death and she watched as Starfire grabbed him and he screamed loudly. When she looked into his eyes the only thing, she saw was the feral raw primal emotions that were threatening her consciousness.
She realized that Gar was using all his negative emotions on Adonis he was holding nothing back. She also realized that all those emotions had something to do with his past and she had to find out what. The last thing Raven saw before she lost consciousness was one of his memories flashed through her mind.
She saw the Beast...and at that moment she knew the emotion that belonged to it was guilt.