I'm Not Strong Enough To Stay Away

Some Sort of Sick Satisfaction

The next morning Aki woke up to Hitsugi climbing into his bed and gently shaking him awake. Hitsugi was like a child in some sense. He always treated Aki the way he would an older brother. Mostly it was just his behavior that made Aki feel that way. And that the younger guitarist was always so trusting of Aki that Aki could hide even the biggest secrets from his friend if he wanted to. After he'd successfully awakened his friend, Hitsugi snuggled up next to Aki to enjoy the warmth of the other's body and the feeling of happiness he got from spending time with his best friend.

"Good morning, Gorgeous." Aki whispered to his friend as they lay on his bed. "Not wearing any of that nice underwear I bought you yesterday? So ungrateful."

The two men laughed as Hitsugi stuttered trying to find a good response. "Maybe later." He finally replied, blushing.

"You'll have to make it up to me somehow." Aki said, mocking seriousness.

"How would I make it up to you?"

Aki faced Hitsugi, his face dead serious as he replied. "Sexual favors, of course."

Hitsugi's eyes widened. Then he realized Aki was joking and the two men laughed. Hitsugi snuggled back into his place ith Aki.

...

Aki was distressed. As distressed as he was, he couldn't talk to Hitsugi about it. So he left Hitsugi's home for a few minutes to "take a walk" meaning go hide down the street and call Yomi.

Aki punched in the number and held the phone up to his ear, every ring he waited for Yomi to pick up felt like a year.

"Hello?" Yomi finally answered.

"Yomi! I need your help!" Aki replied quickly.

"Aki? What's the problem?"

Yomi waited patiently for Aki to respond. Aki sighed before continuing. "I'm in love with Hitsugi."

Yomi was shocked silent. As much as Yomi loved to talk, he just couldn't comprehend what Aki had just told him. Yomi took a deep breath. "Explain the situation."

So Aki quickly explained what had happened over the past few days and how he was spending the week with Hitsugi. Then Aki stayed silent as he wited for Yomi to reply with something. Anything. Aki needed help.

"Aki... First you need to calm yourself down and think this out. You know how delicate Hitsugi is. If you leave early, he'll be offended or upset. And even I don't know if he's gay or straight so I can't help you there. I think what Hitsugi needs the most right now is a good friend. Last tour he was acting strangly. Every chance he got he'd spend his time alone. He sounds really happy to have you there for him... I guess if you need to than you should tell him how you feel but if you're content not having him know then I suggest you keep this one little secret and stay his friend for now."

Aki tried to swallow the lump in the back of his throat and stayed silent for a minute thinking over Yomi's words. "You're probably right... But... I love him so goddamn much..."

"I'm sorry, Aki... But now you have to take care of Hitsugi."

"I will... Thanks Yomi." And with that Aki hung up. He slowly stood up and walked back towards Hitsugi's apartment.

TBC