C is for Children

Meredith stood in her kitchen, washing the dishes, watching her children playing with each other. She never thought she would have a family, she never saw herself as the kind of person that would live in her dream house with her dream husband with three beautiful amazing children. Derek was sat on the floor with Ellis between his legs playing with their other two children.

Zola was playing with her dolls house that Carolyn had bought her when they finally brought her home for good. Meredith could remember that day like it was yesterday, it was one of the best days of her life. That day started out as one of the hardest, but for it to end one of the best. She would always remember that conversation with Derek after the phone call with Janet

'Meredith, Cristina said Janet phoned you' Derek said walking into the lounge where I was changing as she was asked to go with Alex.

'Yeah she did'

'What did she say?' Derek asked

'That we're not getting Zola back' I said not making eye contact with Derek or I would break down

'What exactly did she say?'

'She said that the court cancelled our hearing, which means we are not getting her back. She said that we need to consider moving on'

'Meredith' Derek said holding me and turning me around to look at him, 'It doesn't mean it's over. We can phone her tomorrow, we can sue them. We can do whatever it takes to get Zola back, she is our little girl' Derek looked at me in the eyes as tears built up in both of our eyes

'Derek, it's over. We're not getting her back' I picked up my bag and walked out of the lounge leaving Derek alone. I didn't want to break Derek's heart but I was the one that made the mistake that costed us our daughter. I didn't want any other child, I wanted Zola

'Right Zola, Bailey it's bedtime' Meredith said

'It's early mommy' Bailey moaned

'But we're up early tomorrow remember, we're going to see nana' Derek said

'Ah yeah' Zola and Bailey shouted at the same time

'Come on' Meredith said, following her oldest two children into their bedrooms. She went to Zola first and tucked her into bed and kissed her head before turning off her light and making her way to Baileys room.

'Mommy' Bailey said

'Yes Bails' Meredith said tucking him into bed

'My friend at school said that his mommy told his daddy that she is having a baby'

'That's nice' Meredith said sitting on the edge of his bed

'Do you remember when you told daddy about me?'

'I do Bails, I remember that very well'

I sat on the couch waiting for Derek to get home so I could tell him the news I had been wanting to tell him all day. I heard the car pull up on the driveway then the door opened

'Hey, so I talked to Clemens. He referred the patient to somebody over at Seattle Pres' Derek said walking in and putting his bag on the counter

'Great' I said not really listening to what he said, 'Take a look at the shirt I bought Zola today, it's in the bag on the counter'

'Oh, Meredith, guys don't get all goo-go over baby clothes' He said about to open the fridge

'Just look'

'What is this?' Derek said opening the bag and taking out the shirt. He held it up and read what it said, his eyes lit up and opened really wide as a smile grew on his face

'It's only three weeks, so I shouldn't even be telling you. I mean, I still have a hostile uterus, and terrible things are always happening to us, which is why I haven't even told Cristina. So if you tell anyone, I swear, I will kick you out of this house that you built' I ranted out as I stood up

'Don't worry' Derek said walking over to her, 'and good things happen to us. We're going to have a baby'

'We are going to have a baby' I said before being pulled into a hug by Derek

'Night night Bails, sleep tight' Meredith said turning the light off and closing the door behind herself. She went back into the living room to find Derek changing Ellis into her pyjamas.

'Are they okay?' Derek asked

'Yeah, both asleep'

'Let's get this one to bed' Derek said standing up and picking up Ellis

Since Ellis was still very young, she was still sleeping in her cot in Meredith and Derek's room. They went into their room and placed Ellis into her cot, and both stood there looking down at their baby.

'When I put Bailey to bed, he asked me if I remember when I told you that we were going to have him'

'I remember that very well, I remember each moment we found out that we would have each of our little angels'

The police had just come to my door, to tell me that my husband had been in an accident. I didn't know how bad it was, I just knew I had to get to the hospital and make sure he was okay. I quickly woke Zola and Bailey and grabbed their shoes and coats, before the three of us climbed into the police car.

When we got to the hospital, a social worker was waiting for us. She was going to sit with my kids while I went to see Derek. I was led to his room, I opened the door and saw him lying on the bed. A bandage wrapped around his head, his arm in a cast

'It's not as bad as it looks' The doctor said to me

'Okay, thank you' Meredith said before going into his room. I sat beside his bed and took hold of his hand.

'Oh Derek, what did you do? Please wake up, we need you. I'm scared, I can't lose you. Me and the kids, we need you' I said to him, 'I remember you said that you wanted more, you wanted us to have more, well we are. I'm pregnant, and I need you to wake up so you can be a fantastic daddy to this baby'

'I...I l..ve' Derek groaned as his eyes opened slowly

'Derek, you're awake' I said

'You're pregnant' Derek said smiling

'I am, we're having another baby'

'We are' I leant down and placed a kiss on his lips before going to get Zola and Bailey so they could see their daddy.

Meredith and Derek climbed into bed, Meredith cuddled into Derek's side. They lay there quietly, Meredith just thinking about her family. Everything she had achieved.

'I never thought, when I first met you in that bar, that we would be married and have three beautiful children' Meredith said

'I did, I wanted to marry you and have children with you from the moment I saw you' Derek said

I had everything I wanted, I was chief of general surgery, I had an amazing husband, I lived in my dream house, I had three amazing children.

It was all mine

My husband

My house

My Children