Author's Note: I know it has taken me some time to update this but there have been some obstacle's in me way. One was fanfiction, deleting so much of our roleplay that I couldn't go back and piece together this. The second has been internet which I have now gotten back. Well now there is a third, for to go forward with the story. Well for this I'm thought long and have come up with the solution of passion. Taking people into the mind of one of my one of my well created characters. Creation of his mind to be exact.
Have you ever have the sudden realization you exist. That your brilliant and the universe is your playground. Yes?
No...no. I thought so...Well, guess that's just me then. Mete-crisis, clone, replica, him...I'm part human, part Time Lord. I'm a mistake but even so I'm fine with it.
Well, was I really a mistake?
The Doctor, a Time Lord. A powerful man to some, and admiration to others.
"I'm the Doctor. I'm a Time Lord. I'm from the planet Gallifrey in the Constellation of Kasterborous. I'm 903 years old and I'm the man who is gonna save your lives and all 6 billion people on the planet below. You got a problem with that?"
He 's someone to look up to, a hero, an enemy, a lover. Even if The Doctor in turn doesn't or won't admit to ever love a person back.
I'm part him. I have his looks, a bit of his attitude, and the best part of him to have. I have his mind, The Doctor's mind. I know everything he knows...Scratch that, mostly what he knows. Unless he knows something knew since our last meeting then I don't know that...But that's another story.
See I have the best of The Doctor but then again I have the best of another. Being part human means I have the one thing The Doctor doesn't, one thing he can't. A human life, the ability to grow old and live with someone you love.
"I have one heart, which means I'm part human, I only have one life and I can spend it with you...Rose Tyler, if you want."
A normal human life, something The Doctor wishes he could have. Something he had once and had to give it up.
"John Smith, why can't I be John Smith, with his life, his home, and his love. Why can't I be John Smith? Isn't he a good man?"
The Doctor couldn't be him, but I could. He gave me to Rose Tyler, one of his most faithful companions. A woman he...Well a companion he cared dearly for.
I was able to tell her what she always wanted to hear, and take what he always wanted to. My life left me with something to live for, I could be John Smith...I just never thought about being him.
I was never given a choice to be another. I existed and with my existence I was The Doctor. With the life I was given threw my eyes and the people I was around. I was The Doctor.
At least until I was tossed into The Doctor's world, into his reality and in front of her eyes.
A First Glimpse:
When I first met her she reminded me of the rest. A girl off on adventurers with The Doctor, his companion until the end. Stubborn minded, thick headed girl. A human only wanting more to life that what she could get.
She looked at me like I was different, and in a way it confused me.
I am him in almost every way, look, memories, even the way I think. I am The Doctor, but this blond haired, violet eyes girl, she thought different.
Karmen, simple Karmen who thought she could help everyone. Who fell in love with two complete different and yet uniquely the same people. Two men who fell as hard in love with her and she did them.
How I ravished in the fight for her, ached for her in my arms, and lusted for just the approach of her towards me.
I never knew how many times I would wined up hurting her threw it all. So many time I swore the other had won.
Seven, my enemy threw it all. Someone both I and Karmen hurt as we traveled down our darken path. Our love never burning out, the fire always burning for one another.
How the flame can dim threw heart ache and sorrow, yet never truly burn out.