The letter.

Dean rushed from the car to his room in record time without a word to his mother on the way, when he got to his room he locked it kicked off his shoes and took off his jacket removed the letter and collapsed onto his bed, laying on his side as he opened it and began to read;

"Dean;

I know you find texts and emails impersonal so hopefully this will make up for the fact I'm taking the cowards way of writing everything down, instead of telling you to your face but you know what I'm like when things get heavy. I don't want to play games, so this is me laying my cards on the table; I'm sorry, so sorry about what happened at lunch. You wanted to talk and we need too but I panicked. Dean you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and when we kissed yesterday you made my life that much sweeter and so much more complicated. I didn't want to hear you say, I couldn't bare to have you say that it was a mistake that we should forget about it because that's impossible for me. So instead of hearing you out, I just wanted one more kiss before you pull the plug on everything we could be. I don't know what I feel for you yet Dean but I know its stronger then simple friendship and I know we could be so wonderful together. I know you're not gay but I didn't think I was until yesterday, until you kissed me, so maybe it's the same for you. I am under no illusions of sunsets and happily ever afters, I'm not expecting a fairy tale were too old to believe in such things. Especially in America between two guys, but we deserve it to ourselves to try for happiness. I know I could make you happy. Just let me try? I never thought life was worth living until I found something worth dieing for, you. You know the things I've been though and its always you that gets me through. I can't find the right words to write that don't make this sound cheesy and stupid, but everything I am writing is true. If you don't feel the same, then I am not holding anything against you. We can't help which way we fall and we can't force ourselves into feeling what we don't. If you don't please tell me and we can put our friendship back on track. If I can't have you as a partner I will not lose you as a friend. I'm coming around for our usual Thursday homework session, I don't have to stay if you don't want me too, but I have to know your response to this. I will see you at seven.

Castiel."

sorry it's so short, just i wanted the letter to have its own little chapter. :)

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