MC POV
After talking to Yamato at the baseball field about the real reason for him working at that school we went back to his apartment. He had me take a bath first. So I did and when I came out he went into the bathroom and started his bath. I wasn't tired yet and for some reason I wanted to see Yamato one last time before I went to sleep. So I poured myself a glass of shochu and sat on the floor leaning against the couch and right next to Roomba.
"I'm still a little confused Roomba," I sighed as I drank from the glass. The strong taste hit me and I felt a little better but not entirely. "I mean he told me he wasn't in a relationship with Yuri. I should believe him but how did she know about his mole."
I sighed and took another drink from the glass. I looked down at Roomba and patted it. "You're a good listener." I was starting to understand why Yamato greeted it when returning home.
I continued talking. "I want to know what he was about to tell Saeki today too. And why did it make my chest feel tight."
I still remembered the racing of my heart beat when he was about to reveal how he felt to Saeki. But afterwards when we were leaving the bar he told me not to fall in love with him. What did it all mean? Why tell me that and then later at the park hug me and tell me he didn't want to live alone anymore. My emotions were going a mile a minute and I didn't know what to believe anymore. I was jealous of Yuri. I was jealous and worried and didn't want to feel hurt like I had when I had seen the mole. I had felt hurt and confused and worried. But was I allowed to feel this way? I was just temporary for Yamato. His fake wife so he could get close to his father. What happened after he didn't need me anymore?
I took another drink and looked at Roomba. "I told him I wouldn't let him be alone but what if he doesn't want me to stick around?"
I laid my head back against the couch and closed my eyes. I must have felt more tired than I had realized. Because I felt myself slowly drifting off to sleep.
Yamato POV
I watched Pouty from the doorway of the bathroom. I had almost called out to her. Had almost joked that she was waiting up for me to seduce me but I couldn't bring myself to form the words. She looked so sad and worried and it bothered me more than I thought it would. I had told her never to hide things from me and she promised. But her next words out of her mouth had made me realize there were some things she couldn't tell me just like there were some things I still couldn't say to her.
"I told him I wouldn't let him be alone but what if he doesn't want me to stick around?"
The words froze me to the spot. I watched as she closed her eyes and her breathing evened out. I thought about what she said over and over as I watched her sleep. She seemed peaceful and beautiful in her sleep. I didn't know how to tell her what I was really feeling. I didn't know how to ease her fears. I knew that whatever relationship she thought I had with Onodera still bothered her no matter how much I had told her there was nothing there. Something had made her doubt me. I had seen the doubt in her eyes when I had told her. And yet she still comforted me. She still listened to me and she still held me as if I was the most important person to her.
I didn't really understand Pouty. I didn't know why I was more comfortable with her than I was with any other woman I had ever dated. I didn't know why I looked forward to going home every day now. Before I only had Roomba to come home to. As much as I loved my Roomba it wasn't the same as seeing Pouty smile at me and say 'Welcome back.'
She was my comfort and light at the end of exhausting days. I don't know when but she became a part of my life and one I knew I couldn't live without. When Saeki had asked me when I was going to let her go, I felt panic rising inside of me. I didn't want to let her go. I didn't want to see her with anyone else. I wanted her to forever stay by my side and with me. But I still didn't want to be left alone again. I didn't want to form that attachment and be left alone. Mom couldn't help the fact that she died. But it still hurt to be alone in the world and find out my dad was still alive. I never wanted to rely on someone again. I was fine being alone. I was doing just fine with being lonely. Until Pouty walked into my life.
I laughed as I remembered the first time I met her. I honestly felt sorry for the person she ended up marrying. She didn't even know her spices. And yet here I was faking a marriage with her. Eating my own words because being married to Pouty whether it was pretend or not wasn't horrible. It was better than I ever expected.
I went over to Pouty and took the glass from her hand. She mumbled in her sleep and I watched her face to make sure I didn't wake her up. I placed the glass on the coffee table and then reached down to pick her up. I looked at Roomba and sighed. "She could have at least drank in the bed."
But I didn't really mind carrying her to bed if I was completely honest with the world. I loved being the one to see her sleeping face and being able to hold her knowing no one else had seen her like this before. At least I better be the only one who has seen her like this. It made me a little jealous thinking about it. As I laid her in bed and covered her up she let out a contented sigh and a small smile formed on her lips. I had to tear myself away as I went back out to the living room where I would lay away thinking about everything tonight. Pouty had become important to me. That was the only thing I was sure of.