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Edward Pov
If I thought her ignoring me from a distance felt bad, it never could compare to her ignoring me in person. She always had a way of flinching away at the sense of my touch. She's so close yet so far from my touch. To see her acknowledge my prescence and still ignore me. Knowing once again that I have something to say, but she won't fucking let me. Now that she's back I don't want our relationship to continue like we're playing telephone. She tells Alice something, and Alice turns around and tells me. She needs to hear what I have to say once and for all.
I let out a breathe I didn't know that I was holding in, turn, and walk to my dads office.
He's on the phone, but he cuts his conversation short when he sees me.
"Okay, Carlisle, I already know what you're going to say", I said walking over to his desk, picking up his whisky bottle and pouring myself a glass.
"Remember when you were five and Emmett and Alice would always gang up on you when you all played together", I nod wondering where the hell he was going with this. "You would always beg your mother and I for a little sister. You said that you would always have her on your team because Emmett and Alice are sore winners. You wanted her to be like you. I believe you wanted someone like Bella. Someone to have your back, and love you no matter what your faults were.", I nodded. "Bella was that to this whole family. You wished her on your family. That sweet, innocent, generous and loving young lady.", He closed his eyes and sighed. "Edward, if you fuck up, and she leaves.", He pauses staring me dead in the eyes. "I love Bella, like she's one of my own. Your manners towards her tonight are inexcusable.", That hurt almost as bad as it did back then. We would be going to a party, and my dad would shout, "Take care of your sisters", as in more than one. Fuck that. I tossed my drink down my throart welcoming the burn. Bella is not my sister. There is nothing sisterly about the thoughts that I had of her sexy legs wrapped around my head when I saw her tonight. There's nothing sisterly about the love that I have for her. How can no one see that?
Oh wait.
One person did see that. He completely saw that I was undeniably in love with Bella. He approached me on the matter, and squashed all hopes of me ever being with Bella. He said to me, "You're a troublesome little shit like your brother. You and Bella are never going to work, Cullenboy. Now, listen, Bella is to marry Jacob Black. We have a little arrangement of sort. You get in the way of that and I will have you removed from her life permanently. ", Of course I obeyed, and when Bella asked if I thought dating Jacob was a good idea, I told her yea. I couldn't have her removed from my life forever.
Of course, later I found out that Charlie was in debt. He had a bit of a gambling problem, Renee divorced him and I vowed Charlie forever my enemy. I kept my end of the bargain, and he didn't keep up his end.
I still lost her.
I sucked in a deep breathe, and closed my eyes. "Dad, I am, overwhelmed with anger", I tried to use my hands to explain the magnitude of my feelings. "She reached out to nearly everyone but me when she left.", I shouted.
"She had no choice, but to leave, Edward. Be understanding.", He came over ro pour himself a drink, as I poured another.
"I know that", I said bemused. "But she didn't contact me", I said lowly starring into my drink.
"Come on son. That was years ago.", He put his arm around my shoulder looking at me. He smiled, I didn't return it. "Listen", He pokes my chest. "I know about your feelings for Bella, and I just have one thing to say", I breathe in. "You did all of this for her. Cafe Signo? Swan Lights? Bellavu? Club913?",I nod, running my free hand through my hair. "You did it so that she would be proud. Let her in on the dream plan, see if she doesn't see herself in it with you", He dared me. I nodded. He pats my back a few times. "You love her Edward?"I nod again. He breathes in. "Tell her",He pushes. I finally smile and look down at my drink before tossing the liquid down my throat with new found determination. With my dads final blessing, I'm looking forward to Monday.
Bella Pov
Waking up in my new bedroom with the new bedroom smell, brought a smile to my face. I squint my eyes shut, snuggle into my covers and inhale. I feel so free. I don't know what I feel from exactly; but instead of dwelling on what happened last night I kbow that I have something to look forward too.
My dad.
My hero.
It's been over a month since I've visited him. Although I was wrecked with guilt, I knew that he would be understanding. Plus, I knew that I would be moving down here, and vowed to see him more often then.
"Knock, Knock", Alice says with her knocks. "I made breakfast roomie", I smiled brighter.
"You're the best Alice", I shout through the door. She makes a kiss noise.
I shoot out of bed, shower , and get ready for my day with daddy. When I was done, I went into the dining room to see that Alice had a decent spread. There were eggs, toast, and fruit. Lots of fruit. My eyes widen.
"I guess you love fruit", She laughs at my facial expression.
"Yes I do.", She says nodding enthusiastically.
I sit and dig in. We quickly immerse into conversation, as if we never missed eight years of life together.
"You missed it. Rose told her parents off", My face must have registered my shock because she nodded.
"Rose's mom started making little comments about the evening being basically shot to shit, and saying Rose wasn't marrying into a respectable family. Rose told her mom, that The Cullens are the most respectable family that she knows", I nodded my head in agreement with Rose's statement. "Then they stepped outside and had an even bigger argument.", I bit into a banana, shaking my head. "Her parents are rich snobs. Im so glad that Rose and Jasper aren't like that", I gulp my coffee and begin to eat my eggs. "I'm sorry about my brother", my head snaps up.
"It's okay. I don't know how I expected either of us to react.", I closed my eyes and see him kissing Tanya. I shake the thought away. "I didn't expect to see him kissing Tanya", I say in a relaxed nonchalant manner. Tanya always had a crush on him in highschool, she made it very clear what her intentions were. Edward started dating her around the time that I started dating Jacob. Even then, Edward and I always made time for each other. I could tell it bothered Tanya, but Jacob was cockily okay with my relationship with Edward. I hated that he treated our relationship with sarcasm. When I think of perfect friendship, I picture the friendship tgat Edward and I had. I wanted that back with everything in me.
Her face scrunched. "He did WHAT?", She asked rather loudly. "Fucking fuckward. He's an idiot", she takes out her phone.
"Alice, you're over exaggerating a bit don't you think", I bite into my toast, and look up to see her nibbling on hers with one hand while still typing away slowly on her phone with the other.
"No, Bella. He is purposely fucking everything up.", She shouts.
"What's he fucking up, Alice", I ask incredulously. She stops typing and looks up at me. "Our, used to be friendship?", I smirk. "He has no obligation to continue how our relationship was"
She crosses her arms over her chest and tosses her toast down. "But if it's always awkward between you too?,"She says not meeting my gaze. "You're going to be around often-"I stop her there.
"Alice, I've already decided that I am not going to be at family functions. I love you guys, but I don't want to cause any problems.", She looked disappointed but didn't push. "I'll still see you, we live together", She smiled, then a thought crossed her mind.
"Emmett will be devastated if you don't come to his wedding.", She says quickly.
"I'll be there", I nod.
We talk some more, then when we're finished eating, we part ways, to get dressed for our respective day. I get dressed in a hurry, ready to see my dad. I knock on Alice's door to tell her that I am leaving. She waves goodbye, and I'm on my way.
I drive to my childhood home in Forks, listening and singing along to the songs on the radio. When I pull up, it's as if he senses my presence. He comes running out of the front door.
"Bells, that you?", He asked walking closer. I roll my eyes and step out of the car.
"It's me, Charlie", I walk over to him and hug him.
"Oh, Bells. I have missed you", He says into my hair.
"I've missed you too dad", He squeezed and kissed the top of my head. It's been about a month since I visited Charlie, and I've missed him.
"How've you been, Bells?", He releases me and walks me towards the house. Every time I walk into this house, I am flooded with some of my best memories. So I smile. I drop my purse at the kitchen table, and take a seat. "I've been great dad. I wanted to surprise you",
"Well, surprise me, you did", I smile brightly. He takes a seat across from me. "So when do you start at that fancy restaurant"
"Monday. I'm really excited.", He smirks, which confuses me. I raise an eyebrow.
"Yeah, Bells that boys helping along your dream", Both eyebrows raise. What?
"What was that Charlie?", I ask quickly. "What boy"
"That little Cullen boy", He stands and walks to the refrigerator, no doubt getting a beer. "That Edward boy"
"What about him?", I ask.
"You always said you would manage your own restaurant,", He said, taking a gulp of beer.
"Cafe Signo is Edwards?", I ask. He nods. "I think I would know if he owned a restaurant. ", Alice wouldve told me. "Edwards a chef, but no one said anything about him owning a restaurant.", I shook my head side to side.
"Carlisle takes me to lunch once a month at his joint. He talks about Edward alot", He downs his beer. "I still don't like that kid. Yeah, he's straightened out a bit in the last 5 years, but he was into alot of shit when he was a kid. Always in fights, always suspended, or getting arrested. He'd come to school drunk, or high out of his mind. I'd have to pick him up every time he did something stupid.", I just stared at my hands. That's not the Edward that I knew. "Just be careful around him Bella. I know that he's your best friend, but-"
I stop him. "That's the thing dad. He's not my best friend. He's not my anything any more. I don't know why he'd do anything for me" Our conversation is cut short by a knock at the door. I made a move to go open it buy it the person behind it opened it.
"Hey, Charlie, we come baring gifts", I hear Billy say as the door closes. I look in Billy's lap and there's beer there. I look up into the eyes of Jacob Black.
"Jake", I go to hug up and he lifts me in the air. I giggle and slap his chest, telling him to put me down.
He released me. "We have got to go riding on your bike", He says. "I just finished it just in time for you. It's on the back of our truck", He points to the door.
I can't go off riding with him. I came here to spend time with Charlie.
The fucked up thing is that I told him weeks ago that this is our day to ourselves. Just my dad and I. I exhale. This guy never listens.
"Maybe another day, Jake",I say through my teeth. I know what he's doing. He thinks its going to be like high school. He wants me to drop whatever I want to do, and bend to his will. "I told you that I wanted a day with Charlie"
"Yea, Bells I know, but my dad can keep him company. He won't know that you're missing", He shrugs.
I give him the back off look. "I just got here, so I'm okay. Like I said, maybe another day", He looks surprised at my words. He's so used to me following him around, and doing whatever he wanted.
Now that I think about it. He was the only one that I allowed to boss me around. Edward and I were more about making sure we each were comfortable. He never bossed me around, he was more about pleasing me. Like the whole Cullen family. They only wanted what they thought was best for me.
"Okay, I'll hold you to that another day comment", He says with a wink, before walking in front of me and grabbing my hand in his, looking me in the eyes with a serious face. "You should have come around more often Bella.", I looked away from his stare. What does it matter? He turned my face back to him. "I know that you just got back officially, but I don't feel like my love for you died at all, even after these years of separation."
"Jake, stop-", I turned away again, put he kept my hand.
"No Bella. You stop", He demanded. "Don't fight us anymore. You're here, now we can be together", The thing is that I don't know if I want him. Jake and I dated before I left, with the insistence of Charlie and Edward. They are the two people that I trusted the most, so I took their advice and accepted Jake's offer for a date. We had been friends all of our life, then one day out of nowhere he proclaimed his love for me. I have never had a romantic love for Jacob. I care strongly for him, but I can't see my life with him.
I have dreams and goals to accomplish before I can think about dating. "Hey Jake, Bells, we are going fishing", I pull my arm free and turn to walk in the direction of my dads voice.
Lips ready to object. "But, Charl-"
"I'll see ya later right Bells?", He walked towards me. The excitement in his face pushed my selfishness aside.
"Yea, Charlie. Have fun", He and Billy go on to the truck and hop in, before my dad backs out and pulls off.
I take a step back and I bump into a Jacobs chest. I jump, and he catches me by the waist. I turn quickly. "My dad knew that I was coming didn't he?", Jake took a step back from me wiyh his hands raised.
"Feisty Bella is in the building", I smirk and cross my arms over my chest.
"He knew that I was starting at a restaurant too, you gossiper. Goodness Jake, remind me to never ask you to keep a secret", I rub my forehead.
He reaches for my waist, but I take a step away. He raises an eyebrow. "Jacob, understand that I am still adjusting to being back and that I will not jump head first into a relationship", I look up at him, and he has both hands in his pockets.
So you and I are-", He points from me to himself.
"Friends", I finish quickly. He nods.
"Understood, Bells",