Chapter 3: Guilt

It was early morning at Wayne Manor and Bruce was still up from patrol, it had been two days since he slept with Selina. Replaying the night in his head he was plagued with guilt. Today he was unable to sleep Diana was coming home after being gone for two weeks visiting Themyscara. He seemed composed though he was nervous because he was about to tell the woman he married that he had slept with someone else. He stood by the fireplace, in the study, staring at the pictures on it, one was of his father and mother on the day they wed the other was of his wedding day. It had been a secret wedding, only people they trusted attended which weren't many. The more he stared, the worse he felt, he had always been a man who kept secrets but not this he had to tell Diana what he did. A sudden embrace took his attention away.

"Did you miss me?" He turned embraced and kissed her.

"hmmm, I miss you too Bruce." She pulled back.

"How was your trip?" She began to tell him, he didn't listen, he was trying to think of a way tell her what he had done. He couldn't think of what to say he didn't want to hurt her how could he? Six months ago he stood in front of her and vowed to be hers forever.

"well?" He turned his attention back to her.

"Bruce? I said let's get breakfast, what's wrong with you? You were just … starring?" Her eyes showed concern.

"I just missed you." He mentally kicked himself. She smile and kissed him.

"You'll have to demonstrate how much later love." She winked at him and led him out the room.

He spent breakfast with her but soon faked a call and insisted he was needed at his company, she was disappointed. He had just needed a break to think, when he returned she had been busy training with her sword so he didn't bother to tell her he was back, instead he went downstairs to the cave; where he had sitting for the past hour going over cases.

"You down there?"

"Yeah." His eyes stayed glued to the computer as she came downstairs.

"Why didn't you let me know you return?"

"I didn't want to disrupt your training." She reached around from behind his chair caressed his chest maker her hand caress lower and lower.

"Diana … I … I need to tell you …"

"You're not going out, are you?" She bit his earlobe.

"We've got some … catching up to do" She whispered. It took every once of self control he had left to get up and move away from her.

"I can't." He couldn't let this continue he wanted to tell her.

"Is there something wrong Bruce?". He was acting distant and it worried her. She could tell he was hiding something, he was a proud man and she accepted that he didn't tell her everything but there was definitely something wrong.

"Are you injured?" She saw the need to ask knowing that he could have bruises all over his body and wouldn't rest until he completed his mission or collapsed.

"No." He saw concern in her eyes something he always hated, those moments when she saw him as just a man. Despite that feeling he understood she worried about him because she loved him and he had tainted that with what he did.

"Diana, I made a mistake." She approached him, reached out and held his hand.

"I'm just … got a lot on my mind." He was visibly angry at himself. She put arms around his neck.

"You don't have to say." She kissed him and he kissed back, they silently went upstairs to reunite.

Diana lay in his arms, her naked form molding into his, her breathing deep, even. He concluded she had fallen asleep while he lay there feeling lower than ever, he should had told her the truth before now, his situation was worse. Careful not to wake her, he got up and went down to the cave, he couldn't understand why his mind was messing with him; before the other night, Selina would only invade his mind when he was in patrol, now he couldn't get her out of his head. As hard as he tried to be in the moment with his wife the night he spent with Selina kept crashing into the forefront of his mind. He was disgusted with himself he couldn't bring himself to tell Diana instead he made love to her while thinking of another woman, he even found himself angry at Selina for having a hold on him that matter how hard he tried he couldn't break free from. He took a deep breath as he sat in front of the computer, he wonder what Diana would feel when he told her the truth, then how Selina must be feeling now, a few nights ago he had told her that he was still in love with her yet she knew he was married to someone else. Suddenly all he could of was her again, he wondered if she was out there, if she was he could account for her to be reckless as she always was when she was upset. Taking note that it was merely 11:15pm he decided to go find her.

He found her easily, as he could access all the com links Oracle was connected to and lucky for him Selina's was one of them, she was working in the East end as usual. She was on her way to bust a big drug deal so he decided to catch up to her; he landed on top the building across the street as blue and red lights flashed below, he was late.

"What are you doing here?" He turned genuinely surprise, he was the one who usually snuck up people.

"I thought you and I had an unspoken agreement that the East end was mine and mine only to protect." She continued.

"I was in the area."

"No you weren't I specifically asked Oracle to not give me anything near you." She stated sternly.

"I wanted to see you. I wanted to know you were alright"

"You know, I was having a good night until you showed up." She turned and began to walk away but he reached out and grabbed her wrist.

"Don't touch me!" she lashed out at him, pulling her arm away.

"Selina the last thing I wanted was to hurt you. I missed you and I felt guilty for missing you"

"Did you, miss me? Not that much I bet, since you got married." She stated disguising her feelings. He stayed quiet, the reminder of his marriage left a bad taste in his mouth.

"You haven't told her? What you … what we did?"

"No ..." He regretted coming here.

"I'm leaving Gotham." He felt stunned by her revelation, his heart sunk to the pit of his stomach, but anger also rose up in him remembering the day she left.

"Is what you do best isn't it? At least this time your not skipping town without letting me know first."

"I don't have to run shit by you Bruce, we are nothing to each other, yet you insist on looking for me, I feel you looming over me and it hurts me."

He looked up noticing that it had begun to rain, he closed his eyes registering what she said.

"You broke my heart when you left" It shocked her to hear him say that out loud especially in costume.

"I realize that and I am sorry Bruce for what I did but you broke my heart too; I guess we are even."

"I don't want you to leave Gotham Selina … I'll leave you alone if that's what you want."

"It is" she turned to leave, "Stay out of the East end."

A/N: I will probably fix this chapter later on, just because I wasn't fully satisfied with it.