Chapter 4
B.P.O.V.
Alice drove me through Forks, constantly babbling and rambling. The sound of her voice calmed my soul and I looked at the small town in a new way, or maybe not new maybe old, just not the same as I had been for a while. Suddenly alice was quiet. "What?" I asked. "Bella, if Edward had come bursting back in 10 years from now would you have reacted the same? Even after you had babies or gotten a masters in English or something, would you have still loved him enough to give all of it back?"
"Alice, I love him, why are you-?" "I just need to know that you aren't doing this because you have no life, I need to know that you still want him, us, immortality with us, more than all the human stuff." She interjected.
"Of course I do, I mean, jake is great and I do love him, but he knows deep down that I will always choose edward. And if I had had kids with jake, edward would have tried to help make nice and if that didn't work, well jake would make them forget once I became a vampire, and yes it would be hard, excruciatingly so, but it would be worth it, for the great gift I would get at the end, the outcome alice, you only find that love you would die for once or twice,and I have found both of mine, and both are asking me to live for them, but only one is asking it in the way that I want, the way that can only make two people stronger and happier and give them the greatest kind of happiness known. You, you gave Jasper the light back, he was cold, and dark, and you gave him light and warmth, you gave him everything he needed and wanted, and that is what edward is giving me, so I'll take that anyday over puppy children" I finished. Alice laughed. There was a twinkle in her eye, a light that wasn't there before. She had really appreciated the compliment.
I sheepishly walked up the steps of the familiar house that held my possible and past prison cell but with a little less fear as I had a bit of hope standing next to me. Actually charlie loved alice so it was a lot of hope, more like my only hope. Charlie opened the door ready to burst, his face almost purple when he saw alice. His face changed to bright red, the good kind so fast I was sure he was going to pass out from the blood pressure fluxuation. Alice wrapped him in a tight hug to let him know she missed him. "Alice, it…it's great to see you." "charlie" she got started right in.
"Charlie, I know you must be upset that Bella is choosing Edward over dog-uh-Jake, but you have to understand that he made a terrible mistake…" I watched as Alice talked charlie through everything, making it human-safe, really getting him to believe her, I couldn't help my smile from growing bigger as time went on. Eventually she was done. I mouthed a huge Thank you to her as she went out the door.
"bella, I'm-I'm so-" "you don't have to say anything Daddy, you didn't know, and that's my fault, I should have told you, so you would understand when or if he ever did come back" I said as I rushed over to hug him, not wanting him to bare this burden. "But he did come back, and I love him, and I need him, more than anything, and I can't help it." "ok, Ok, I understand." "really? No not really but I don't want to be so off putting any more." I laughed, "dad, you are never off-putting. You're great." I said and walked up stairs.