[RATING M] - For language and maybe future lemon, if I don't make those two dorks mating before their wedding. LMAO X'DD
Hey guys, SweetFantasyDreams here. :)
I am spending a few days at my Father and his friend's place, and they have Internet there. While I was at my Mother's place, I kept my promise and I worked on Wolves's Destiny like I promised. ^^
I wasn't sure about rather posting this chapter or not...I wasn't sure about many things that I have written in within it, and I even added a few more things...but I feel like that this chapter...isn't as good as the Prologue and the Chapter One...
But I realized that, even if I can judge my work by myself, that I also need your opinion to judge my work. Even though I am my worst critic, I also need external criticism, and you guys are the best judges so far, to criticize my work. :')
So, here's the second chapter of Wolves's Destiny, I hope that you guys will like it, I did my best to keep the story interesting so far. ~
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I only own the FCs (Fan Characters, which means: CHARACTERS CREATED BY A FAN).
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-1. The author of this chapter's quote is Jordan Sarah Weatherhead.
Here, that was my message, I hope that you will enjoy the chapter ! ~
Ayame's break down
''She has a quiet confidence that screams loud. She is humble, but strong. She is stable, but rebellious. She is giving, but not naive. She chooses her battles wisely. She'll stay silent until it's time to fight...and when that time comes; FIGHT, she does.''
Ayame silently led Koga into the forest, and to the spot where she was training herself. As they walked there, Koga slightly looked around, noticing the punching, kicking and stabbing marks inside some of the trees's bark.
-''I can see that you're still training hard'', comments Koga.
-''Yeah'', gently nods Ayame. ''That training in the mountains was hard, but it made me stronger physically, mentally and emotionally...but mostly physically and mentally.''
They walked to the middle of the place, then Ayame turned around and looked up at him. Koga then stared at Ayame's iris flower in her left ponytail.
-''That flower...'', he started to say, ''Is it the same flower as the one on the day that we've meet for the first time...?''
-''Yes, it is the very same flower...'', gently smiles Ayame. ''I cherished it as the reason that made it possible for us to meet, that day...''
Koga blinked, a bit shocked: it is the same flower...? But it is impossible for a flower to live that long...!
-''But...if what you're saying is true, how in the world is it still alive and all with its bright colors...?'', he asked Ayame, slightly confused. ''A flower can't live that long...!''
Ayame smiled gently again, then rised her hand to take off her iris flower from her ponytail, then stared at it.
-''...I used my spiritual abilities to make the iris flower undying...'', she answered Koga. ''...It will never die, unless that I die myself...'', she then adds.
Koga was very surprised: she used her spiritual powers to make the flower undying, unless that herself would die...? That was a bit confusing and shocking, since it's only a flower...
...It's only a plant...
Ayame puts back her iris flower in her left ponytail, and looked at Koga again.
-''Alright, we're all alone...'', she says, slightly smiling. ''We came here because you said that we needed to talk, the two of us, alone...So, what did you want to tell me that required us to be alone...?''
Koga sighed, then looked at her in the eyes.
-''It's about that promise I made to you...'', he says, calmly.
Koga then took a deep breathe and closed his eyes, before to say the fateful words:
-''...Ayame, I'm sorry...I can't keep my promise to you...''
Ayame had felt hope at the first words...but now, she was feeling...empty, in a way.
Ayame blinked, shocked.
-''What do you mean...you can't keep it...?'', she asked, calmly, even if her voice was shaking slightly.
Koga grits his teeth, and opened his eyes: he was aware that he was hurting her, but he had to do it.
-''Ayame, you were only a child, a little girl back then, when I made that promise to you, and I forgot everything about it and you, before that your grandfather sent you a year ago or so to find me and to remind me about it...'', he says, crossing his arms on his chest armor.
He sighed deeply, before to say:
''...I had forgot, Ayame...I had forgot about you and about my promise to you...That is unforgivable from me, and I didn't stopped thinking about what you said, a year ago or so...Your words kept resonating in my mind, on and on, and I feel awful saying that I can't keep my promise to you...But I have made many mistakes, including forget about my promise to you, and about that Great Council of the Wolves...''
Koga then closed his eyes and remained silent a few seconds, while Ayame was pale and shocked: why...why was he saying all of this...?!
Koga opened his eyes a few seconds later, and looked at her in the eyes again, and says:
-''...I know that you love me, Ayame...And I do care about you, really...But I do not share back your feelings for me, and you deserve to marry someone that do and truly loves you back...That is why, Ayame, that I can't marry you...''
Koga was sincerely honest about everything that he has said: Ayame deserved to marry someone that will love her - and share her feelings back - and especially, she deserved to marry someone that wouldn't forget about the things that he would do, say or promise to her...
For her part, Ayame was shocked, and her whole being was trembling: all those years of hoping, waiting, training hard, patienting for him to come and keep the promise he vowed her...all of that turned into pain, fear, and sorrow...
...because he never intended to keep his word to her...
Ayame closed her eyes and brought her hands to her heart, stepping back from Koga, holding back her tears and trembling:...her heart was broken, shattered into thousand of little pieces...
...and it hurts so much...
Koga blinked, then frowned and stepped forward, a hand reaching out to Ayame...
-''Ayame...?''
SLAP !
Koga yelped in both confusion and pain: Ayame just slapped him on the right cheek !
Ayame then finally let out everything: her pain, her hopes...everything.
-''Why...?'', she asked Koga, her voice shaking a bit. ''Why, Koga...?''
-''Why what...?!'', asked Koga, confused, a hand on his right cheek.
-''WHY DID YOU MADE A PROMISE TO ME THAT YOU NEVER INTENDED TO KEEP ?!'', cried out Ayame, a hand on her heart, tears rolling down on her cheeks.
Koga didn't know what to answer: he simply didn't even know it himself, and Ayame has every rights to ask it. Ayame then suddenly punched him in the chest, only succeeding in cutting off air from his lungs, thanks to his chest armor.
-''Ayame, what the f- ?!'', exclaims Koga, gasping and ticked off.
-''DO YOU ONLY HAVE ANY IDEA OF HOW IMPORTANT THAT PROMISE WAS FOR ME ?!'', cried out Ayame again, kicking him this time.
Koga grits his teeth, then dodged and blocked her other attemps on punching and kicking him.
-''Ayame, stop !'', he tried to order her.
-''STOP ?! WHY SHOULD I STOP ?!'', yelled Ayame, very upset. ''YOU JUST BRUTALLY BROKED MY HEART !''
-''I didn't meant to broke your heart !'', snapped Koga.
-'' OH YEAH ?'', yelled Ayame, again. ''ARE YOU SURE ABOUT THAT ?!''
Koga grits his teeth, then finally replied back to her attacks: he kicked her away. Ayame's back hitted a tree's bark nearby, and she yelped in confusion and pain. Koga then quickly dashed to her and firmly pinned her hands against the tree's bark, right above her head. He also made sure that she wouldn't be able to kick him with her feet, but it didn't prevent her from struggling.
-''LET GO OF ME !'', she yelled, crying silently and struggling.
-''You calm down first, then I will let go of you !'', replied Koga. ''I don't want to hurt you, don't make it more difficult than it is alrealy !''
-''THAT IS TOO LATE FOR THAT, YOU ALREADY HURTED ME, YOU IDIOT !'', yelled Ayame.
Ayame was trapped, and she couldn't do anything more to attack him...but it didn't stopped her from biting his biceps withe her teeth. Koga grunted and winced everytime, but he didn't let go of her, and his patience was seriously being tested.
-''Stop biting me, for the love of- !'', snapped Koga, very annoyed.
-''I'LL STOP BITING WHEN YOU'LL LET GO OF ME !'', yells back Ayame.
With that, she bit him again and Koga grunted in pain: god, her teeth were sharp...! But he couldn't let go of her, or she'd try to kill him...and he really didn't wanted to hit her again, so he decided to support that treatment until that Ayame would finally calm down...
Three hours then passed on, and they were still like that: Koga pinning down Ayame against a tree's bark, to prevent her from hurting either him of herself. Koga was slightly surprised by how long Ayame's crisis has lasted, and it was only now that he was feeling that she was calming down...slightly. His biceps were hurting and bleeding from the many bites that Ayame had gived him, and her mouth was leaking a bit of his blood.
Koga carefully and slowly let go of Ayame, then stepped aside. She seemed to be calm, and didn't move for a minute or so. She made a step away from the tree, then sharply turned to Koga and slapped him again, rewarded by a yelp of confusion and pain.
-''FOR THE LOVE OF- DIDN'T YOU HAD ENOUGH YET ?!'', yelled Koga, out of himself, now.
-''I'M FAR FROM HAVING ENOUGH, NOR BEING DONE WITH YOU !'', yells back Ayame.
-''SO YOU'RE JUST GOING TO KEEP KICKING, SCRATCHING AND BITING MY ASS UNTIL THAT YOU HAVE ENOUGH ?!'', yells Koga again, overly angry and outraged, now.
-''NO, I'LL DO BETTER THAN THAT !'', yells Ayame again, pissed. ''I'LL MAKE YOU SUFFER WITH A MUCH BETTER WEAPON THAN MY CLAWS, TEETH, FEET, AND BODY !''
Ayame then suddenly draws out her iris flower from her left ponytail swiftly, then jumped on him with a yell. Koga yelped in confusion and they both fell down to the ground, and they wrestled there. Ayame ended sitting on top of Koga and raised her hand, like if she was about to strike down her iris flower at him. Ayame then grits her teeth, let out a shriek and strikes down her right hand - the one holding the iris flower -, the sharp pointy blade pointing at Koga.
Koga yelped and catches her right wrist, thinking that she was really going to kill him...but Ayame simply stabbed the iris flower in the ground, three centimeters away from his cheek.
They both remain silent.
Ayame was shaking a bit, looking down at him in the eyes with angry tears, and griting her teeth. Koga was twitching in anger and confusion, but he remains silent. Ayame then had enough of all of this, and brutally got off from Koga, and stood up, leaving her iris flower stabbed into the ground, near Koga's face.
...She couldn't do it...
...She didn't want to make him suffer by purifying his aura...
Ayame was trying so hard to not break down into tears in front of him...She started to leave the place, stomping away from Koga, but she was stopped by a whirlwind. The minute after, she was staring into Koga's blue eyes, standing in front of her.
The wind blew a soft breeze, making their hair - still tied up in their respective way - waving gently. They both remind silent, either by choice or because they didn't know what to say. Ayame was glaring at Koga with tears, her hands clenched into fists, while he was simply staring at her light green eyes calmly.
That is when Koga saw it: in Ayame's beautiful light green eyes, he finally saw that - either than pain, sorrow, anger, humiliation, heartbreak and shock -, there was also fear.
Koga frowned slightly, a bit confused: there was fear...? What was she afraid of...?
-''...What are you afraid of, Ayame...?'', he softly asked her.
Ayame grits her teeth, and looked away from him, still crying silently. Koga blinked, getting worried, now: that was the first time that Ayame stopped looking at him straight in the eyes.
-''Ayame, what are you afraid of...?'', he repeated.
-''Why do you care anyway ?!'', she sbapped back, as an answer, looking back at him with tears of anger.
Koga groaned in frustration: god, she was so stubborn, just like him...He kinda liked it...but it wasn't the time to care about that, he had to make her talk, because he somehow felt that it was important.
-''I care because you just spent three hours trying to beat the heck out of me...including biting me to the blood, mainly...!'', he answered her, seriously. ''And I told you earlier that I care for you, so will you please tell me what you're afraid of...?''
Ayame kept glaring at him, crying silently, and remain silent, refusing to answer to his question. Koga waited patiently, staring at her in the eyes with a firm look, and crossed his arms on his chest armor. The message couldn't be more clear: he would not leave her alone, unless if she answered his question.
-''...For the last time, what are you afraid of, Ayame ?'', repeated Koga, again, staring into Ayame's eyes intensively.
-''You should know what I'm afraid of !'', snapped Ayame, making Koga jumping from surprise.
-''Well, I don't freacking know what you're afraid of, so please, will you answer to the damn question so we can move on ?!'', snapped back Koga, slowly losing his patience.
Ayame twitched, then punched him in the face on his left cheek. Koga yelped, then snarled in anger, a hand on his left cheek, his eyes throwing lightnings at Ayame.
-''ARE YOU FREACKING KIDDING ME ?'', yells Ayame, fire in her eyes. ''YOU REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M AFRAID OF ?!''
-''SINCE I'M TELLING YOU SO !'', yells back Koga. ''GOD, JUST TELL ME WHAT IS IT, MAYBE I'LL CAN HELP YOU ?!''
Ayame grits her teeth, and closed her eyes, her hands clenched into fists. She remain silent for a minute or so, while Koga was waiting patiently still for an answer from her. However, Ayame finally had enough to hold back her pain...
...and bursted into sobs, wrapping herself with her arms, making Koga to jump in confusion.
-''I'm afraid because I only have a year left to live, because of you !'', cried out Ayame, glaring at him and sobbing.
Koga felt like if she had kicked him in the balls: now, he was remembering why not even a single Wolf Demon has ever backed off, once it's word has been gived to the opposite gender, especially if it was a vow of love...
-''You have canceled your vow to me, and you have broked my heart !'', snapped Ayame, with tears of anger. ''Do you remember now, why we, wolves, never back off, once that we have gived our word ?!''
Koga blinked, still remembering more information:...Wolves mate for life, and only once in their entire life...
...because they fall in love only once in their entire life...
...and if a promise, a vow - especially, a vow of love - was to be canceled, they would get heartbroken, and they would die from that heartbreak within a year...
Koga felt the bittersweet feeling of fear invading his mind, and he slightly turned pale, his eyes locked on Ayame.
It's about that promise I made to you...Ayame, I'm sorry...I can't keep my promise to you...I know that you love me, and I do care about you...but I do not share back your feelings for me...
Koga closed his eyes, gritting his teeth:...he has done it...He has canceled his vow, and now, because of him...
...Ayame has only a year left to live...
-''...What have I done...?'', he murmured in a breath.
-''You have canceled your vow to me, and you condemned me to die !'', cried out Ayame. ''Here's what you have done !''
Ayame then wrapped herself in a whirlwind, sobbing - the wind making Koga to open his eyes.
-''Ayame, wait...!'', exclaims Koga, a hand reaching out to her.
Ayame didn't answered him, and as soon as the whirlwind was gone, she was no longer there.
Koga was now completely alone.
-''Damn it...'', he murmured.
Koga then sighed, and looked at Ayame's iris flower, still stabbed into the ground, where Ayame left it. Koga gritted his teeth, then walked to the iris flower, kneeled down, then gently pulls it out from the ground with his right hand, and stared at it silently.
He heard footsteps, but didn't have to look up to know who it was, because he recognized the scents of Ginta and Hakkaku. They walked to him and stopped at a good distance from him, and both remained silent. Both knew that they didn't have to say anything, aware that Koga was aware that he made a horrible mistake, so they waited for him to talk.
-''...Ginta, Hakkaku...'', murmured Koga, still looking at the iris flower. ''...I'm so sorry...''
Ginta and Hakkaku blinked, then frowned: Koga was appologizing...?
-''Why are you appologizing, Koga...?'', carefully asked Hakkaku.
-''...Because you both tried to warn me about this...And I didn't listened to your warnings...'', murmured Koga, as an answer.
Ginta and Hakkaku both remained silent: it is true...they really tried to warn him...excepted that they didn't told him straightly that his decision would lead to Ayame's death, in a year...And both were aware that Ayame dearly loved Koga...
-''...We should have told you straightly what would happen, when you told us about your decision...'', murmures Ginta, looking to the ground.
-''Yeah...'', agrees Hakkaku, also looking to the ground. ''That way, we could have helped preventing this from happening...''
Koga blinked, then looked at his two best friends: they were actually taking the blame on them...?
No, they didn't deserved this. They didn't deserved to take the blame for any of his mistakes.
Especially this mistake...
-''...Guys...'', sighed Koga, still holding Ayame's iris flower in his hands. ''...I am the only responsible for this horrible mistake...You two have nothing to blame yourselves for...''
Ginta and Hakkaku looked at Koga, still feeling horrible to have let it happen.
The three remain silent for a few and long minutes. Koga then stood up slowly, still holding Ayame's iris flower in his right hand, staring at it.
-''...I have to make amends for this horrible mistake...'', he says.
Ginta and Hakkaku both stood up as well, staring at Koga.
-''Koga...there's nothing that you can do to repair this...'', says Hakkaku, sadly.
-''Yeah...'', agrees Ginta, sadly.
Koga looked at him, with a serious and determined look in his eyes.
-''There is certainly something that I can do...'', he firmly says. ''I don't know what I can do yet, but I know someone that might know it...''
Koga then quickly walked in the Northern Yôrô Tribe's Den's direction, and Ginta and Hakkaku silently followed him.
Please, if you like the story so far, bare with me.
I'll do my best to keep on writing chapters as great and interesting as possible. :) I didn't planned on how many chapters there will be, but I will try to make the story interesting and worth to read.
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