Chapter 3- " Bad Days With Lust."

Deidara became more comfortable living with Nadia as he began making more art in his room, Nadia already noticed that he made a large painting and several different sketches of himself and other scenes. Everything was going fine but at times Deidara often replied to having bad days when it didn't seem like he was having any but he was. He tried getting his mind off of certain things and it never worked, he went downstairs and saw Nadia talking with one of her cousins. She finished talking and looked back at Deidara who blushed brightly and went away as Nadia went after him.

"Oh, hey Nadia." he replied, he had his sketchbook in one arm. "How have you been, yeah?"

"I'm okay, what's wrong?" Deidara froze, now the question was asked and he couldn't answer. "Are you okay, Deidara? You look sick or maybe that's not it. I'm worried about you..."

"Well, I guess I do feel a little uneasy, yeah." he replied as he sat at the table. "Maybe the soup you always make will make me better. Could you do that for me, yeah?"

Nadia smiled and began setting up for cooking the soup everyone seemed to like when she made it. Deidara watched carefully as she began cooking and preparing her meals, he smiled as she did it and he went closer to watch how things were made. Deidara wanted to say the real reason that was bothering him but he was afraid to tell Nadia about it and it involved his feelings toward her, he also had been having a lot bad luck since he left his orginazation. She began putting the seasoning in as the pot was out on and she began adding her ingredients, Deidara pulled her arm gently. She smiled.

"Um, Nadia." he replied, he swallowed hard. "I have something to say, yeah."

"What is it, Deidara?" Nadia looked into his eyes as she pulled his long bangs out of his face. "I guess this is important, do you want to take me upstairs to talk about this?"

"Yes. That would be good, yeah." he replied as he smiled. "It's really important and I can't tell you with you're cousins around, yeah. Is that okay?"

Nadia nodded gently as Deidara lead the way to his room. He locked the door as Nadia sat on his bed and looked at him, he sat with her and looked deeply into her eyes. She was waiting as Deidara put his arm around her, she began to feel good about it and blushed. Deidara thought she would get mad that he was doing that but felt relief as she sat closer to him and put her head gently on his chest. Deidara began cradling her as she suddnely looked up at him, he was being gentle.

Deidara looked around and it felt like he didn't know what to do next. "Nadia, can you tell? I never used to do this, it's like I feel..." Deidara grinned as he stopped. "I'm liking you a little more..."

"Deidara..." Nadia voice was soft as she said her name. "Can I see your sketch? Is it of me?"

"Uh, it's finished but I don't know, yeah." Deidara got off of the nightstand and gave it to Nadia as she looked at it, she was holding a sword as she stood on a rock with a storm scene in the backround with the trees blowing in the wind. Nadia noticed she had an intense look on her face. "I kind of messed up on it, yeah but you can't see the mistakes...Do you like it?"

"Deidara...this is so good." Nadia smiled, she fell in love with the picture. "I bet anyone would say the same, I look so pretty in it. You're really are an artist."

Deidara blushed at the comment and smiled brightly, Nadia realized that there was another sketch with Deidara and Sasori as Deidara looked up to the heavens to see Sasori who was looking down in a sad way. Nadia realized Deidara had made it so real that Sasori looked like he was a heavenly figure, Nadia began to like Deidara's work as he put the two sketches down.

"You seem to like that one, yeah." Deidara sighed sadly. "I know we're to move on after someone dies but Sasori...I kind of dedicate this one to him, yeah. He seemed sad sometimes..."

"I like how you portray him at a side view with him looking at you...It's sweet." Nadia noticed that Deidara hadn't finished it but was going to add color when he was ready. "he looks so sad."

"I always say I'm having bad days, yeah." Deidara decided to change the subject as Nadia listened. "Well, I've been having bad luck ever since I've left my team...I have no money now and my work isn't selling either, yeah. It's just bad luck, I knew this was going to happen..."

"Well, you have been experiencing some bad luck but it's just part of the moving process." Nadia replied, Deidara quickly smiled then he turned serious. "We all have bad days, Deidara."

"Well, I don't like to complain but bad days suck, yeah." Deidara shifted. "I can't get a job, yeah. I forgot that I'm still a wanted criminal...I'll never get one now." Deidara sighed sadly.

Nadia also forgot that she was taking care of a wanted ex-criminal but there was some risk to having Deidara around the house when her cousins were unaware of his orginization. Nadia had some fear that if the other ninja's were to find out or if they didn't see a change with Deidara, that things would get worse. It was actually the least of her worries, she wanted Deidara to have something to come back to and she didn't want him to get hurt.

Deidara also knew of the dangers that were ahead as well, he even had a bad feeling that the leader wasn't over his departure and that he was going to send someone to convince him to join the team again but Deidara erased the thought and wanted nothing to do with it. He didn't care, Nadia was making him feel different and he wanted to be closer to her than to be away from her. It was decsion he made and he didn't care what happened as long as Nadia was safe and here with him.

"Nadia, I fear that I've done the wrong thing, yeah." Deidara sighed again, he felt regret. "On the other hand, I feel like I did the right thing, yeah. Am I right, Nadia?"

"I think that if you made decsion that makes you feel good that you did the right thing." Nadia smiled and touched Deidara's hands, he began blushing. "Don't worry, if you're not ready to leave then don't leave. Deidara, I enjoy having you here as much as anyone else."

"How can anyone resist her, yeah? My favorite thing about her is her strong and compassionate nature, she doesn't want me to leave." thought Deidara as he looked at Nadia. "She makes my heart tender, I've never felt this way before."

A knock was at the door as Nadia went to go answer it. Deidara had a bad feeling about the person waiting at the door, he went half way down the stairs and waited for the door to reveal the person. It was Sai, Deidara wasn't very fond of him due to the fact that they've had run-ins against each other. Also, it seemed like Sai had a liking to Nadia and wanted her to be his girlfriend. It ruined Deidara's day, it was now worse with him inside the house as jealousy creeped in with tension.

"I hate him, yeah! I actually was nice to him and he said all these bad things about me!" Deidara closed his eyes and growled, Sai examined the place and almost saw him but missed him. "I know he likes Nadia too, yeah! Could this day get any worse?!?!"

"Sai, for the last time." Nadia began, Deidara realized that he still he had a chance. "I don't want to date you, I know you want to be my boyfriend but...I don't think that it will work out..."

"Nadia, come on. Why don't you date? It doesn't hurt to try..." Sai was still trying to convince het to date him but she couldn't say yes to him. "Wait, I didn't even ask if you had a boyfriend..."

"I don't...but...Look Sai, give me sometime to think." Nadia began going upstairs as she saw Deidara and sat with him, she noticed that he was mad and looked at her. "Deidara, I know you don't like him. I'm sorry you had to see that happen. Sai has had a crush on me for awhile..."

"You're not going to date him, yeah. I can see why you don't want to." Deidara smiled as Nadia returned her smile. "You just want to be friends, not like what he's doing now. I understand now, yeah." Deidara changed views and his expression changed. "He's an artist too, we sort of have short rivalry."

"You're right, Deidara." Nadia replied, she hated to hurt people when she had to tell the truth. "I just want to be friends but Sai might not get the right impression, that's what I'm worried about..."

A smash was heard in Deidara's gallery, he ran upstairs quickly knowing his art was in trouble and had just met an untimely demise. One of Nadia's smaller cousins had broke a finshed work that Deidara had worked on for two months, it was a large pot and Deidara felt angry but couldn't show it. Nadia took her cousin out as she looked at Deidara, she couldn't believe that happened but Deidara was lamenting over the loss but soon got over it.

"Deidara..." Deidara stopped Nadia as she looked at him with concern."Your work is gone..."

"Nadia, it wasn't my best work...but it took me two months..." Deidara sighed. "It's not your fault, yeah. Oh well, that was bad art anyway. I'm going to make something else."

"Sorry, it seems one of my aunts forgot to pick up their child..." Nadia replied as Deidara went back to working on another piece. "I'm so sorry, Deidara. I know you worked hard..."

Deidara still gave his usual look and smiled. He didn't want Nadia to be worried about what happened as Nadia flipped through his sketch books and began touring around his room to look at his art, Deidara was still mad about Sai and now he knew that Nadia might not possibly be his and he might not get her at all. It was a still a bad day and it was getting good and now it wasn't.

Deidara looked back at Nadia who admired his art, he was keeping a secret and something else was going on and she didn't know it. He didn't know how she would react. He feared the lust and love he had would create problems since he was an ex-criminal but two things were out of place and he couldn't tell anyone about them. Deidara seemed trapped within his own mind.

That's Chapter 3, Please R&R.