Well I wasn't going to continue this but I thank you for the reviews and the encouragement to continue. So I will try my best to keep it up to everyone's expectations. Umm… I won't be going in order with the show. The setting started with a time in the show but I don't know if I can continue like that for it to make sense so… this story is in an alternate universe I guess lol. I don't own any of the characters except for Olivia Branch.

Damon POV

She wasn't there…I spent so much time looking for a way to get her out of the tomb and she wasn't there. I was home later on in the night and I sat staring into the fire lost in thought.

If she was alive this entire time…where was she? Why didn't she ever come for me?

Stefan came and sat next to me without saying a word. I couldn't look at him. I felt like my heart was shattered into a million pieces and I was an idiot.

Stefan cleared his throat. "You want to talk about it?"

"What's there to talk about?" I just kept staring at the fire place.

"Look Damon…I know you're upset about Katherine but…"

"Upset? That's an understatement. Stefan I'm furious! I had an amazing woman ready to commit to me this morning. I had the greatest night of my life last night. I felt so alive and… and I let her go. I let her go for what? I gave her up for some love that I thought was in the tomb and it turns out she was free this entire time and she could care less about me." I fought between the tears that wanted to spill.

"Damon I'm sorry. Why don't you call her?"

I chuckled. "Yeah Stefan, I'll just call her. Hey Olivia turns out Katherine wasn't in the tomb so I'm ready to settle down with you. Are you fucking kidding me Stefan? Her exact words were "If you pick her Damon, I'm leaving and I am not coming back. If she rejects you, you can't come crawling back to me. I rather kill myself then be someone's second choice." So calling her is not an option."

Stefan sighed. "Damon…Call her."

"Stefan fuck off! I'm not going to call her."

"Damon you deserve happiness and she's it! She won't turn you away Damon no matter how much she'll hate being your second choice because you know what Damon she wants a happy life too. She has been miserable just as much as you have and no matter how much bad you have done in your life you deserve to be happy! This is Olivia Branch from 1864 she won't turn you away!"

"You're right Stefan, I deserve to be happy. I would have been happy years ago if Katherine just turned me and not you. It was supposed to be just me and she turned you too. I won't forgive you for that."

"Damon how can you still have a thing for Katherine? The love we had for her wasn't real. She always compelled us! She manipulated us. And how the Hell did you get from having a love for Olivia to now hating that Katherine didn't just only turn you?"

"Katherine only compelled you. The love we had was real Stefan unlike yours. The love I had for Olivia was just following tradition of the time. It was expected that we find a bride and all that jazz." That was another lie that I had told…and it was eating me alive.

"You are so full of shit. If I had to compare both relationships, the relationship that you and Olivia had was real! You knew her for years and she was completely head over heels for you. I would know, she always told me. I just don't understand how you can reject her."

I was so lost in what he was saying I didn't realize that I started tearing up. Stefan noticed right away and put a hand on my shoulder. "What's wrong?" he asked.

I shrugged his hand off. "I don't deserve her."

"What are you talking about?" Stefan asked as he kept looking at me with concern.

I shook my head fighting the tears and the anger. Stefan kept pushing me to tell him. The anger and sadness consumed me as I grabbed the little coffee table next to the couch and threw it across the room and watched it shattered. "I don't deserve her!"

"What do you mean you don't deserve her?!" Stefan shouted wanting to know what was going on in my head.

"I'm not good enough for her. I never was. The day I went to talk to her father to ask permission for her hand in marriage. He said no. He said he didn't want a reject of society to be married to his precious daughter. When I asked father to go talk to him you know what he said?"

Stefan shook his head obviously never knowing of this event.

"He agreed with Mr. Branch. I'm not good enough to be the husband of a woman with high class like her. Why would I be? I bailed out in the middle of the war, I was against almost everything proper of the time and I have made questionable actions in my time and we wouldn't dare be responsible to have the screwed up son mess with such a lady. In fact he said he would willingly go talk to if you wanted to marry Olivia. Stefan dear fucking Stefan is the perfect example of a perfect husband and that you two would make a better couple than me and Olivia ever could." I was fuming as the tears kept pouring.

Stefan was trying to figure the words to say to me. "I'm sorry they did that to you Damon."

"It doesn't even matter anymore. That's why I can't call her. I'm not good enough for her."

"Damon she doesn't care. She loved the person that you were. Her father gave her so many choices of bachelors so she would marry one and you know what she said? She said she wished that you were one of them because she would have picked you in a heartbeat. She wanted you Damon. She wanted you back then and she clearly still wanted you if she came here last night."

If my heart was beating, I know that it would have skipped a beat. I wanted to call her and beg her for forgiveness. I wanted her to come here and stay with me and I wanted to give her all the love I failed to give years ago.

"Damon just call her." Stefan insisted again. I nodded and went up to my room.

I sat on my bed as I stared at my phone. Stefan texted me her number and all I could do was stare and reminisce of my mistake.

Back in time to 1864

I had invited Olivia to join me for a picnic in my backyard next to our favorite tree. I could remember the day that I saw her. She looked gorgeous. We ate while we conversed.

My heart would skip a beat when I heard her laugh and her smile was breathe taking. Sometimes I would just get lost in her eyes and not respond to what she was saying. She flicked a grape at my face. "Earth to Damon!" she giggled. "Did you even hear anything that I had said?"

I blushed. "I'm sorry I didn't catch anything. Can you repeat yourself?"

She gave me a look of disappointment but I knew it wasn't real because she was fighting to smile. "Why should a lady have to repeat herself?" she sighed and looked away. Seemed like she wanted an apology.

I got my special smile ready as I laid my hand on hers. Feeling her hand in mine sent tingles to my spine and I could see she was smiling a little from my actions. "My apologies Olivia. I hope a lady like you will forgive me but you are a special lady and I hope you will repeat yourself." She looked over with a full smile on her face and then she kissed my cheek. "Of course I forgive you and and I will repeat myself."

The kiss she gave to my cheek made me blush so much. It took all I had in me to not turn my head so I could actually kiss her on the lips. For the past few months she has been giving me hints of her affection and I had returned them. I wanted her but we were both too shy to admit the feelings, but they were there. I listened to what she was saying as she repeated her story of the discussion she had with a friend in town and once again I started losing focus. I was getting lost in her beauty and the sound of her voice. Olivia noticed this and laughed again as she threw another grape at me to bring me back to reality.

"What is up with you today Damon? You look like you keep daydreaming every time I start talking." She stared at me as I was just smiling like an idiot and it made her laugh.

She has no clue how much she drives me crazy. I couldn't flat out say that I was dreaming about her. I wanted her. I truly did. I honestly wanted to marry her right now if I could but I knew how traditional she is so… I have a plan.

"I'm thinking about doing something that is going to change our lives forever." I simply said.

She raised an eyebrow. "What would that thing be? Please tell me you're not going to join the war again. I couldn't handle you leaving the first time."

I chuckled. "No don't worry nothing like that." I grabbed her hands into mine and smiled. "Do you trust me?" She smiled and nodded. I kissed her hands and looked at her. "I will see you tomorrow at the dinner party. Promise you will be there." She nodded and swore she would be there.

After we had picked up our picnic and went our separate ways, I went up to my room to freshen up and look presentable. I had went to town to the Branch's business to talk to Olivia's father.

"Hello ." I greeted while shaking his hand.

"Damon Salvatore. What do I owe the pleasure of your visit?" He asked as he gestured for me to take a seat.

I cleared my throat not sure how to start this. "Well sir…I… I think that you have a lovely daughter."

"Well I'm glad you think so. I think so too although she could use some work but hopefully with a man in the picture he can teach her to be more proper."

I thought Olivia was perfect. She wasn't too conformed into society which I loved about her. "Well I'm glad that you think that she needs a man in her life because…" the words were stuck in my throat. No Damon don't screw this up. "Because…I want to ask for your permission to marry her."

He stared at me for some time before he busted out laughing. This confused me. Why would he laugh? "Sir… I was being serious." His laughs cut short. "Oh you were?" I nodded. He sighed "I'm sorry Mr. Salvatore but the answer is no." I stared at him hurt. "I don't understand sir. You said you wanted Olivia to have a man and I'm here asking for you permission."

"Look I think you are a good kid but you're not what the misses and I had in mind as a husband for our daughter. We want our daughter to be with someone with a good reputation and wealth…" This is one of the things of society…Reputation over love.

"and while the Salvatore family have those qualities, you're not exactly the best person fit. You have questionable taste and you don't seem to live up to your name. I mean you did leave in the middle of the war."

"Sir with all do respect. I love your daughter and I know for a fact that she loves me back. I was hoping for your blessing since I believe love is a greater reason for two people to be together, not just for wealth and a reputation."

"Well Mr. Salvatore that is the reason why I have to disagree. A woman needs the finer things in life and she'll love the man who gives it to her. Now if you'll excuse me I must be returning to work and you need to leave."

I left without saying another word. I can't believe that her father was putting everything above her feelings. I know Olivia, she would marry someone for true love not for their money. I sighed. I couldn't bare to lose her. I needed help and I hated who I was going to ask for help from.

When I got home I ran up the stairs and knocked on the door to my father's office. He gave me permission to enter. He looked up at me and sighed. "Damon what do I owe for your visit?"

"I need your help." I tried to keep my voice calm. Last thing I need is to snap and lose any chance of having Olivia.

He looked up at me curiosity. I have never asked for his help in my life. "Well go on and spill it out."

I sighed. "I went to visit . I asked if I could marry Olivia and he rejected the idea. He said I wasn't suitable to marry his daughter. I was wondering if you could talk to him to see if he'll change his mind."

My father frowned. "Absolutely not."

I frowned back. "Father please, I am begging you. I have never come to ask for your help and this is important."

"Damon the answer is no."

I was fuming. "Well why not?!"

"Olivia's father is right to reject you. You are a shameful disgrace to this family and I will certainly not be responsible if you ruin that girl. Now if Stefan came here and asked for my help I will gladly arrange the two together. They would be perfect and Stefan is perfect husband material unlike you."

I was so angry I went up to his face to yell at him. "I love her! Stefan only loves her as a sibling he would never marry her. I love her to the ends of the earth and I want her to be my wife."

He stared at me and pushed me away. "The answer is no. Now go clean up. Katherine Pierce should be here soon." He started to walk away and when I wouldn't bulge he sighed. "If you want help here is some advice. If you truly love her, you'll let her go so she can have a better life than she would have ever had with you." With that he left the room and stood there like a complete failure.

Back to the present.

After remembering that painful day I dropped my phone to the ground. I have to let her go. I am no good for her. I thought about why I was with Katherine. While I did have feelings for Katherine, Stefan was right, it wasn't real feelings. I figured the best way to let her go is have her move on but for her to move on she had to forget about me. If I got her to hate me she would easily forget me and get the life she deserved. I love her with all my soul but I am no good for her. She came back to be with me and I wanted her so much but I chose Katherine because I was an idiot. I am an idiot for thinking that a false love was better than the real thing but also an idiot to think that I deserve any bit of happiness. I deserve to be alone and bitter. I'm not going to call her. I'm not going to call her. I got myself into bed as I cuddled against my pillow and cried myself to sleep.

Well what do you guys think? Definitely a side of Damon that no one expected am I right? What would you guys like to see in the next chapters if you want this to continue so they end up together? Reviews would be amazing