Day Night 3
Can't forget that girl
Can't forget the word [family]
Am I trying to tell myself something?
Kurt stared at the last sentence for a few moments, then put the book and quill in his inventory, not bothering to erase it. It was time to go hunting.
On the ground, Kurt asked Darker than day whether there was any news. The Enderman shook his head, then teleported off. Some nights were like that. No excitement, no trespassing humans. Kurt decided to go sit in a tree next to the only path through the forest. Maybe someone would come along.
When he finally reached the tree, Kurt found it easy to grab a leaf block and pull himself up onto the tree's top. When he'd first gone into the forest, he'd been weak and injured, and such a task would have been impossible. Now, he didn't even have to think about it.
Sitting in the tree and trusting his ears to tell him if anyone was approaching, Kurt pulled out his book and quill again. He didn't understand why he was writing any of this down, but his hand wasn't hurting quite so much any more.
What would happen if I went back into town?
People would try to kill me
Or maybe they would run
Maybe they would be too afraid
That's why they tried to kill me and Esi
They were afraid
I like being alone
But sometimes it gets hard when my voice is the only one I can hear
Except for my comrades'
Kurt paused, frowning at the last word. Comrades. He nodded slightly. That sounded better than friends. They were all close, but Endermen didn't have a word for 'friend'. It just didn't fit. They were all brothers, children of the Enderdragon.
Endermen didn't fall in love, either. Unless they were gay, because all Endermen were, well, men.
Kurt hesitated, then he put his quill to the paper again.
Endermen do have feelings
They do fall in love
Only it has to be a special Enderman
A special girl
Like Mom and Dad
Fanny Hunter and Sky at night
They fell in love and had me
And Esi
A sound reached Kurt's ears, and he hastily put his book and quill back into his inventory, crawling over the leaf blocks until he could see the path. The temporary, philosophical feeling he had felt while writing had evaporated, replaced by intense focus. He waited for the people -he had heard at least two of them- to come into sight, and when they did…
Kurt didn't move, frozen in place by the emotions colliding in his head. There was his Mom, Fanny Hunter, one of the only people he still loved…
And she was walking with Kave Baker, her nephew.
As they kept walking, Kurt started to shake. He felt blind rage, betrayal, disbelief, and above all that, the feeling that something was falling away, that now he was completely and truly alone.
They stopped walking a short way past where he lay in the tree, shaking with rage and betrayal and all the other emotions crowding into his head. What felt like hours later, they turned and went back the way they had come, back towards Bending River, the town Kurt hailed from. Fanny was crying into her hands, and Kave had one hand on her back, seemingly comforting her.
They walked out of sight, but Kurt still couldn't move, paralyzed in the tree. Slowly, he felt the burning feeling build up behind his eyes again, until a single tear rolled down his cheek.
Pain seared through his face, and it took all his willpower not to scream. He wiped the tear off, halving the pain and moving some of it to his hand. He sat there for a long time, until he found himself holding the book and quill, with no idea how they'd moved from his inventory to his hands.
He flipped the book open and picked up the quill.
Kave killed Esi
What was Mom thinking why was she with him why did she do this
Kurt took a deep shuddering breath, then started to write again.
What was she doing?
He killed Esi
Why why why why why
Kurt stopped again, closing his eyes. When he opened them, he found that his hand had written something of it's own accord, without him dictating the words now on paper in a script much more elegant than his child's scrawl.
Why did she betray me?