Hey everyone! School is absolutely insane and I have no extra time on my hands... So enjoy this chapter I have slipped in. Im hoping I can pre write a couple more chapters so I can get some up every other week or so. I really appreciate any support and of you reader show. Let me know what to do beacause after all it is practically your story too!

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Rye POV

I knew from the moment I walked into the Hawthorne home it wasn't going to be a pleasant visit. Gale was sitting on the couch with his arms crossed. In his hand was a phone and his lips made a firm line. Bow was sitting on the seat across from his father with his toes tapping in anticipation. Mrs. Hawthorne was leaning against the doorframe of the kitchen with a tiny needle in one hand and an unfinished dress in the other. Before Gale could chew my head off, she ran over to hug me and kiss the top of my head. Wasn't I only gone for two hours tops? Bow looked up at me and smiled with a look of sadness in his eyes. Gale only shook his head in disappointment.

"And where were you Miss Everdeen," he questioned? My eyes widened but he quickly realized his mistake and changed the question. "We were all worried sick here. The storm got rough and no one knew where you were. We waited an hour and then you come back three hours later. I almost had to call your parents. That would have been even worse than you coming back with a boy." At that moment, my mind slipped to Flint.

"You didn't call them right? I think I might just die if you did," I cry. He doesn't even blink but then he hands me the phone. The coil is being pulled a bit too far because it's becoming more stubborn to stay in my hand.

"I didn't," he sighs those two perfect words. I squeal dropping the phone making it shoot itself back at the wall. I tackle him into a giant hug. My mind is still racing at the thought of being caught. My mother would take her very own arrows and shoot each one into my most vulnerable points: eyes, heart and any other important organ. My dad would strap me to one of his cookie trays and bake me alive in the ovens. No, they couldn't hurt me but they would hurt the Hawthornes. Maybe I shouldn't be coming here anymore. One day my parent will find out and then I will be responsible for breaking their hearts.

"After everything that's happened today I think I shouldn't come here anymore." Each person gives me a look. Gale's eyes darken and if it's even possible, Bow's eyes get even sadder. Out of everyone, Mrs. Hawthorne has the most understanding look but a tears are beginning to fall. "I'm abusing my parents trust. They are very strong and fragile people. They fought for me. I would have never been born if they didn't kill Snow or Coin. They may have shielded me from you, or the games but I have realized that it was only so I wouldn't think the games would be part of my life. The war, death and sadness never were going to affect me. Trust and love wasn't easy for my mother. It broke her more at the end of the war than anything else did. She managed to build enough up again to have two children but that only shows how important it really is to her. And, I simply can't be the one who sends her back to her post war mentality. I'm sorry but I'm going home."

Mrs. Hawthorne hands me the dress she must have just finished sewing. She has deep brown eyes and blonde curly hair. Most of the time I see her with an apron on, or covered in some food. If there's one thing I have noticed about her from the past years is that she must be the complete opposite of my mother. I can tell that when Gale's heart broke he never truly got over it. I bet that to this day he would still marry my mom on the spot and have her children. However, since that never happened he must have found a new love, maybe just not as strong. "We will miss you," she whispered.

I leave to go to my room. Tears are falling down my face as I re-pack my bags for the trip home. The decision I made is so wrong but its right in the end. I spin around when I hear three taps on the door and I look up to see Gale. He slowly sits next to me on the bed.

"I know this is the right choice you're making Rye. I don't want to be selfish and force you to stay but, at least stay the night. I don't think it's safe to leave at this time, and we've already went through so much in one day." He runs his hands through his graying hair and continues. "I was so happy when you arrived this morning. Every time you come, it reminds me of how every time I saw your mother it felt so good. I'm glad she married Peeta because if she didn't you wouldn't be here. I'm really going to miss you. You're the daughter I never had."

After that speech, all I can manage is the short words 'thank you'.

The next morning I slip out of the house leaving a note saying how much I love them all. I have my new dress on with thick stockings and my hunting jacket trapping in all the possible body heat I can. Now, I am just waiting for the train to pull in. In the distance, I can hear the airy whistle so I know its close by. Tears are falling out of my eyes and I can't help but think how I'm leaving my second family forever.

Finally, the tracks squeak and the train flies past me into the station. The passenger doors slide open and I take my first steps on. A pair of sturdy arms grabs me pulling me down. I'm too vulnerable right now to realize my hunter's instincts aren't kicking in. I allow myself to be pulled right off the train. I must say that I was extremely lucky that those arms belonged to Bow Hawthorne. He must have run all the way here because his hair is tousled and he is very underdressed for a cold winter day. I realize then that he came because everyone said their' goodbyes but him. However, instead of using words he just kisses me.

He presses his lips against mine very gently as if I might shatter if he kissed me too hard. My world is spinning and I might just fall on my head like the first time I went to the train station. I don't even kiss him back because I'm frozen. He pulls back and I bolt up the steps and lock the door behind me. At this point, I really don't need any more drama. Besides the point of making me dizzy, no sparks flew when he kissed me. That part confuses me the most.

Trains make me feel safe. Something about knowing these have been around since my parents makes me feel comfortable. I know that they only used them for tributes and victors originally but I can't help but enjoy the warmth that radiates inside me. All I can do now is clear my mind and try to fall asleep for the rest of the long train ride.

Bow POV

What have I gotten myself into? She was leaving and it was going to be hard but make everything easier one day. It would have taken a long time to clear her from my life. Would was the key word. Now it will take forever. My feelings were never there until they were about to be stolen from me. It was like I had this possessive feeling that she was mine. I had just woken up to go out for a hunt when I saw the letter and an empty bedroom with not one scrap left.

My inside flipped inside out so I ran. I ran to her. I was planning in just talking but when she looked at me with her new dress and blonde braid flying in the numbing winds I just lost it. Something snapped inside me.

She didn't kiss me back. She didn't say one word. She locked the train door and left forever. I was a very strong feeling that she doesn't want to see me ever again. I can't even imagine how awkward it would be.

"Oh hey the last time I saw you was about 10 years ago when I kissed you and you left forever, what's up?"

Nothing will ever be the same. I sealed the deal. I will forever hate myself.

Goodbye Rye…