A lot of you used the word hypocrite in your reviews. So I'm gonna make this chapter at the beginning sorta like a musical, sorta. Don't forget, YouTube. I would like to say that this chapter was inspired by one of my readers: vampiregurl. Thanks again! Your words were so helpful.
Before the Storm by Nick Jonas ft. Miley Cyrus
I know this isn't what I wanted
Never thought it'd come this far
Was thinking back to where we started
And how we lost all that we are
We were young & times were easy
But I could see it's not the same
I'm standing here but you don't see me
I'd give it all for that to change
And I don't want to lose her
Don't want to let her go
I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if its over
Cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold her
Like I did before the storm
And with every strike of lightning
Comes a memory that lasts
Not a word is left unspoken
As the thunder starts to crash
Maybe I should give up
I'm standing out in the rain
I need to know if its over
Cause I will leave you alone
Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold her
Like I did before the storm
Trying to keep the light from going in
And the clouds from ripping out my broken heart
We always say a heart is not a whole
Without the one who gets you through the storm
Standing out in the rain
Knowing that it's really over
Please don't leave me alone
Flooded with all this pain
Knowing that I'll never hold ya
Like I did before the storm
Like I did before the storm
~Chapter 3: Hypocrite~
I started walking towards the lounge where my (ex) family waited for my arrival. But I was stopped by my band members. They looked pissed. "Hey guys what's up?" I asked walking around them. "Iz, what are you doing?" Joanie asked. "Going to see the Cullens," I said nonchalantly.
"Why?" Jackso asked stepping in front of me. "Because they are waiting for me in there and we're gonna hang out now MOVE!" I said shoving past him. "Wow, I can't believe this," Adam said. I stopped, rolled my eyes and turned on my heal. "Can't believe what?" I asked annoyed to hell.
"You're gonna let them suck you right back into their arms and hurt you again? C'mon Izzy, you're better than this," "Better than what?!" I asked. I put my soundproof and power block shields on. Don't want anyone listening to this. "Better than being a hypocrite," he spat at me. What. The. Hell. That's when I started singing at him.
Hypocrite by Skye Sweetnam
Bubble gum brainiac
Baby girl, ultra brat
Angst Schmangst
No thanks
Hope my record doesn't tank
Sailor moon, Rainbow Bright
Anime, Avril lite
Pro tools all the way
Hey,hey,hey,hey
[CHORUS:]
Don't try to label me hypocrite
Cause I will do what I want to
Some will say that I'm counterfeit
But I will be who I want to
Candy floss, antipop
Star search, lollipop
Manufactured skate punk
Wanna be, never was
Nerd, geek, super freak
I'm a movie of the week
Daddy's girl, teacher's pet
Yeah,Yeah,Yeah,Yeah!!
[CHORUS:]
Don't try to label me hypocrite
Cause I will do what I want to
Some will say that I'm counterfeit
But I will be who I want to
ahhhhhahah a (2 x)
Don't try to label me hypocrite (2 x)
I will do what I want to (4 x)ant to
[CHORUS:]
Don't try to label me hypocrite
Cause I will do what I want to
Some will say that I'm counterfeit
But I will be who I want to
Some will look at me and vomit
But I will look how I want to
Some will hear me and not get it
But I will say what I want to
Don't try to label me hypocrite (2 x)
I will do what I want to (8 x)
"Do you NOT remember they did to you; what HE did to you?" Adam said. "I still love him," I whispered. "Said the lonely girl thinking of the broken boy."
A Town Called Hypocrisy by Lost prophets
Can you take this broken boy
And put the pieces back as one?
Though he has all of his toys
He is never having fun
Because its not enough
Now we're growing up
We had given up
We're moving on
Because its not enough
We were growing up
We had given up
And I won't hear what you say so
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
A town called hypocrisy
Can you take this lonely girl
Yeah yeah yeah yeah
And pick her up from off the ground?
yeah yeah yeah yeah
Cause there's no pride to be found
When you follow sheep around
And no future here
No future for us in this town
Because its not enough
Now we're growing up
We had given up
We're moving on
Because its not enough
We were growing up
We had given up
And I won't hear what you say so
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
La, la, la, la la la la la la la
La, la, la, la la la la la la la
La, la, la, la la la la la la la
La, la, la, la la la la la la la
Because its not enough
Now we're growing up
We had given up
We're moving on
Because its not enough
We were growing up
We had given up
And I won't hear what you say so
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
Save your sympathy
Who'd you think you're fooling
Everything is dead
Now you welcome me
To a town called hypocrisy
(AN: The musical thing is over.)
I stood frozen. "You know, Edward seriously is the hypocrite to me. He's insensitive. He left you for your own safety and yet here he is with a human. It's time for the Cullens to leave because they've out welcomed their stay," he said. And with that he left.
You know, Joanie whispered in my head, he has a point but no matter what you do, we will support you. Just listen to your heart. Damn, they were right. I continued walking to the lounge but instead I used my x-ray vision. They were all laughing and smiling. They were joking around and telling stories.
I had no idea what I was going to do. I knew I still wanted to I didn't want them to leave because I still love them, and I was still in love with Edward. But trampy here needs to go. I sighed and decided to go to the roof. I went outside and flew up and on to the roof. I landed with the lightest thud possible.
I then realized the last thing that Joanie thought was the same thing my dad used to say. I sighed. Then something came to me. Music, lyrics, and meaning. A new song.
Don't Wanna Be Torn by Hannah Montana
Maybe it's the things I say;
maybe I should think before I speak.
But I thought that I knew enough,
to know myself and do what's right for me.
And these walls I'm building now
You use to bring 'em down
The tears I'm crying out,
You use to wipe away!
I thought you said it was easy,
listening to your heart.
I thought you said I'd be okay
so why am I breakin apart.
Don't wanna be torn (x4)
don't make me have to choose between what I want
and what you think I need.
Cuz I'll always be a little girl
but even little girls have got to dream.
Now it all feels like a fight
you were always on my side,
the lonely I feel now,
you use to make it go away!
I thought you said it was easy,
listening to your heart.
I thought you said I'd be okay.
So why am I breaking apart,
Don't wanna be torn
Why is all this so confusing,
Complicated and consuming
Why is all this made me angry
I wanna go back to being happy!
The tears I'm crying out,
you use to wipe away.
I thought you said it was easy
listening to your heart.
I thought you said I'd be okay.
So why I'm I breaking apart
Don't wanna be torn,
Don't wanna be torn,
Don't wanna be torn,
Don't wanna be torn,
...[Repeating]...
"Then you don't have to be," a velvet voice spoke from behind. I turned slowly and met the eyes of the reason I ever and will ever exist. The thunder boomed above and the lightning flashed. We both looked up and the rain started to fall. I looked down at Edward.
I raised my hands and let them drop to my waist in an exasperated motion. I didn't get him. "Why?" I asked. I was upset and soaking wet. "Why did you leave me? I was in love with you!" I shouted, "You say you left for my safety but you're with another human? Why the hell?" "I did it because...," he started, "...Because she was nothing like you. And then when you moved on it wouldn't hurt so much." I let the human power come in and I started sobbing. When I looked at Edward, I saw he was crying too.
"But then we saw a show you were on and we heard your songs on the radio and I realized that I would never stop loving you; never fall out of love with you," he said. "But then the concert tonight, oh man...that hit the spot." "The songs? You don't like them? I WROTE THEM JUST FOR YOU!" I screamed. I sounded fucking insane. Is this really over? I don't want him to leave me alone. I probably will never hold him again like I did before the storm...no pun intended. "You left me to rot in hell. I was a fucking zombie even as a fucking vampire. I was broken! And after all these years I couldn't stop loving you...I still can't." Edward started moving toward me with a crooked grin on his face.
I started panicking. I lifted off the ground and flew over him. I stood in his spot and he now stood in mine. He turned around like he was in shock but he had hurt written all over his face. "I tried to listed to my heart and it says that I want no more than to have what we had back then," he took a step forward. "But my heart also says," I said, "that it can't take another heartbreak." I took a step back. "Bella-," I interjected him. "Why did you kiss Rebecca when you saw me at the meet 'n' greet?" I asked.
"I wanted to show you that I was happy and that you could be happy but later on, Alice told me you were still in love with me," he said. I nodded. "Wait here," I said. "I'll wait forever for you," Edward spoke with love and passion and hurt. I flew up into the center of the storm. I was tossed around and splashed by the tears of the sky. I opened my eyes to find that this disaster was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen. White flashes of lightning flashed around me like car lights shined in your eyes right before you lose your life.
Everything seemed to slow down at that point. I saw a blue lightning bolt coming right at me and even though I had plenty of time to move...I didn't. I wanted to get hit; so badly. The lightning struck right on my heart and i was chucked to the roof. I looked up to see six pairs of golden eyes looking at me. I laid in something hard but soft. I looked over at Edward who was holding me bridal style on his lap. "Where's Rebecca?" I asked. "She went home," Jasper said. I nodded and sat up.
"Bella, love, are you all right?" Edward asked putting his hands on either side of my face. "Yes," I said. "Do you guys have a place to stay? I have enough room in my house," I offered. "We would love to stay with you," Rose stated. "In fact, you guys can finish up my tour with me," I said. "YES!" Emmett shouted. I laughed and led them down to the limo to lead us out. "Normally I would be staying on my tour bus but, since my house is here...might as well start un packing and stuff. We leave for Seattle at 5 ante meridiem," I said like a mother would when she was being stubborn. "And tonight you will sleep," I concluded.
*One Hour Later*
I had just finished unpacking and I went inside to hear everyone upstairs. I walked up stairs and into the room Alice and Jasper were staying. They were in bed and ready to sleep. "Are your alarm clocks set?" I asked. I got seven 'yes''s. i chuckled lightly. "Sleepwell you two," I said to Alice and Jasper. I turned the human power on them and they were sound asleep. I did the same with Rose and Emmet and I walked into Edwards room. He was there sitting in bed waiting for me.
"Before we do this, I have something to say," I said sitting down so I was across from Edward. "I haven't made a decision yet because I need a little more time...," I said drifting off at the end. "I will have and answer soon just not right now," I said, "Please don't be mad, I just want you to understand." "I do...and I will not rush you just take all the time you need, love I mean...we do have forever," he said. I smiled. He leaned in and Kissed me on the forehead, cheeks, nose, and he so lightly I could hardly tell he did something, brushed his lips against mine. I got up and walked to the door.
"Goodnight Edward," I said. "Goodnight my Bella," he said. And with that he was asleep.
So there you have it...please review. I will also be updating Someday Hovering this week so don't you worry. I wanted to let you all know, depending on your review I might message you to say a hello and take some advice from you on the story. Any ideas...? Review and your idea might be in the plot.
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Love, Tuesday