"He shoved me up against the wall, kissing me passionately. I groaned out and he responded by kissing me even harder. He reached for my back zipper of the dress and"

The book was shoved closed and I looked up at whoever did it. "We are here kiddo. If you'd get your nose outta that book, you'd have time before hand." Courtney says. I roll my eyes and unbuckle my seat belt.

I shove my book back in my bag, and we get out of the car. When we go in, Riker catches my eye, I thought and walks over. Yet he walks right past me, and I turn, and there stands a girl with curly, black hair. Riker hugs her and kisses her. My heart falls from my chest, and I drop my bag.

I run into one of the empty bathrooms, and lock the door behind me. I stand at the sink, look into the mirror, and start to cry my eyes out. I sob so loudly, the whole arena could hear me probably. I look down at my bracelet that has a small R on it, (riker has a matching one with a G) and tear it off and throw it at the door.

I sink to the floor and cry and cry. I've never liked a boy like this. One where all I can do is think about him. I see him every day, talk to him every night at dinner, and text him whenever we are apart. "I HATE YOU!" I yell at myself. I hate the feeling when you are powerless and the whole world crumbles around you.

My phone buzzes, so I pull it out to look at the notification. Rydel had texted, asking where I was. I ignore it and get up. I wipe the tears from my cheeks and go out to the dressing room. Riker and Savannah, sit on the couch, cuddling, Ross, Courtney, Rydel, and Ellington on the main couch, and Rocky and Ryland in 2 chairs. They all sit talking about random topics.

Rydel sees me and leaps from her seat, coming over and yanking me from the room. She hugs me in the hallway, and I tear up a bit more. I've liked Riker for over 5 years now, and he never displayed such affection for someone other than me.

Ellington and Riker come outside, to just see how the stage was going, and Riker spots me at the end of the hall. I step away from Rydel and We both stand in the middle of the hallway. Riker talks first. "I never knew this would affect you so much,",to He says.

"Don't talk to me ever again. I hate you." I tell him. I turn into the dressintooand grab my bag.

I turn to Savannah. "You're really lucky to have a great guy. He's amazing. He ruined me and left scars so deep, I'll never shake them. But take care of him. He is my everything. Don't hurt him. Don't let him be damaged goods. But don't take him back if he screws up. If he hurts you, it won't be the last time. He will tear everything you know apart, and take your innocence, and ruin you. Like he did to me. Don't be afraid to stand up, but be scared. I know him better than anyone, and let him be vulnerable, but tear him down. It's the only way you can build him up."

I leave the venue, and go to my car, Courtney and I took here. I get into it and rush home. I go to the basement and carry up some boxes. I go to my room and pack up everything I can fit. I go back out to my car, and shove the boxes in the back. I go back up and shove my mattress down the stairs. I get it out to the trunk, and I'm able to lay it flat. A few hours later, I go back upstairs, and grab the rest of the boxes.

I get into my car and drive to my parent's house. I knock on the door, and my younger sister answers. "I'm home."

Once I was settled into my bedroom, I placed my R5 poster above my bed. I looked around and realized that my life was here now, in Santa Monica. I pass out, on my bed. And don't wake up until hours later.

When I wake up, it's a knock on my door. My sister, Julie, opens it, telling me Riker was here. I tell her, to send him home. I don't want to see him. She goes and tells him that, but comes back telling me he won't leave until he knows I am okay.

I tell her to send him up here, and she does. He knocks on my door. I tell him the door is open, so he comes in, and locks the door behind him. "Whats wrong Gracie?" He asks.

I shake my head. "I told you," I say. I scoot over on my bed and pat next to me. He comes over, and we lay under my blanket.

"I'm sorry. I should've told you. She means not half as much as you do to me. and I would rather have you in my life. She is nothing compared to you." He tells me. I nod and hug him.

He puts his arm across my chest. I fall back into a deep sleep. Or so I thought.

I get thrown awake from Julie leaping on my bed. "WAKE UP WAKE UP WAKE UP!" She yells at me. I groan and look at the clock. 9:07 am. There's no way Riker could have been here. I get up from my bed, and go pick out clothes, and take a shower.

I change into a flannel, some ripped skinny jeans, and my dark blue converse from last night. I check my phone, seeing a message from Rydel.

Where did you go? (Sent 9:13 am)

I click on reply. I text her that I was at my parents house, and couldn't bare be near him after last night's events. I make sure to include that I know riker, and he more than likely brought Savannah home. Once it is sent, she replies almost instantly.

The text includes she's glad I'm okay, and Riker did bring Savannah home, and more than likely did it with her, but Rydel wasn't home till late, and when she peeked in his room, they were making out, and Riker had no shirt on.

Maybe everyone was right. Riker was just an unpredictable player who could burst at any moment. I was just another one of his girls, who he would later forget. Maybe I should just give up. And forget Riker.