Chapter Three

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Bella

It was almost ten when I finally finished my story. With it sent to where it needs to be, I was ready to go home. As I got into the elevator, Sarah Perry, the office slut and her wannabe friends were giggling about something. I gave them a cheeky smile before settling into the back of the elevator. I tried not to listen to them but I found myself very curious so I listened in.

"I couldn't focus on anything but how hot he was" Sarah told her friends.

"I haven't seen him yet. Did you noticed if he had a ring on or did he talk about a girlfriend?" One of the friends asked.

Sarah laughed "No ring and I'm pretty sure he doesn't have a girlfriend."

"How could you tell?" The other one asked.

"I know these things, girls. Besides if he did I'm sure he left her back in LA. There is no way Edward Cullen has a girlfriend."

I gasped softly. Did she just say his name? Edward Cullen? My Edward? This cannot be happening. Sarah cannot be talking about him. He's in Los Angeles, Right? I just heard her wrong. That's it. Edward can't be here. Oh god, I cannot handle it if he's really here.

When we got to the first floor, I moved out of the way so Sarah and her friends could get through but before the doors could close. I asked her a question.

"Sarah. Who is the new music editor?"

She turned to face me "Edward Cullen." She smiled before she stated "he's tall green eyes nice bod and is going to be all mine." She finished her statement with a wink before she strutted out of the elevator to catch up with her group of girls.

I let the elevator doors close as I stood there, shocked. This was really happening. He's really here. Did he know I worked here, too? Would he care? Does he want to see me? Does he still love me?

All these thoughts ran through my head as I stood in the elevator alone in my own mind. I shook my head. Edward couldn't love a person who broke his heart. He would never want me again. I closed my eyes, tightly. I didn't want to remember the last time I saw his beautiful face but the memory came rushing into my head without a gate to stop it.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

My hands were shaking as I opened the door. I hate that he knocks. This was his home. This was the apartment we shared when we both turned eighteen. And now, he was coming here to pick up his stuff.

Edward kept his head down as he walked into the apartment. He was carrying a large box with him. I closed the door, hoping this wouldn't hurt too much. I was a fool to actually believe that. I watched as he put his clothes, CDs, and all of the other things that were his in that box. When he finally looked at me, I could see that he was crying. I had never seen him cry before.

Shit! Shit! Why does he have to love me that much? Why can't this be simple? Why can't he just go to L.A and forget about me? I wanted so badly to hug him, to feel him in my arms. To make the pain go away but I can't. I couldn't. Edward has to leave. Follow his dreams. Live the life he can't have with me.

"Are you going to say anything?" Edward asked, breaking the silence.

"What do you want me to say?" I whispered. My voice was trying to break.

"I want you to tell me you lied and you still love me. I want you to tell me you can't live without me" He took in a deep breath "I want you, Bella. I need you. I love you with everything I have. Why can't you see that? I can't function correctly without the other half of my heart."

I closed my eyes and turned the other way, fidgeting with the tapered bottom of my oversized sweatshirt. I wish I could tell him the truth. I want him. I need him. And of course, I love him. "Please, Edward, let's just make this as easy and painless as possible."

"I can't believe you would say that! There's no way this can be easy and painless. You are giving up on us Bella! You are fucking up what we had and what we can still have." He dropped the box on the ground then walked over to me. He placed his hands on each side of my face pulling it up towards him then kissed me. I was too weak to stop. I didn't want to stop. I pushed my body against his. Our lips became wild. We had not kissed in over a week, which felt like a lifetime. I pulled away from him. I made my choice and I had to live with the consequences.

"I will never give up on you. You are everything to me. Please, never forget that." Edward picked up his box then started to walk out but before he left, he whispered gently into my ear "I love you, Isabella" He kissed the side of my head then walked out of the door and out of my life.

I fell to the floor as I covered my mouth. Horrid cries ripped through my body and I could not do anything to stop them. I shook as I cried so hard that I could barely get air back into my lungs to start it all over again.

When I left the building I hurriedly rushed to my car and headed home. I didn't let myself think about Edward. It hurts my heart too much when I think about how close he was to me and I couldn't talk or touch him. As I entered the apartment that I shared with Alice, I was glad that she wasn't home yet. I needed to be alone. I put down my bag then took off my jacket.

I went into the kitchen to get a bottle of wine and a glass. With slow music playing in the background and dark red wine in my glass, I filled the bathtub with hot water. I slipped my naked body into the water then started to drink the wine. I quickly finished the bottle in no time and had a slight buzz from it too. I just wanted to feel numb for right now. I finally let my mind play with memories of how Edward looks. I could see his bronze hair, beautiful green eyes, and his incredible body. I wish could kiss him, be held in his arms. I miss the warmth of his body. I miss how I felt when we made love. I miss him.

"Bella! Are you home?" Alice yelled from the front door.

"I'm in the bath Al. I'll be out in a little while." I yelled back. I just needed a few more minutes to myself, just a little bit longer with just me and my memories.

Sighing, I got out of the tub and wrapped myself up in my robe.

"Hey Alice." I greeted her as I walked into the living room. The bottle of wine made me tipsy so I wanted to make sure I sat down.

Alice could see that I was drinking but she didn't say anything which made me grateful and confused at the same time. "When did you get home?"

"I think it was around eleven. Where have you been?"

Alice smiled then jumped on the sofa "I need to tell you something."

"Um…alright." She took a seat next to me before taking a deep breath and letting it out in a whoosh.

"Ok, I have been wanting to tell you this for a long time but I have been worried about how you would take it so I didn't tell you." She picked up my hand "I'm in love with Jasper Hale."

I just looked at her, shocked. I had a feeling that something was going on but love was nothing I expected. I never saw that coming and she didn't tell because she was worried. I felt so guilty that my best friend couldn't tell me about the guy she was dating.

"Bella? Please say something. Are you mad at me?"

"No, of course, I'm not mad at you. I just wish you could have told me sooner. I'm so happy for you, Alice. Jasper is a great guy. You have to tell me everything."

Alice was almost jumping up and down as she told me anything. They both had crushes on each other for two years, too scared to say anything. Then last year, Jasper told her. They had their first kiss that night. She went on about their first date, and how Jasper spent so much money just to impress her, which she said was totally unnecessary since she was already soooo into him. Alice was giggling when she talked about their first time making love. He was the best she has ever had. Then tonight while they were at the movie theaters, Jasper whispered into her ear 'I love you, Alice Brandon'. She jumped on his lap and told him how much she loved him back. Which then ended up with them making out in the theatre and then kicked out of the movie theatre for "inappropriate display of affections." I laughed at the pout on her face since she said she didn't see the problem with what she was doing.

When she was finished splurging her love life, I gave her a big hug "That's so amazing, Alice! I'm so happy for you guys."

To celebrate Alice's good news, we watched a very cheesy romantic movie. I didn't say anything about Edward. This is her night to be happy and not worrying about me.

At least one of us can have a chance at true love and happiness.

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