(This chapter is written in first person, as Mr snape himself)
I OWN NOTHING JK OWNS ALL!
CHAPTER 3: The second chance
It all occurred rather fast, I was confessing my last sins to potter and giving him the only information I could muster in that state.
My whole body was burning form the venom that was inside my vains. Once potter had taken my memories, I quickly began to descend into what I could only imagine was death.
But in those last moments I felt remorse for the boy, he did indeed have his mother's eyes. Yes he did also have his father's arrogance. Though in my last thoughts I began to realise he had her heart too. Yes I could see that.
As one last breath came away from my painful body, I was greeted by an embrace of pure black.
I always wandered what is was like to die...
There had been many occasions in my life where I thought death was a welcoming outcome. Especially after some meetings with the dark Lord himself. The horrors. The pain. The torture. The betrayal.
I believe I did the right thing, not only for Dumbledore, or the Order, but for her...
The dark emptiness around me swirled like smoke. I felt my body being lifted by it. It almost felt like I was in one of those contraptions muggles use to wash their garments in.
I was hurtling through the blackness of death. When everything went still and all I could see was still, motionless, darkness.
Suddenly I felt... I felt...Her
'Severus... you did it.'
'I'm so proud of you...'
'You saved my boy'
'You will be rewarded...'
'My Sev...'
'You will not die today...'
But I wanted to die! I didn't understand why she would not let me stay in this darkness? in a place where no pain was felt? How could this be a reward? There is nothing for me there?!
Going back to a world where I was lonely, only greeted by solitude.
I wanted to die. I was beginning to accept death. The only place I would not be lonely, because my Lily is here, with me. The only witch in that miserable world who could make me smile. Who made me feel happy. Who made me feel accepted. Who showed me love.
MY LILY...
'Sev?'
Yes Lily?
'I'm going to wake you up sev... but only briefly.'
What?
'Its so they know.'
Know what? Lily? What do you mean wake me...
All of a sudden I was sucked into a vaccume of pure light.
Breath filled my lungs for only a brief second. Suddenly I was being carried, by HAGRID!
I could feel myself gasp and choke knowing that she, my Lily, would bring me back to the darkness shortly. So I said something. Something that only someone who was desperate and smothered in pain would say...
"Help me."
Darkness once again.
Why did she do it? Am I still dead? Is this not the place? Am I in purgatory?
I could hear voices in the background... All the voices sounded familiar, however they seemed to be mashed together. If only I could pick out who is saying what?
Just as I thought all hope was lost one voice stood out.
"I believe I can care for this man..."
Was that? No... it can't be. The insufferable know-it-all Granger?Why does she want to help me?
" ...he saved us. He didn't have to. But he did... The others may not like him, but I'm willing to give him a second chance, it's the least he deserves. That man deserves to live..."
A second chance?
Do I deserve a second chance?