Hello! Peoples! More updates for you!

I've decided where this story is going. It's going to include some possible triggers for some people. So if you trigger easily from certain subjects, you should probably stop reading now.

The story is going to get angsty quick. I hope you guys enjoy it once it turns that way.

I do not know either of these ladies and I have the upmost respect for both of them.

Enjoy!

By the time she reached her apartment, Dianna had no idea how she had gotten there. Her mind had been racing since she left Lea at the restaurant. She climbed the stairs to her 3rd floor home, tripping over more stairs than she would like to admit. She opened the door and was immediately greeted by Arthur.

"Hey little man. You wanna go spend the night at Aunt Lea's?" Dianna asked, kneeling down to pet her puppy's head. Arthur wagged his butt like crazy clearly excited over having company again.

Dianna walked to her bedroom, Arthur close behind, and began packing up for the evening. She wanted to take pajama pants and a long sleeved shirt but unfortunately it had been a really hot couple months. The blonde grabbed a pair of cotton shorts and tank top. She also grabbed a fresh pair of jeans, a form fitting shirt and a pair of ballet flats for the following day. She quickly grabbed a thong and bra to wear as well. She ran into the bathroom, grabbed all her toiletries and quickly stuffed them into her overnight bag.

Dianna looked up at the clock on the wall. It was in the shape of the Eiffel Tower. Lea had given it to her when they lived together. It showed that she had 30 minutes before she was supposed to be at her friend's house. She sat down on the bed, her mind racing.

"This is such a bad idea. Why can't I say no to her? Seriously? Oh yeah, it's because clearly I'm in love with her. How the hell did this happen? When the hell did this happen? Is this just something my mind has decided it wants because Lea mentioned being lucky to call me her girlfriend? Or has this been going on longer but I've refused to actually think about it? Think Dianna, how long have you wanted to kiss her?'

Dianna's mind flashed to the night they spent on the rooftop. They had been hugging and dancing. They had taken pictures and of course they had been leaked to the media. They were the pictures that really sparked the rumors that the girls were dating. Dianna had seen the pictures a few days after they had been leaked. It did look a lot like the girls we dating and madly in love. The blonde remembered thinking that she certainly wouldn't mind being with Lea.

'I guess that was the first time I ever thought about being with her. That doesn't really count though does it? I mean that picture was pretty convincing. What about Heather's party?' Dianna's brain decided to counter.

"No," Dianna said out loud. "I refuse to think about that night." The blonde glanced at the clock again. 20 minutes left.

She grabbed her overnight bag and went into the kitchen. She put some of Arthur's food into a bag and grabbed his food and water bowls. She tossed them into her bag, grabbed Arthurs leash off the hook by the door and quickly put it on her pup.

"Ready Arthur?" She asked the dog. He started jumping up on her legs, clearly very excited. She led them outside and after a few minutes of getting everything situated, they were on their way.

Dianna tried so hard to focus on the radio but she could feel her mind wandering again, back to that night at Heather's party. She didn't remember much about it. She remembered hanging out with the cast. She remembered drinking quite a bit of alcohol. She remembered Lea being very touchy feely. Then she remembered waking up the next morning in her own bed and Lea in hers at their apartment. That's all she could remember. Nothing else from that evening is clear. All she knew about that night was what Heather and Naya had told her the next morning. As far as she knew, that's all Lea remembered too. They had never discussed it.

Dianna pulled into Lea's driveway again without realizing how she got there. She grabbed Arthur and her bag and walked up to the front door. Her stomach was in knots, she felt like she couldn't breathe. She raised her left hand and knocked. All that was left was for her to wait for that beautiful brunette to answer the door.

After what felt like an eternity and far too soon, Lea's smiling face appeared.

"Dianna!" She exclaimed! Luckily the blonde didn't have a chance to respond before Lea was kneeling to give Arthur kisses. "Hi little man. Who's the cutest puppy in the entire world? That's you. Yes you are!"

Dianna couldn't help but laugh at Lea letting the dog lick her all over her face.

"Come in, come in!" Lea stood up and stepped to the side so Dianna could walk through the front door.

"Lea, how much more have you drank since I left you?" Dianna asked. She could tell her friend was more than a bit tipsy.

"Only a few glasses. You want some?" Lea led the blonde into the kitchen and began pouring two glasses of white wine before Dianna even had a chance to answer.

"Thanks." Dianna said as she took the glass. She certainly wasn't going to argue some alcohol right now. She felt like she could barely breathe. Lea was in a tank top and very short shorts. Dianna was certain she wasn't wearing a bra either.

"So what do you want to watch?" Lea asked.

"Whatever you want is ok with me." Dianna answered.

"How about 'An Affair to Remember?'" Lea asked as she grabbed it off her DVD shelf.

"Um, yeah that's fine." Dianna wasn't really sure how much she wanted to watch a love story with the woman she was in love with but she didn't really have a choice.

"Ok, well why don't you go get changed into your pajamas and I will go set the movie up." Lea headed for her bedroom before Dianna answered, Arthur following behind.

"I guess I'll go change then." Dianna said quietly before heading into the bathroom. She looked at herself in the mirror, trying to catch her breath. "Calm down, Dianna. It's just Lea. You used to live together. You watched movies together all the time. This is nothing new or different than before." The blonde was talking quietly to herself. 'Except before you didn't want to kiss her," The voice inside her head said. "I don't want to kiss her." Dianna said out loud.

"Di, did you say something?" Lea yelled from the bedroom.

"N-no." Dianna studdered.

"Well hurry up!" Lea said.

Dianna quickly changed, making sure to leave her bra on. She didn't know why, but she felt better with it on. She looked at herself in the mirror one more time. 'Breathe, Dianna. She isn't going to jump you. She is your best friend. Nothing more. Calm down.'

"Dianna!" Lea yelled again.

Dianna walked out of the bathroom and into Lea's bedroom. She swore she saw Lea's breathe hitch at the sight of Dianna in her shorts and tank. 'No, she didn't. Now I'm seeing things! Calm down, Dianna!' The blonde was shaking as she climbed into the left side of the bed and under the covers. Arthur and the kittens were on the floor around the bed so it was only the 2 women. Dianna tried to stay as far away from Lea as she could. She figured if she could stay away, nothing bad could happen.

"Di, come cuddle with me!" Lea begged.

'Well there goes that plan.' Dianna thought to herself. Lea had always been a touchy feely person but for once, Dianna wished she wasn't. She had no choice but to scoot over closer to the other woman.

Dianna was afraid Lea could hear the pounding in her chest. If not hear it, at least feel it once she cuddled up to her. The butterflies in her stomach had become pterodactyls. Her head was on Lea's chest and Lea's arm was wrapped around her. It was exactly how a couple would lay except they weren't a couple. 'Why is Lea making me do this?' Her brain asked? 'Because she doesn't know you are in love with her and this is how she always is,' Another part answered. Dianna tried to calm down and focus on the movie but the smell of Lea's perfume was almost more than she could handle. Lea was drawing small circles on her back absentmindedly and it was about to drive the blonde insane.

Before she knew what she was doing, Dianna was speaking. "Hey Lea?"

"Yeah?"

"Do you remember that night at Heather's?" Dianna asked.

"Which one?" Lea asked back, clearly confused.

"The one that Naya and Heather had to tell us about the next day." Dianna said, afraid of what was about to happen.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Lea sat up suddenly, sounding very defensive.

"Yes you do. I was there when Naya and Heather told us." Dianna started to climb off the bed.

"I don't know what you're talking about." Lea said again before she walked out of the bedroom.

Dianna followed. "You know what I'm talking about. That's why you're running away from me. Look, we never talked about it and I think we should."

"No, Dianna. No." Lea was in the kitchen now, opening and closing cabinets, clearly not really looking for anything.

"Lea!" Dianna demanded.

"Dianna!" Lea countered back. She slammed her hands on the counter. "Why the hell won't you listen to me." Dianna was silent. It was rare for Lea to get angry like this. "Why are you even bringing this up? Is this because this morning I said I would be lucky to be your girlfriend?" Lea asked, her voice a shade calmer.

"No. Well maybe. I don't know. All I know is that it happened 2 years ago and we never talked about it. Lea we kissed. Hell we made out. God only knows what else we did. We were apparently the only ones in Heather's bedroom."

"Stop, Dianna! Stop it." Lea's anger was growing. Dianna knew she shouldn't push but she couldn't help it.

"No, Lea. We are talking about this." Dianna's voice was getting louder now. "Lea how do we know we didn't have sex? We don't know what happened." Dianna's voice was getting louder now.

"I don't care what happened. I can't remember it, therefore it doesn't exist." Lea snapped back.

"It doesn't work that way. Why does this bother you so much? Is it because you think it's so horrible to have done anything like that with me? Or because you're afraid admitting it will actually make you think about your sexuality for once? Or what? Because you're afraid you liked it and you can't handle that you may like sleeping with girls more than guys." Dianna couldn't stop the words from pouring out. She didn't know why they were but she couldn't make it stop. "You said this morning you don't care about sexuality but you clearly are ashamed of yours!"

"Get out!" Lea yelled. She went to the front door and yanked it open.

"What?" Dianna asked. Quieter again. She had never seen her best friend this angry. Ever.

"I said get out." Lea made sure to enunciate every word.

"Fine." Dianna answered, the word barely being heard. She could feel the tears beginning to well up. She cleared her throat. Trying to find her voice again. "I'll get Arthur and my stuff and I'll go."

Dianna gathered up her things, trying so hard to stop her tears but failing miserably. She avoided Lea's eyes as she put Arthur's leash on and walked out the door that Lea was still holding open. She didn't look back, she couldn't. Her best friend had actually kicked her out. The second she sat down in the driver's seat, she broke down completely. She cried until she couldn't breathe. She cried until she couldn't cry anymore. Then she finally put her car into drive and drove home.