chapter 3

i was selling t-shirts when this girl came up to me i recongnised her as alice "hey how much are t-shirts?" i showed her a list of prices "oh well i need two mens and one medum wemens" i gave her the shirts then the crowd started to go awal i started to sing so they to would calm down

Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away if i will it all away

edward was stairing at me he diserves this trauma for what he did to me i began to dance like a stripper and my fans began to go nuts edwards mouth hung wide open i smirked at that as i continued to sing

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away if i will it all away

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

i gave edward a deadly stare as some people called it and he looked at me i dismised him and gave him an even eviler look

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end

i began to dance like a nut again to the guitaur solo and let all my worries sliped away as i continued to sing

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Servatis a pereculum.
Servatis a maleficum

"you guys ready to rock tonight lets get this party started!"

I am the comfortable secure
The definition of this western world
And I have perfected deceit
Even I believe I'm above saving
I'll never let You see

I am the broken
I am the bruised
I am the poor ones
I have been used.

edward gave me an astonished look i looked at him close to crying i needed him when he left and jacob had hurt me i didnt look at him i let my head drop to the the floor

When I am breathing my last breath
"Come and save me" I will cry to You
'Cause pride has not let me say

I am the broken
I am the bruised
I am the poor ones
I have been used.

Bring me to my knees,
Why does it take so much pain for me to see?
If strength is only fond when I am on my knees,
Why is it so hard to show that I am weak?

i began to head bang then i stopped and sang again

I am the broken
I am the bruised
I am the poor ones
I have been used.

i lifted my head every one was looking at me like i was strange "this next song is to the vampire who i loved and left me for dead and to the person who raped me!" there were many gasps and i began to sing

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard I've learned the hard way,

to never let it

get that far

Because of you I never stray

too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play

on the safe side So I don't

get hurt Because of you I find it

hard to trust Not only me,

but everyone around me Because of

you I am afraid I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out I

cannot cry Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh Every day

of my life My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with Because of

you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me Because of you

I am afraid I watched you die I heard you cry

Every night in your sleep I was so young

You should have known better than to lean

on me You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain And now I cry In the

middle of the night For the same damn thing

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side So I don't get hurt

Because of you I tried my hardest just to forget

everything Because of you I don't know how to

let anyone else in Because of you I'm

ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you I am afraid

Because of you Because of you

i sang hard with all my energy and heart and soul i knew i got my message out and i hope they would get the picture that im never leting any of them back in "my next song goes to edward cullen!"

Please, please forgive me but I won't be home again

Maybe someday you'll look up and barely conscious

you'll say to no one isn't something missing? You won't

cry for my absence, I know you forgot me long ago

Am I that unimportant? Am I so insignificant?

Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice you won't try for me,

not now though I die to know you love me

I'm all alone Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me but I won't be home again

I know what you do to yourself I breathe deep and cry out

Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'm the sacrifice you won't try for me, not now

though I die to know you love me I'm all alone

Isn't someone missing me?

i was now going to sing what he caused me and this should wake him up from his stupidness

And if I bleed, I'll bleed knowing you don't care

and if I sleep just to dream of you I'll wake without you there

Isn't something missing? Isn't something...

Even though I'm the sacrifice you won't try for me not now

though I died to know you love me I'm all alone

Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?

soon the concert was over and i was signing cds and all with my head down until i heard a velvet voice say my name i kept my head down and held back the tears "bella?" i looked up to see edward i couldent contain the tears i broke down cooper my manager came out and told everyone to go home i went to my dressing room and grabed my stuff and i went out to the parking lot still trying to stop crying ther were some guys in the parkinglot "hey sexy" "leave me alone" "oooh fiery just the way i like them" the stranger grabed me "ahhh let me go put me down!"