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You're pushing and pulling me down to
But I don't know what I
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought
Now when I caught myself, I had to stop myself
I'm saying something that I should have never thought of you

I caught myself

He was gorgeous. He was Edward Mason.

I was still staring at him, I probably had my jaw-a-slack and my eyes wide but I can't take my eyes of him. He had the brightest, emerald eyes, I could look into them forever…

My thoughts were cut off when I saw a blur of pink run and leap on him screeching 'Edward' as it went.

Alice.

Wait a sec, why does Alice know our estate agent?

"Hey, Alice" the melodic voice said while placing her on the floor. Jake then pulled him into one of those 'bro hugs' as they call them. You know the ones the jocks do?

"Hey Eddie" he said as he pulled back, smiling like there was no tomorrow. Why does he always smile like that when he's talking him? My Jake is not gay.

"Jakey" He replied whilst smirking, a god damn sexy smirk might I add, and Jakes smile turned into a glare. "I told you not to call me 'Eddie"

"What can I say, it suits you" Jake said, smiling again and I chuckled.

Edwards's eyes then resting on me, staring intently into my eyes. Not breaking our gaze he lifted my hand and brought it to his lips in gentlemen fashion. I giggled.

Shit, I giggled. Bella does not giggle for anyone else but Jakey.

He smiled and turned back to Jake, "Nice house, how did you find it?"

"Do you really think this idiot could find such a nice house? No silly, dearest brother. It was moi." Alice piped up.

"Brother?" I asked, totally confused.

"Oh yeah, he's my brother. Did I not mention that before?" She said as if it was the most obvious thing.

"Alice, how come we have been best friends since high school and you had never told me about him before, neither have I met him before. Same with Emmet. I had to find about them myself?"

"They were in college while we were in high school, and moved out when they got back. You never asked if I had siblings"

"Huh" was my brilliant response.

"Common babe" Jake said while dragging me along towards the house "let's look at our future house." He winked at me. The others followed behind, talking, probably catching up on each other. I got a good look at the house; it had white, panelled walls with steps leading up to the front door. There were 2 trees at the front and a good amount of grass. [ .com/6a00c2251d7d81549d0110167ac941860d-500pi or . ]

We walked through the door and were welcomed by an over- friendly touring guide.

[ A/N I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOU DO WHEN YOU TOUR A HOUSE, SO JUST GO ALONG WITH IT, KAY? ]

She had blond extensions down to her waist, and covered her face in make up. She took a little too much interest in Jake for my liking.

"Hello, welcome to the house. Are you looking for a tour?" She said pushing her fake breasts up and never looking away from Jacob, he just grimaced. I coughed to make my presence known.

"Yes, were moving into a house together" I said, emphasizing were, she looked at me in disgust.

"Hmm, well go look round, make yourself at home" she said glaring at me then turned back to Jake giving him her business card, "and you, call me when you get bored of this one" by this time I was fuming.. She then spotted Edward, who was trying to hide his chuckle.

Dear god.

You could see the drool come out of her mouth and her eyes had glazed over. I dragged Jake away, we needed to get the hell away from her.

The floors were laminated and the walls were a nice beige. There was an open-roomed living room, with a 3 seater in the middle, and a 1 seater on the other side, angled towards the television, there was a white rug in the middle and a wooden fire place in the corner.

On the right was a modern kitchen, wooden cabinets, a decent sized fridge. All the usual stuff. There was a winding staircase heading up stairs.

"What do you think so far?" Jake asked.

"I love it, you?"

"Looks perfect, want to head upstairs?"

I simply nodded and followed him, looking behind, only to notice Edward being pounced on by the touring guide and Alice standing there awkwardly.

"Hey guys" I called out to them. Their heads snapped up with a grateful look on their faces and they excused themselves from the whore. She looked like she would burst as they fled from her. We continued walking up the stairs leading into a long hallway. On the first door was the spare room, it was a teal blue colour, with a window at the far side. There was a bed in the middle and a bedside table, a wardrobe which Alice went straight too. The carpet was a darker blue. Jake plopped on the bed, falling backwards. His legs were hanging off the edge and he had his arms under his head as a pillow.

His shirt lifted up, revealing a bit of his 8-pack. I smirked. How did I end up with a beautiful creature like this?

I turned around to exit the room, but was blocked by Edward leaning against the door frame looking like a Greek God, staring at me.

"Thanks for before," he said smiling a bright smile.

"No problem" I replied blushing,. "I was just going to look at the next room."

"I'll come" he backed out of the room and stepped aside "ladies first"

I blushed even deeper and walked out. He followed me into the next room, which was the bathroom. How pleasant. I laughed as I wondered around. It was a pretty big bathroom; it had a toilet and sink, (who would have thought) but instead of plain plastic, they were made out of glass with fake fish in the middle. I'd always wanted that!

I was getting pretty bored of looking a bathroom, so I turned to head out only to realise Edward was closer than I thought. His face was inches from mine, and his breath fanned across my face. Minty. He started to lean in, should I be doing this? Jacob's in the next room but he's so tempting.

Just take it Bella, you know you want it.

I closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip in anticipation. Jesus, he was taking his time. His lips grazed mine, teasing me, and everything around us dissappeared. There was electricity passing through our lips. I was about to go full force and push our lips together when someone called my name. I sprang backwards, tripping over air on my way and my head crashed on the tiles.

"Shit" I said whilst was rubbing my head as Jacob walked in. I didn't bear to look at Edward. I suddenly felt queasy, I don't know if it was from the head rush, or the guilt that filled me.

"Whoa... what happened Bellsy?" Jake asked suddenly by my side, concern clear in his voice. Why did he have to be so perfect?

How could I have done that? I almost kissed Edward when I am happily married.

"Y-yeah… just t-tripped over my own feet" I faked a smile.

"I can't leave you alone for a minute, can I?" he smiled at me "well, you were with Edward I guess"

I just hummed, unable to trust my voice. I felt so bad.

"You alright to carry on?" he said in a caring tone. I glanced at Edward who was staring off into space. He looked brooding and mysterious, damn him for pulling it off.

"Mm-hmm" I hummed again while pulling myself up. Jake kissed my hair and wrapped an arm round my waist. I took another peek at Edward who was now glaring at where Jakes arm was.

We continued the tour of the house and put in a bid for it. Alice went home to Jasper saying they had dinner plans. Leaving Me, Jake and Edward. Great.

"Hey, thanks for looking at the house with us dude," Jake said, completely oblivious to the tension between us.

"It's my job" he said blankly, making no eye contact.

"Well, we should get going" I said, trying to get away from the awkwardness.

"…But we should meet up some time" Gah, Jake!

Edward looked briefly at me then to Jake "Yeah"

"'Kay, let's get going," I hinted, tugging on Jacobs arm.

"Cya Ed"

We walked off, finally.

"How about a midnight stroll?" Jake asked taking my hand.

I look at my watch, "but it's only 8:00?"

"How about an 8:00 stroll" he said trying to hide his laugh.

"Why not" I started to skip, whilst swing our arms. And I fell. Of course.

Jake's strong arms wrapped around my waist before I hit the ground,

"Be careful Bells, I wouldn't want to loose you" He whispered and smirked. He crushed me into an unexpected bear hug.

I pulled back a smashed my lips to his, it took him a couple of seconds to realise what was happening, but soon enough his lips were moving along with mine, moulding into them. The kiss was rough, desperate and passionate. He had one had in my hair, the other pulling me closer. I had my hands on his shoulders, probably clawing into them.

His tongue swept over my bottom lip, asking for permission but i wasn't giving in that easily. I kept my mouth closed, and Jacob groaned in annoyance.

We broke off the kiss but his lips stayed on my skin, leading down my jaw towards my neck.

I brought our lips together and this time opened my mouth, our tongues fought for dominance.

"Bella" he murmured against my lips.

I just moaned against his.

"I love you so fucking much" he grumbled roughly.

"me too" i gasped.

He started kissing down my neck. "say it" he growled, he actually growled. It was hot.

"I love you so fucking much too" i said, smiling against his shoulder.

"we should stop" i said reluctantly.

"What, why?" he said shocked.

"well, we are in an open neighbour hood, little kiddies could look out of their window any time soon"

"stuff them" he moaned.

"Jake" I warned, pulling away.

"Don't pull away, just let me hold you" He said pulling me back into a comforting hug.

I leaned into his shoulder and closed my eyes. "I could stay like this forever" i hummed.

"I'm so lucky, y'know, out of all the other guys in the world, you picked me. I get to see your beautiful face everyday. Hear you beautiful voice every day. Kiss you beautiful lips every day. I never want to loose you Bella, you need to know how much i love you. I would die for you, and i'm not just being corny, i really, really would. When I'm away from you i ache, my heart swells. I'll always be there for you" I had traitor tears in my eyes, which i tried to rub away but Jake got there first.

"Aww, Jake" I sobbed, clutching on to him.

The guilt from earlier filled me up again.

He only want me, but i have feelings for someone else too.

But I don't know what I want
No I don't know what I want

Paramore- I caught myself

Finally- Pleasee review!!! Even if its just one word!

i will love you forever.

Tell me if i should carry on.

--Ella

----MissCullenx