It grew dark, and when Amy returned home with the kids, I tried to redeem myself from the emotional mess I was. Playing my best poker face, I helped put the kids to bed and after several stories, we flicked the TV on. I couldn't help but notice myself drift off to thoughts of what happened earlier ... What was going to happen, but unfortunately, I wasn't the only one.
"Are you ok?" Amy innocently asked.
"Yeah I'm fine, just feeling a bit under the weather, how was work?"
"Under the weather? How do you mean?" She avoided the question
"You know .."
"No, Ste I don't! What's a matter?"
More questions? Seriously?
"Amy, Im trying to watch this, can we just leave it?" I proclaimed pointing aggressively towards the TV.
She sat up, snatching the remote from my hand and refused to give it back to me. After switching it off, she stared at me and analysed.
"Is it the business?" she asked after a few moments.
In order to avoid further questions, I agreed, trying my best not to worry her.
"It's just stressing me out at the moment, that's all Ames."
"Oh Ste, don't put yourself in this situation! You know, I'm always here to help! Free of charge!"
"Yeah" I said with an unconvincing smile. I've never liked lying to Amy, I mean, the new Ste. It's just I know Amy would read me like a book if I did other wise!
"Maybe I could get some more shifts? I'm sure if I'm nice Tony wou ..."
"It's fine! Honestly! Just leave it! I'm actually getting quite tired now, so off to bed for me! Night"
"Bed? But it's only ..."
And i was out of there like a bat out of hell. I could tell she knew something was up, so I just had to avoid her. But then I realised what I'd done. I'm alone now, with no distractions, nothing to keep my thoughts from drifting to ... Him.
From now on I have had to drag out each Chapter to stop myself from being confused (Which isnt hard), so please bare with me. I hope you still like reading it, but if not i will do my best to skip to the more exciting events