The Choices We Make.
Chapter Three.
We must have fallen asleep, because I woke up on top of a sleeping Jacob. I looked out the window, the last bits of light were completely gone. He was still glowing from what had went down. But I was far from happy.
I had come here to end it with Jacob, and I only dug myself deeper. I love Edward. I love Edward, not Jacob. I kept repeating it in my head. But I loved them both.
My werewolf was grumbling. "Good morning, or should I say good night." He chuckled.
"Hey Beeeeellllaaa" He was reaching out and yawning as he spoke my name. He wrapped his arms around me. I shrugged them off, I had to do this now. Just thinking about it made the tears start flowing. "Bella?"
"Jacob, I can't do this..." I couldn't look him in the eyes. He loves me. "Jacob..."
He cut me off. "Wait Bella, I need to tell you something." I still couldn't look at him. "It's kind of good news." Okay I can do this. I looked up and met his eyes. But I couldn't hold them there. "I've imprinted."
"Jacob!" I threw my arms around him. "That's wonderful!" I was glad, I could tell him and he would be okay. He had found someone else.
"Who is this lucky lady." We were sitting criss-cross in front of each other.
"That's the hard part..."
"Don't tell me she's two." I joked. He laughed, but I could tell he wasn't really laughing.
"Ha ha, no she's not two...it's...well, it's you. Bella I've imprinted on you." My mouth dropped open. This made things much much worse. Not much better.
"Oh Jake." I couldn't look at him. "Jacob, the reason I came here, was to tell you...I made my decision..."
"And..." I could feel him looking at me. How could I do this to him?
"I'm going to be changed, at the end of the school year. I love Edward." he was starting to shake, "Jake. Calm."
"Why! WHY BELLA! TELL ME WHY I SHOULD BE CALM!!" He was shaking like mad.
"Because you wouldn't want to do something you regret… Like hurting me." Images of Emily came to my mind. He took a few deep breaths and spoke again.
"That means we'll never see each other again." I finally looked at him. Only his hands were shaking now. "It will never work. It will be good bye."
"No." I whispered. "No." with more force that time. "It doesn't have to be that way. Jake you are my best friend. I love you, but I'm in love with him."
"What part of mortal enemies don't you get?" He sighed, "That makes us..." He pointed to me and then him and back again. "Mortal enemies too."
"I love him."
"Filthy bloodsucker." he muttered.
"OH-MY-GOD! EDWARD!"
"Fine Bella. Filthy...Edward…"
"NO! HE WILL BE HOME SOON!" Suddenly I couldn't breath. "Can you take me home?" I said between gasps. He just looked up at me. I realized we both were still naked. I started to put my clothes on. And he just pulled on his silly cut offs.
"It would be faster of I ran..." He took his pants off again and handed them to me. I closed my eyes when I saw him start to shake out of his skin. Suddenly there he was, my personal werewolf. I would miss this.
I jumped on his back and we were off. In a few minutes we were in my back yard. He changed back and threw the jeans back on. We walked through the door. Charlie was in the living room. I glanced at the stove it was almost 11. Had I really been at Jacob's for that long? I got there around noon.
"Hey you two!" Charlie said with a giant smile on his face. He always liked Jacob better then Edward, ever since what happened last fall. But I tried not to think about it.
"Hey Charlie." We both said in unison. We were halfway up the stairs when Jacob started sniffing the air. "He's in your room." He said quiet I had to strain to hear him.
I stopped dead in my tracks. Edward was back from hunting. And in my room. He probably already knew I was home, with Jacob. Oh god, please don't let Jacob be thinking about earlier.
I didn't want to open the door. But Jacob already was there. Inside my room. Did he want to die? Out of the corner of my eye I saw him. Sitting in a chair, with is hands folded in his lap...he was furious.
I walked in and closed the door tightly behind me. And lingered there with my head against the door. All I needed to do was just focus on breathing. There was going to be a whisper war going on pretty soon.
"Bloodsucker."
"Dog." Oh god. Please help me. Before I knew it cold porcelain arms were around my waist. "Hello love." He kissed the side of my head. I can't do this. This breathing thing. I can't do it.
"Bella?" He turned me around. "It's okay, breathe." I looked into those golden eyes. Those amazing vampire golden eyes, of the man I loved. I was gone. I couldn't breathe, and tears were flowing like a rainstorm.
There was a low angry growl. "Now now dog." He had turned away from me and was staring Jacob down. He squeezed his eyes tight and flinched. He growled from inside his throat. "Stop it."
"Why? Don't like what you see? She sure seemed to like it." Jacob was smiling. The tears came harder. Edward's face was broken. His eyes were saddened. I knew exactly what Jacob was thinking about. I couldn't help but yell.
"Jacob! STOP IT!" Now I had done it. Edward slipped out the window. There was a knock on the door. It was Charlie.
"Everything alright in here Bells?" He was looking into my tear filled eyes. "Bella?" He looked from me to Jacob and back again. "What's going on?"
"Nothing Charlie, everything is fi---"
I cut him off. "Jacob, maybe you should go home now." Charlie looked at me. The thing my father was most scared of was emotion, especially tears. I looked up at him, he was pleading with his eyes.
Jacob looked at me. Confused. "Jake..." He didn't say anything. He didn't look at either of us. He just walked right past us and out the door. I heard him slam the front door.
"Bella, what happened? Are you okay?"
"I'm fine Charlie. I'm going to bed."
"Oh, all right. I'll be downstairs if you need me. Night Bells...I love you."
"Yeah, you too." I waited till he was down stairs and turned around to slip out the window. But there were two white cold hands there to help me down. I didn't think. I just fell into his arms.
It was just me and him standing there. The tears had slowed but not stopped. How could I live with myself? I hurt the man I loved so much. That was the last thing I ever wanted to do.
"Edward, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I love you. I don't love him. I love you. Always and forever. I'm sorry I never ever want to hurt you again. I am never ever going to hurt you again. You are the one I want. My one and only. I love you. I love you. I love you." I blurted it all out, fast and mumbled together. But that last 'I love you' was as clear as day. "I love you."
He placed a kiss on my lips. "I know, I know. I love you too." There was a growl. We weren't alone…I turned around to see a big furry werewolf in my face. Rustle shaggy fur and cold, sad black eyes.
This would be the end. Only one would be here by daybreak.
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Authors Note: Oh My Goodness! Third chapter ended with a cliffhanger. :D The fourth chapter is almost done. And will be up soon. Much love!