"Okay, Blaine," Kurt said, closing the laptop when he finished, sliding it off his lap. "This is a little different…" Immediately, Blaine's face fell. Kurt nearly heard the boy's heart break. He started to shake his head and open his mouth. Before he could speak, Kurt continued, "Hey, no. Let me finish. This is different, but I've lived my whole life with different. Different's the only place I feel comfortable. We need to talk about this, but I don't see this being completely out of reach."
Blaine's fallen face didn't change. He still looked disappointed after Kurt spoke. And then, after a few moments of silence, something changed. It was a delayed surprise. He looked around the room, almost as if in shock, and then back at Kurt. "Wait... Really?"
"Yes, really." Kurt said softly. "But I just need you to explain some things to me."
"I can try," Blaine mumbled, looking down again.
Kurt smiled softly, "So you want to be- you feel like… a 'little'?" Kurt asked, he waited for Blaine to nod his head in confirmation, "And you'd like me to be… well, your Daddy?"
Blaine cracked a smile at that, looking up. He scrunched up his nose, "You know, it sounds creepy when you ask it like that. But yes, I would."
"Okay. And there were a few different ideas I saw on those pages. Is this just a sex thing to you or a lifestyle thing or what?"
"It's not a sex thing for me," Blaine said almost immediately. "I mean, I probably could have sex when feeling little, but that's definitely not what I want right now. It's a lifestyle thing, but I don't think I wanna do it 24/7 like some of those people."
Kurt nodded, "Okay. And what do you want to do when you feel 'little'?"
"I like colouing and watching movies and stuff. I have a few secret little things, like some toy cars and a paci and a sippy cup," he told his fiancé.
Kurt couldn't help but smile at that. That sounded adorable. He could just picture Blaine doing that, feeling and acting littler, and it just seemed so cute. After a moment, he asked, "And where do I fit into this?"
"Well, I want boundaries and rules and somebody to make me feel safe. When I do something wrong, I want somebody to enforce that it was wrong, but then to forgive me when it's all over. I want to be, well, taken care of… And I want comfort and reassurance when I'm upset, which happens a little easier when I feel little." Blaine told him, cheeks becoming hot- he was thankful for his darker toned skin.
"Okay, I think we can do that. We'll have to establish and come up with the rules together," Kurt told him.
"I was hoping so," Blaine said with a shy smile, running his hand through his hair.
Kurt laughed, "Okay good. And is there anything that makes you want to feel little?"
"Well," Blaine started, "When I'm really stressed I start feeling little. Or really upset or angry. But sometimes it happens when I feel giggly and I start feeling little. Which sounds like everything, but it's not. Also, when you're in charge I always want to feel little. Like, remember when my eye got hurt and you kind of took care of me and made sure I didn't do anything to make it worse and listened to everything the doctors said? That made me feel pretty little…"
Kurt smiled a little and reached for Blaine's hand, "Thanks for telling me all of this, Blaine. I can only imagine how scary it feels."
"It is scary," Blaine admitted, nodding. "I thought you were gonna freak out or call me a perv or leave me."
"I couldn't leave you over something silly," Kurt chuckled. "If I didn't like it, I would have told you I don't want to be involved. And I'm not completely sure how comfortable I will be, Blaine, but I'm willing to try."
"You don't have to if-"
Kurt cut him off, "I know I don't have to. I want to. I'm… intrigued."
Blaine's smile grew and he leaned forward to squeeze Kurt in a hug. Kurt laughed and kissed Blaine's cheek. Blaine whispered, "Thank you so much. I love you."
"I love you too," Kurt laughed, pulling away. "I know you'd probably love to try this all out this weekend before I leave, but I don't know if I can do that, sweetheart."
Blaine nodded slowly, trying not to look disappointed.
"I just think I need to do some more research on my own. Okay, Blaine?" Kurt asked, reaching for Blaine's hand and squeezing it gently. "I want to make sure I feel more comfortable before we really start."
Blaine nodded again, smiling softly. "I understand."
"And we need to discuss more things… We need to make a list of rules, like we said? And we need ideas for how to keep this up when we're not together?"
Blaine's smile widened and he nodded before kissing Kurt.
Kurt laughed after he was kissed and hummed, "For now, let's take a break from this and find another movie, hmm? We'll talk about the rest of this over lunch."