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I was instantly more nervous than I probably should be. What if he didn't like my music? I had never felt this way about anyone, and I mean anyone. I didn't even feel remotely close to this way about Jake. It's starting to scary me how fast I'm really falling for him. But as soon as we got in the car, he had an interesting expression on his face, it was one of curiosity. It seemed he was just as nervous about my music choices as I was, but I quickly moved on.
"What would you like to listen to?" I asked. I hoped he wanted to hear what I listen to after all it was my car. Bella, that's selfish, he is your guest. But I just put that new mix CD in the car this morning and I really want to listen to it. Okay, Bella remember he is your guest, do what he wants, anything he wants, well almost anything.
"Oh, well I would really like to know what you listen to. If that's alright with you?" He said sweetly.
YES! I screamed in my head. I hope I hid it well.
"Okay, I just made a new mix CD this morning. Would you like to listen to that?" Please say yes, please oh please say yes!
"That sounds perfect." He smiled. His smile was unique, crooked in a way.
With that I turned it on, thanking God that it was a long drive to the store. It was then that my new favorite song came on and I couldn't help singing along.
I'm checking your pulse
I'm giving you air
But your body disagrees
And No it don't care at all
I'm wasting my time
Now your eyes roll awake
You're looking at me,
You say darling' what happened
Did I fall asleep, and you carry me home
'Cause I know I wasn't here
I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa
And I sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite opted in
My heart is occupied
And now's not the time
Let's try this again
And this time don't laugh
'Cause I'm working on my sentences
I'm working on my play on words
I'll get it this time
If I am a clock
Then you are the time
I'm patiently waiting
And you're out of line
And I'll be the question
If you'll be the answer
I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa
And I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite opted in
My heart is occupied
And now's the time
If I am clock
Then you are the time
I'm patiently waiting
And you're out of line
I'm counting the times you've lied to my face
My hands were full
Not a second to waste
If I am clock
Then you are the time
I'm patiently waiting
And you're out of line
I'm counting the times you've lied to my face
My hands were full
Not a second to waste
I'm closing your blinds
I'm shutting your eyes
And now I'm afraid I have to go
Whoa
And I'd sing you a song
But I'm feeling quite opted in
My heart is occupied
Now's the time
The Time
(Not a Second to Waste by A Rocket To The Moon)
By the end of the song I had forgotten Edward was in the car, I was so lost in the song. When the end of the song came near, I noticed that he was singing along too. I almost jumped in my seat with joy. No one else I had ever met knew that song.
"You know A Rocket To The Moon?" I asked trying to keep my excitement in.
"I love them. I didn't know anyone else knew about them. They aren't very well known. And even if they have heard about them, they don't really like them." He told me. I was nodding the whole time. That was true for me too.
"Oh, I know. I'm so excited to finally meet someone who actually loves them." I had a huge smile by the end of my sentence.
"So, am I." He smiled that crooked smile. It was now my favorite smile. But just then my phone rang and I knew it was Alice.
"Hey honey, what's going on?" I asked her.
"Bella?" She sounded so scared, like she was going to cry.
"Alice, what is it? Talk to me. Tell me what's going on." I told her trying to calm her down.
"Can you come get me? I need you. Jasper said he would take Edward. Please?" She was crying now.
"Of course, where are you?" I asked trying to stay calm for her.
"I'm about at the grocery store. Jasper said he would drop me off there." She was trying so hard to keep her tears in; she was trying to be strong for not only me, but to show Jasper that she was strong.
"Okay, I'm pulling into the parking lot right now." I told her.
"I see you. Bye" She told me.
"I'm so sorry Edward. I'm going to have to leave right now. But Jasper is over there. I'm really sorry." I said as I turned back to Edward. My heart broke looking at him, I was losing time with him. But I needed to be with Alice.
"Oh, is everything alright?" He asked, not as if he was trying to keep the last bit of our conversation alive, but because he cared.
"I'm not really sure. Its Alice. I'm going to take her home." I told him truthfully.
"Well, I hope everything goes well. Can I have your number and we can get together some other time?" He was shy again, as if he really liked me.
"Yeah. I would like that. " We exchanged phone numbers and he got out of the car just as Alice approached my car. When she got in she had mascara running down her cheeks and she was hugging herself and crying.
"Alice honey. Do you want to go home or do we need to sit here for a few minutes?" I asked her rubbing her shoulders. With that she leaned into my chest and began to sob. She cried really hard for about ten minutes before saying that she wanted to go home. When we got home she barely made it to the couch before she lost it again. She fell asleep shortly after that. I ordered some Chinese food for both of us; she could heat it up when she woke up. I put on Bones season 1 to watch as she slept. When I was about half-way through my third episode she woke up.
"Hey sweetheart. Are you hungry?" I asked her.
"Yeah." She said. She looked dead. I really hope I wouldn't have to kill Jasper.
"Ok, let me get it for you." I got her food and when she was done I cleaned it up too. About an hour later she needed to talk. I knew that if she didn't she would keep it in forever and never tell me.
"Alice, what happened?" I asked as softly as I could.
She looked at the floor while she talked to me.
"Well, I thought I was ready. I thought I could handle it, I mean I had never felt more at home then when I looked into his eyes. I was so scared to walk in there, but as soon as I looked into his eyes I felt at home, I knew I could do anything with him at my side. We hit it off so well. We are perfect for each other. We just talked. He said he really likes me, and I told him I really like him too, but that I wasn't sure that he would want to stick around for me, I have a lot of baggage. And he took my hand so sweetly and said when ever you are ready I will be here, and then he leaned and kissed me on the cheek. I was doing fine until then, even the hand holding didn't do anything, but as soon as his lips touched my cheek I lost it, everything came back, all the memories. I couldn't hold it in, I was so scared. And you weren't there. I had to get a ride, I was so embarrassed, but still so scared. But Jasper was so sweet; he tried to comfort me without touching me." By the end she was looking into my eyes, begging me to understand. I did; I understood completely.
"Alice, I want you to look me in the eyes, when I tell you this. I know that this is hard for you to hear. But you did nothing wrong. What happened between you and Mike is in the past. I saw the way you looked at Jasper, he is the one for you Alice, and because he told you he would wait as long as possible, start out slow. You can't let your fear get in front of you this time. This time you are going to get something good. You said when you held his hand it didn't do anything, maybe just start out with that, maybe some phone calls. And if you want to go hang out, I can be in the same area and will be there in a heartbeat. Honey, you need this, remember what you said this morning, this might actually be good for you; well, it will be good for you. We are going to get you through this. Okay?" By this point she was crying again. I was too. But I got through it.
"Bella, what in the world did I do to deserve you? I love you. You are exactly right. Can I call Jasper now?" She asked as if I was her mom.
"Alice, I'm not your mom, you can call him. But make sure you are ready to talk to him. Don't rush it if you aren't ready." I told her as I gave her a hug.
"I think I will call Jasper. Just to tell him I'm sorry and tell him what happened to me. And our little plan." She smiled, not a fake smile, or half a smile, a real smile. I haven't seen that in years.
I decided to check my phone. I had a missed call from Edward; I guess he called when Alice and I were talking. I decided if Alice had her phone time, I could have some too.
"Hello?" He sounded out of breath.
"Hi Edward." I said cheerfully
"Oh, hey Bella, what's up?" He asked as if he didn't know why I was calling.
"I was just returning your call." I said a little confused.
"Oh, yeah that call. I was just checking in with you making sure Alice was alright." He said, and it sounded genuine.
"Oh, well she is a lot better now. She just hasn't had the best experience in relationships and so trying to get back into one is a little scary for her." I told him the truth. That was weird, I usually don't do that.
"Oh, my. Well, I hope everything works out okay. Jasper is crazy about her. He wouldn't shut up about how stupid he is, and how he should have never tried to kiss her cheek. To be honest it was getting kind of annoying." He told me, it was so cute. Honestly I don't know how I ever had the idea that this guy could be a stalker. I was instantly drawn to him. Man, I wanted him to moan my name, whoa Bella! Slow down there girl.
"Bella?" he called taking out of my thoughts.
"Hmm... yeah? Oh, sorry I was day dreaming." I said while blushing, but he would never know that.
"Care to share?" he asked. And I blushed even more.
"Nope."
"Please?"
"No way!"
"Come on...Can I know part of it?" I wanted to giggle aloud at how cute that was. The picture of Edward begging made me have to control my giggles even more. Oh, come on Bella you can tell him. Nope, you really can't.
"No, its too embarrassing." I told him, while I blushed again.
"Bella, if I tell you something embarrassing will you tell me?" he asked.
"That depends on how embarrassing it is, and if I think it matches up to mine."
"Well, my ex-girlfriend cheated on me-"
"Ha, that's not embarrassing, that's just mean." I told him.
"I wasn't finished. As I said, my ex-girlfriend cheated on me, but didn't want to break up because I was great at advice and she 'loved' me but I apparently suck at sex." He told me. I almost had a heat-attack, that's the same thing Jake did to me. I battled myself, conflicted if I should tell him my story. Yes, Bella tell him. He won't feel so embarrassed about it, and you won't have to tell him what you were day dreaming about.
"That's why my ex-boyfriend and I split up." I said really quietly.
"Are you serious?" he asked me in a shocked tone.
"Yeah, I haven't dated anyone since then, and that was about three or four years ago." I told him still a little bit embarrassed about it, even thought I knew I shouldn't have. But, he had gone through the same thing.
"Bella, are you still embarrassed by it?" he asked but he didn't ask to know, he asked to make sure I was ok, at least that's the vibe I got.
"Yes and no. I mean, it broke me, but I learned how to live with it. Alice always told me that 'someday the right guy is going to come along and he is going to love the way you make love to him, he won't be able to get enough of you.' And so, that's what I have lived by for a long time. And I haven't ever really thought about dating since then." I told him, I was surprising myself. I had never admitted any of this to anyone.
"Its okay I understand. When it happened to me, I packed all of Tanya's stuff, changed the locks and never heard from her again. It was like she was expecting me to do something like that, and that she was just waiting for it to happen. It broke me too. I didn't talk to girls anymore, I finished law school and then came back here hoping for a new start. I have never talked about this with anyone." He admitted to me. Wow, was this real love? I can't believe that I'm spilling my life story to a guy I hardly know. But I feel as if I have known him my whole life. As if I was missing a piece of my life but didn't know it, now I am whole.
"I haven't told anyone about Jacob except Alice and Emmett." I told him.
"Who is Emmett?"
"He is my big brother, but he is more like my best friend who annoys the hell out of me." I laughed as I told him. And then my phone started to beep in my ear. "Speak of the devil and he shall appear. Hey Edward I better take this, its Emmett, I can call you tomorrow if you would like?" Oh, please say yes…
"I would like that a lot Bella. Have fun talking to your brother and sweet dreams." He said so sweet I wanted to cry.
"Okeydokey, I will call you tomorrow. Thanks I will. You too, Edward. Bye."
"Bye."
"Hey Em." I said cheerfully.
"Hey little sis. What's shakn'?" he sounded like there was something he had to tell me.
"Oh, nothing, I went to the store, signed the papers for the apartment we wanted, watched Bones. Nothing big." I sighed.
"Whoa back up there little one, you got the apartment?"
"You bet we did." I nearly screamed with excitement.
"Oh, I'm so happy for you. But I think there is something you aren't telling me." He was so good.
"So, Alice and I had to go sign the papers, but it was a man who owned it, and she did it Emmett, she went and she talked to the guy, in fact there was two guys in the room. She is going to marry the owner of our apartment. I swear! We had a little trouble but we got over it. She is on the phone with him right now. At least she was, do you want to talk to her?" I was so proud of Alice, she didn't even know.
"Oh, really? She did it, Bells? Really truly did it? You aren't pulling my leg, are you?" He asked starting to sound pissed off.
"No, Emmett I'm not kidding, she did it. Really she did it. And she found the guy she is going to marry, and I found mine." SHOOT! Oh, I really shouldn't have said that. Man, oh man please say you didn't hear that.
"Well, I'm really proud of her, and of course I would love to talk to her, after you tell me about this guy that you are going to marry, and after I tell you about the girl I'm going to marry." He was chuckling, but after Edward's chuckling it didn't hold the same to me.
"Okay fine. But you first." I practically yelled at him.
"Okay, Okay slow down. I was already going to tell you about her. Her name is Rosalie, she is tall and blonde. Model quality. She is also very funny and sarcastic, but also kind and generous. She knocks me off my feet, but keeps me grounded. I think I'm smitten!"
"Well, Emmett I think you just found the one. I'm not even fooling around with you. She seems like your other half. " I told him honestly.
"Thanks Bells, it means a lot to me that from the little I just told you about her was enough for you to give her a chance." He sounded so touched that I would just give her a chance "Now its your turn Bella. Spill about this guy that you are going to marry."
"Well, his name is Edward Cullen, he just graduated from Harvard Law and he was born in Forks. Can you believe it? He has the most amazing bronze colored hard and these amazingly beautiful emerald green eyes. He has the perfect voice I could swear he has to sing or something. And then when we met, there was just this pull, I don't know what it was, but it was just something there. We are the right people for each other. It was like I was missing a piece of my heart and I didn't know it, and now I'm whole." I just spilled everything to him, I hadn't said those words out loud and it felt good to confess them even if it was just to Emmett.
"Wow. My little sister is growing up and finding a new man in her life." He sounded like he was going to cry. Ever since our Dad died and our mom walked out on us, I have always called Emmett the only man in my life. And he was for along time, he has been there for me through everything.
"Hell-oo Bella?" Emmett was chanting.
"Oh, sorry."
"I said are we still on for tomorrow night?" He was getting irritated.
"Of course, its my night to cook." I said happily how could he think I would forget that.
"Good. Now can I talk to Alice?" He sounded excited.
"Yeah, sure. Let me go get her hold on." I said getting up and walking to Alice's room
I put my hand to knock, but stopped. I heard giggling. Oh, my gosh.
"Emmett are you still there?" I whispered
"Yeah? Why are we whispering?" he whispered back at me.
"Listen to this." I held the phone to Alice's door, to where the giggling was coming from.
"Oh my gosh, are you seriously shitting me?" I heard him yell. "She really has found him hasn't she?" He said as I pulled the phone back.
"Yes, she really has. And guess who it is?" This was going to crack Emmett up. He always made fun of her for having a crush on Jasper.
"Who?" He was so confused.
"Its Jasper Whitlock, the guy that was engaged to the Queen of England." I giggled.
"Oh my gosh, it isn't... No, come on, you mean she was actually right? All those years of teasing and now I have to thank the guy. My ego is shot to hell." The way he said it made him say that he wasn't really all concerned.
"Okay, I'm going to give the phone to Alice now. I will see you tomorrow. I love you." I told him.
"Okay, sounds good. I love you too Bells."
I barged in Alice's room, in an Alice fashion.
"Excuse me, but there is a very large big brother on the phone and he would like to talk to you."
"AHHH!!!" She screamed. Nice, payback for all the times she did that to me. I fell on the floor cracking up, I had tears streaming down my face, I was clutching my side and I couldn't breathe. Her face was priceless.
"Alice….Your…….Face….." And then when I choked that out it started a whole new round of laughter.
"HELLOOOOOO!" I heard Emmet scream in to the phone.
"Alice. Take the phone. I'm too out of breath to talk." I said breathlessly.
"Hey Emmett." Alice said cheerfully.
"No, she decided to do it to me, what I do to her all the time. Barge in unexpectedly."
"Apparently my face was priceless." She sounded annoyed.
With that, I knew it was time for me to leave the room.
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A/N:
So, This one is a bit longer than the others.
Hopefully everyone is enjoying it. It was orignally going to be all about Alice and Bella, but as I got into it, it turned into a Bell and Edward story. So, sorry for all the confusion.
Let me know what you think! Please?
Also, if you have any ideas about where you would like this story to go, I welcome it. =)
Thanks for reading.