I pushed my way through the crowed that was gathering around the stage and blocking the stairs. Being rough with these fan girls was the only way to be. I pushed on extra hard and she gave a murderous stare but once again looks can kill and mine cause fear because of recognition, she immediately moved.

"Why the hell did daddy have to let these little brats in?" Rose asked as she gave one girl a death stare. Upon hearing that many of them scattered and a path was instantly cleared.

"Because it's business, an underage band is going to want to be seen by an underage crowd." Alice said as she raced up the stairs leading to VIP section.

"Yeah well they better not fuck with my alcohol consumption." Rose said as she followed Alice. Of course they wouldn't. Though we were branded with the same X on our hands as the other underage people were, we would be able to drink. It was just going to be a little bit harder. Aggie or Bart were just going to have be extra sneaky with getting our drinks, in example my bear was now in a coke can. I climbed up a few steps and glanced around the floor one more time looking for Jacob who wasn't allowed in the VIP because I didn't put his name on the list to get a gold band like the rest of us. His friend Embry Call was in the band, but I didn't see him, though I did see someone I did not want to see. Leah Clearwater, Sue's daughter who was bitch just like her mother. I turned abruptly and headed up the steps. I knew why she was here of course, her mother little minion, to make sure I didn't make a scene that would be bad for my father. I slid into the booth without looking and noticed quickly that once again I was stuck next to Edward. I pulled a cigarette out of my cropped leather jackets pocket and lit it.

"This shit is crazy!" I said and took a sip of my beer.

"I don't even think their that good, I mean they have potential but they just haven't discovered it." Jasper said but he was busy staring in Alice's eyes so he didn't look at us. It made me wish that Edward would just turn around and look at me like that, so I could know if this was real that he was really back, really sitting next to me, really loving me.

"Yep, you know how it is though, a guy from your school is in a band, it just makes them so cool, so then you have to follow all your little girlfriends and be obsessed with them also. I bet half those girls don't even appreciate what their doing up there." Edward said surprising me, but only a little, he had always been passionate about music, seeing it as the most amazing art form ever. I smiled at him even though I really didn't want to. I had decided earlier it would be worth some effort to punish him, but not that much where he didn't think I didn't love him anymore, I would never want that. It would be good for him though to not get me back so easily, to really feel the effect of what he did to me, so hopefully he wouldn't go all self sacrificing again. Of course though I had to accept that what he had tried to do was in my best interest, at least in his mind. For me though it was the worst possible thing.

"BELLS!" the sound of my voice being screamed shook me out of my mental monologue. I glanced around quickly and saw Alice pointing down in front of me where my phone was going buzz crazy. I picked it up and unlocked it quickly to see I was just receiving a next text from Jake of course. I quickly opened it.

OK miss big shot, where the hell are you ? You better not of flaked and not completely ditched me for Cullen.

I stood up grabbing Edwards hand as I did and towed him with me to look over the railing down onto the main floor. That's when I saw Jacob, he wasn't looking up at us thankfully. He was surrounded by his friends Quil, Jared and Paul and Seth Clearwater, who was actually a pretty damn cool kid he must of got the good genes, and Leah standing with them a little bit awkwardly, this wasn't her scene and she knew it.

"What are you looking for Bells and did you have to almost break my hand?" Edward asked and I shot him a look of death. There was no possible way I could ever be strong enough to even possibly do a little bit of damage to him. Then I turned back down to the floor and he followed my gaze. "Oh." He said simply. Then I grabbed his hand and again and began to head for the stairs.

"Where we going love? I left my beer at the table can we stop and get it." I ignored him and kept towing. "Were not going to see Jacob are we Bella, you and I both know that wont go over well." I stopped and turned and looked at him with a devilish smile.

"That is exactly where we are going, and you two are going to play nice or suffer the consequences." I said and turned back around knowing he would follow, he would never disobey a wish of mine.

EPOV

Obviously Bella had never let go of her aspirations for me and Jake to get along, even though she knew it had no shot in hell to happen. I followed her down the stairs and watched as the crowd parted for us. Jacob Black was a person I understood, well only a little. I understood his desire to do anything to make Bella smile, but unlike me, his desire only went so far. His mouth was the thing that usually got him into trouble with her. He rarely ever though before he spoke or acted. He was very unaware of personal space and was very jealous. Of couse was I. I used to despise the kid for being something that could make her smile. Their relationship was a little different from the one she had with Emmett and Jasper. From the story I had heard, where they had failed to make Bella live again after I had left, Jake had helped Alice and Rose revive her. I also knew that had to leave a mark on the them and that frigthned me, because that meant if Jacob caused any fights and felt extra protective over her than normal, it was all because I was a fuck up. It was like tunnel vision as we approached him and his group. We came to halt, Bella squeezed my hand as if to reassure me.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Jacob shot. It seemed he had grown up the year I was gone, grown up a lot. His hair was no longer long it was cut very short and he wore it spiky, he was amazingly a little taller than me. I opened my mouth to answer but closed it when I realized I had nothing to say. What was I doing here anyway? Causing more pain for the person I loved more than myself?

"He is here with me!" I smiled down at her. She was always standing up for me to him.

"So your back for good huh, didn't leave things messed up enough, come back to cause some more pain?"

"Yes, I am back, but fucking up isnt in my plans Jacob, I fully prepared to grovel if that's what she wants." I sneered back at him. He always brought out the smart ass in me.

"Jacob shut the fuck up," then she turned to me, "You do have some groveling to do, you can start by atleast trying to make nice with Jacob!"

"No way in fucking hell am I making nice with that Fucktard! You shouldn't even be talking to him after what he did to you!" Jacob screamed at her. I instinctivily stepped in front of her. " Oh give it up I'm not going to hurt her, that's your job." I heard a sniffle from behind me then her voice. "Fuck you Jacob." Then she turned and fled.

"Seems your taking my old job." I said and turned and followed Bella. I followed her to our table which was vacant. The rest of them were probably at the bar throwing away lots of money to get 5 dollor beer. She grabbed her bag from under the table.

" I want to go home."

"I'll walk you."

"You better." She smiled at me, grabbed my hand and we headed out.

BPOV

The street was alive. That's how I liked it anyway, quiet towns were never the place for me. I needed adventure, I needed the noise, I needed the boy who lived in the apartment downstairs from me. I inhaled the sweet cold air in my lungs and fell into his marble body. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders and kissed my head. I missed this, but I wasn't going back to it, not yet.

"You should of listened to him." I heard him whisper.

"Cut the noble act, Edward. Jacob has no idea about us, okay."

"Us?"

"Whatever we are right now, whatever we will become."

" I see."

"Your not forgiven yet."

"I know. I missed this." I turned to look at his face, his eyes seemed distant as if they were rembering something far away which I was sure they were.

"What?" I asked, I wanted to know everything he missed, everything he thought and dreamed.

"The city, the upper east side bitches and the girls who refused to go by their rules and some how became Queens, and the lost girl that I left bleeding." I ducked my head into his shoulder trying to not cry. He was right. I was lost, once was found but then disappeared again. My heart was reviving itself though. With everystep I took with the amazingly beautiful boy next to me, I was learning how to breathe correctly again. He was lost too. I knew that he was just as lost as I was in the seperation.

" I missed my lost boy." I whispered. Because the truth was Edward was as lost as me, maybe even worse, which I never thought possible.