Chapter Three. All I own in this world is my smut.
And of course, a thank you to my darling beta, The-Missing-Paige :3
It is morning and she lies in my arms. Her mouth, slightly ajar. She emits soft snores as I twirl a bit of her hair around my finger. In my arms is where she belongs, honestly. Every time I imagine her waking up next to Lucius I am nearly ill. I imagine him having his way with her...
But worse yet, I imagine her enjoying it.
Sexuality is confusing, and the more I try to sort it out, the more muddled it gets. I never had too much of a preference though. Besides Cissy. If she wasn't an option then it was whatever pure blood who had a pulse. Male, female, didn't matter. But Cissy, my moon, shines brighter than the rest. Everyone else pales in comparison. Rodolphus might even be tolerable if there was no Cissy to compare him to. But she is my addiction.
I remember how on the evening of our wedding Rodolphus had asked to consummate our marriage, and I refused. He accused me of fancying Narcissa. Said he thought it was just because we weren't married that I wouldn't lie with him, but he said he noticed theway I looked at her. He said he couldn't place the look in my eyes as I glanced past him at our wedding. He said he should've known that I ) was looking at Narcissa. Undressing her with my eyes. He said he could almost feel the way I lusted after her.
All at once anger infiltrated all of my senses and before another word could leave his foul-smelling mouth my wand was out and he had dropped his in the process of disarming me.
"I'll kill you, Rodolphus. Right here, and think nothing of it. You should bloody thank me, you know. What could I possibly have gained from marrying you? My parents house alone is worth more gold than all your assets put together, better yet, I have more gold in my name alone than you or anyone in your family has ever accumulated. You're fat, balding, and to be quite frank with you, there's nothing that disgusts me more than your aging body."
My wand stayed pointed at his head. He stared at me. Trying to figure out what parts of my statement were true.
They all were.
He opened his mouth to speak, but a thrust of my wand knocked him off his feet. I advanced towards him, picking up his wand in the process.
In a flash I was up against him, his breath ragged, our faces nearly touching.
"We won't be consummating anything. However, we can and will fuck, but only when I please. And you will only touch me when and where I say, is that understood?" He stared at me, with that stupid perplexed expression he wears.
I shifted my hips forward so that I was sitting on his lap, facing him. I felt him harden under me. "Patience, Rudolphus, I asked you a question." I remember smiling as I jabbed my wand into his neck.
"Ye-yes, Bellatrix."
"Good."
I begin to undo his trousers. Hovering my hand just over his member I glanced up at him.
"And Rodolphus dear?"
His flushed face looked at me with both perplexity and eagerness.
I grabbed his exposed anatomy as hard as I could. My smile widening as he let out a frightened squeak.
"I don't ever want to hear Narcissa's name come out of your mouth again, because I promise I won't be nearly as pleasant."
He nodded vigorously as I released him.
"Great, now you can watch me as I get myself off. You're free to do as you like during, but for God's sake Rodolphus, don't make a bloody sound."
And as Narcissa begins to stir in my arms I realize I could never love Rodolphus, or any man, or even any woman.
Narcissa is my moon. And my sun. My beginning and my end. My eternity.