hey so i know this chapter is a little short. but the next chapter will be longer i promise ok thanks.

Chapter 2

Three weeks later

"Kurt, Kurt I had to see you before you found out its Artie" said Rachel. "What about Artie? Rachel what's wrong?" said Kurt. "Oh Kurt it's terrible Artie is dead" said Rachel. Sobbing and leaning into Kurt. "What? how? When?" said Kurt. "He got in a car crash yesterday, he was killed instantly" Rachel said. She was crying uncontrollably. She and Artie had grown close over the last weeks. I knew this was a day I would remember forever. Artie was so special all of us. Now he was gone. He would never hear him sing again. Never try to give him a makeover again. He was gone forever.

"I can't believe he is gone-e-e-e-e" Tina said. She was also sobbing and she and Rachel were crying into each other shoulders. Mercedes was still in shock she just sat there staring into space. "Mercedes are you ok?" Kurt asked. "No" said Mercedes. "Oh ok do want to talk about it?" said Kurt. "No Kurt thankyou I just need to be alone" said Mercedes. "I can't believe he gone Kurt "said Rachel. "Yes I know Rachel you'll be ok we will all be ok. Artie wouldn't want us to be sad forever. Let's just get through this together. Starting with his funeral next week" Kurt said. They all knew he was right but it didn't help the empty feeling inside.

The funeral was really moving everyone getting up and talking about Artie. How strong he was how much he meant to everyone. It was really sad. Kurt didn't want it to be true, it wasn't true. He couldn't hold it in much longer. He had to get out of this room out of this place. He ran. Rachel saw she ran after him. "Kurt wait up don't run away stop please" said Rachel. Kurt fell to his knees. "Kurt it's all right you'll be all right. I'm here now" said Rachel said she dropped to her knees to Kurt eyes. They were full of misery and terror. "It reminds you of your mum doesn't it? Kurt you're going to be ok I am here if need me" Rachel said "I don't need anyone go away Rachel you don't understand no one does" Kurt said. His eye sparked with anger. "Then help me understand Kurt. Help me understand" Rachel said. "No I hate you I hate all of you just leave me alone Rachel" Kurt said. "Ok Kurt if that's what you want" Rachel said. But Kurt had already gone.

He felt black everywhere as if no matter how hard he tried to keep it out. The misery creep back in. why did Rachel try to help? All she did was make it feel worse and have her feelings hurt. Not that it matters she deserved it bringing up his mum. Mum it still felt like someone slashed his heart ripped it out and now stepped on it. He had to escape this feeling and he knew just who would help him.

"Hey hot stuff" said Adam. "Hey" said Kurt. He couldn't believe he was doing this. "I got the fake id for you" said Adam. "Oh don't you need one" said Kurt "nope 21 last year don't you remember? I suppose you don't remember we haven't seen each other in years. Now I get call from a much older much hotter Kurt saying he wanted to get wild. I couldn't refuse I needed to continue by baby sitting right" said Adam. Adam made Kurt feel uneasy, sexy and wrong all at the same time. He used to babysit him when he was younger. Now he was taking him out on the town. "So Kurt are you ready get to wild" Adam said "yeah I am" said Kurt.

Adam showed him everything alcohol, cocaine, kisses it was so erotic. Yet wrong the blackness came back. For seconds it would leave and then creep back in. "want to try ice" said Adam. "Yes" said Kurt. The high was epic all the pain went away. Nothing felt as if mattered and it didn't. "Party's rock Adam why haven't I done this before" Kurt said. "Feel better" Adam said. "Yeah best party ever" said Kurt. "Yes" Adam laughed.

They went out again and again. Kurt kept blacking out. He couldn't remember where he went or did and it was great. He stopped going to school. It gave him more time think and drink. Adam made him feel better. "Hey Kurt ready to stop" Adam said. "Baby I need more" said Kurt. "Ok don't getting addicted ok, here" Adam said. He passed over a small bag of cocaine. "Yes oh all better" said Kurt. "You're craving it soon you be addicted if you aren't all ready" said Adam. "I don't care I just want it and you" said Kurt. "Yeah ok slow down the making out was hot. But it was drugs I'm not attracted to you I'm straight. Let's get you home before something bad happens" said Adam.

Every night was haze the only real memory he had left it was that memory. Adam didn't like him whatever. I will just out by myself. Ugh my head hurts I want to this to be over.

"Mercedes I'm worried about Kurt we need to talk to him"' Rachel said. "Yeah I know he stopped going to school and sends drunks messages to me" said Mercedes. "We will go to his house and talk to him but first how is grease" said Rachel. "I pulled out and then they cancelled the show I need to be there for Kurt. Also I'm a bit shaken up to I guess" said Mercedes. "Yeah I know the feeling. I can't sleep" Rachel said. "If we were ever in trouble Kurt wouldn't give up on us so we won't give up on him" Mercedes said.

"Kurt, Kurt I don't know what going on in your head and I know you said to go away. But will you please talk to me" said Rachel. "No Rachel I'm fine" said Kurt. "No you're not" Mercedes said. They had snuck in his house to check up on him. "Kurt you have stopped going to school. you don't talk to us. You look stoned and hung-over. But you're fine. No Kurt talk to us" Rachel said. "No I told you go away I don't ever want to see you again go away please" Kurt said. Kurt started crying. "Never were your friends and were not going anywhere" said Mercedes. "We will be back soon Kurt" Rachel said. They didn't understand anything no one did. He wanted to just die nothing to live for now. His life was a mess he pushed away his friends and dad. He drank the troubles away. Stopped going to school. And Adam happened.

Adam, Kurt hated himself most of all of that. Now not only was he dealing with his original shit. Now he has a kind of breakup as well. Ugh he was so stupid believing Adam liked him. Who was he kidding? No one loved him. He was going to be alone forever. No one cared except maybe Rachel, Tina and Mercedes.

"I miss Kurt" Tina said. "Yeah I know it's not the same without him" Rachel said. "Yeah we will get him back" said Mercedes. "But how?" said Tina. "I don't know we will come up with a plan" Mercedes said. "Yeah I know we will" said Rachel. "I know keep holding on" said Tina. "Yes" said Rachel. "perfect" said Mercedes.

Two weeks later

The girls came back again and again every day, twice a day sometimes. It helped a bit it took a while but after two weeks of nagging he went back to school. "Ok this week we welcome back Kurt and well Tina Rachel and I put this together for you" Mercedes said.

You're not alone together we stand. I'll be your side you I'll take your hand …

Kurt was in tears maybe they wound get through this together. We realized how much he needed them so badly. "Thankyou girls for not giving up on me" Kurt Said. "Kurt we love you I can't we can't stand to see you like this even now. You're here but you're not here. I don't know what to do Kurt. We barely understand what's going with you" said Rachel. "When my mum died it felt like world was ending. That I couldn't breathe anymore. When Artie died that feeling it came back. Except now that feeling isn't going away, I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't think straight. Then I called Adam and when I'm with him I feel alive. But it doesn't last long" said Kurt. "Kurt are you taking drugs?" Mercedes asked. "Yeah I am and at first it fun was but now I feel on edge like I need them. All the time and I feel stupid. Why did I take them now I can't stop.

"Like the song Kurt you're not alone" Tina said. "You didn't stutter" said Kurt. "It went after Artie's funeral" said Tina crying again. "It's ok Kurt we're here for you" Rachel said. "Thankyou, But this is going to be the hardest thing I will ever do. You shouldn't be dragged down by me" Kurt said "Never Kurt we want to help you no matter if you push us away or fight. We are here to stay" Rachel said. "Yeah" Mercedes said. Kurt cried then it let all out didn't hide it the heartbreak the misery the remorse. Everything but it didn't help it was still there and singing and caring wasn't going to get rid of it.