A/N: Here's part two. I will start the requests soon. Still takeing requests R&R

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So many thoughts that I can't get out of my head
I try to live without you, every time I do I feel dead
I know what's best for me
But I want you instead
I'll keep on wasting all my time

" Jeff..Stop....This is wrong your my brother. Jeff stop." I said pushing Jeff back alittle to hard. Jeff hit the foot board of the bed. His hand went to his shoulder which hit the foot board hard. " Fuck..I'm sorry Jeff are you okay?" I leaned forward but Jeff jumped up.

" Fuck you Matt." Jeff mumbled. He had tears streaming for his large green eyes. I ran after Jeff as he ran out of the house. Jeff stopped in the middle of our yard.

" Jeff..Please let's go inside. Come on it's raining." I said standing behind him.

" I thought you liked me Matty....Tell me you don't like me that way. If you say it I will leave you alone." Jeff shouted tears streaming down his cheeks. That broke my heart.

I couldn't't. There was no way I could say it. And god, I am so stressed right now. My other hand rose to my hair to join the other one and I just turned away from him, both hands tangled in my hair, and trying not to show just how confused and panicked I was. I was failing of course.

"Matty..?"

Jeff 's voice was softer now, and he sounded worried. I hated it when he sounded worried. It made me feel guilty. I opened my mouth to reassuring him but nothing came out. I didn't trust my voice not to betray me.

I heard him behind me, and a moment later Jeff's hand settled on my shoulder. "Matty?" He said again. "Talk to me..I'm sorry?" He tugged gently at my shoulder until I turned to face him, still keeping my gaze downcast. I couldn't let him know… I couldn't ruin both of our lives.

My brother's hand floated up to touched my face. At first it was just the tips of his fingers, ghosting over my skin, but then he pressed his palm to my cheek fully. It felt so soft and cold and startlingly wonderful. He carefully coaxed my into raising my head. Defensively, I closed my eyes. I still wouldn't look at him.

His thumb brushed against the soft skin just beneath my left eye and he said, "Why won't you look at me? Matty..? Please open your eyes…"

How could I deny him that? I couldn't. Slowly, I let my eyes drift open. They felt wet and the stung when the cold air hit them, but I didn't cry. My stomach hurt with the fluttering as my gaze finally settled on Jeff's face again. It was dark so I couldn't see him properly but I could just make out each of his features… and his eyes. They sparkled too, like I guessed mine probably were. He was standing so close. I could feel the toes pressing against my own. He still had one hand on my shoulder..

I'd worried about my voice betraying my thoughts. I'd completely forgotten about my body.

I leaned forward, only a little, placing one hand on Jeff's hip and the other on his waist for support and let my mouth touch his before pulling away a few centimetres. It couldn't really be called a kiss. It was more a tiny little sliver of contact between us that couldn't really have counted as anything. But it did. Jeff stiffened slightly for a moment but didn't say anything.

So I continued.

The next time our lips touched I didn't pull away. I leaned forward further, putting a little more pressure into the kiss than before. A little choked noise issued from the back of Jeff's throat. I tightened my grip on his waist and hip slightly, drawing him closer by a fraction. I felt his mouth open a little against my own and his uttered a tiny little sigh. His breath billowed around us but I barely noticed.

Instead I opened my own mouth a little. No tongues. Just our breath mixing… and that was enough. I felt borderline delirious as the hand on my shoulder drifted to my neck, and then up to the back of my head, tangling with my already messy hair. The slight change in position allowed me to pull him just that little bit closer, until our stomachs and chests were pressed together. I could feel his torso flexing with each breath he took against my mouth.

My tongue flickered against his lips and he opened his mouth a little wider. Jeff couldn't open his mouth, so my tongue just brushed against the wires and elastic bands that held Jeff mouth closed.. My arms slipped around my baby brother's waist, holding him tighter as I inflicted this new sensation on him.

But it had to end eventually. Mere moments later my tongue slid back into my own mouth and I hesitantly broke the kiss. We stood there, arms wrapped around one another, staring at each other.. We were both soaking, and cold and, at least on my part, terrified.

" What now?" Jeff mumbled resting his forehead on my chest.

" We go inside and talk about this. Come on Jeffro." I said grabbing his cold hand.
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It was a hour before we said anything. Jeff had his knees pulled up to his chest and I was in the lazy boy trying to think of something to say.

" Jeff....What do you want to happen between us?" I asked finally looking at my brother.

" I dunno Matty....Do you love me?" Jeff drawled softly.

" I don't want to love you like that Jeff...I don't. I can't get you out of my head, baby brother. All I think about is you, over and over again. I can't get you out of my head....But I wanna be with you. I love you to much not to be with you." I said closeing my eyes. When I opened them, Jeff was standing in front of me. he gently kissed me before he started to talk.

" I love you too Matty."

Over and over, over and over
You make me fall for you
Over and over, over and over
You don't even try to

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