AN: I DON'T OWN AUSTIN AND ALLY OR THIS SONG. ITS KELLY CLARKSONS.
I worry about the future. Will I ever break through the shy and insecure girl I have grown to be? Will people I love leave me? Will I get left behind.
I wouldn't be surprised if they did leave me. I have always been a fan of distance and space. To be honest, I'm scared. People come and go. Its apart of life. I hate the thought of losing someone oh-so close to me. So I distance my self from people. Lonliness is better than pain, is what I have told my slef for years.
But, lately I have been finding myself asking, "But is it?"
And I have been asking myself this question because of a certain freind. Austin Moon.
I try to push him away. I try to distance myself. But, he keeps on coming back.
He makes me laugh and smile. A real smile.
He makes me blush. He thinks it's adorable.
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As I walk down the halls of Miami High, Austin and his best friend, Dez, catch up to me.
"Hey Alls."
"Hey Ally-crackers" Austin and Dez greet.
I mumble a "Hey" back.
"Why do you get so quiet?" Austin asks. "Your seventeen. You're young, your beautiful, your funny, but yet, you get so quiet?
"It's a habit." I mumble hestitantly before I walk away.
Not because it hurt my feelings, but because he had a point.
I have wasted so much of my life waiting, and being distant, and lonely.
/
I run away from Austin, laughing. We are currently playing tag at the local park.
"Try to catch me!" I yell over my shoulder. I run past the trees fluently, dodging all obsticales in my way. I pant as I try to catch my breath from my sprinting. I was doing great at dodging trees and rocks... until now. I tripped over a rock and somehow landed on my back. I saw Austin sprinting, and he obviously didn't notice my fall nor the rock I tripped over. And He was about to trip, too.
"A-Austin! ROCK!" I shout, bracing myself for the impact.
I barely feel weight. I look into his eyes and he looks into mine. His eyes flicker to my lips and stays there. I lick my lips as I look at his. We both lean in and we kiss. It was sweet and passionate.
It was our first kiss.
/
Austin and I walked hand-in-hand into school. Smiles were firmly planted on our faces. He walked me to my classes and kissed me once I got to my class. He would kiss my cheek when he was at my locker. He would give me smiles when we passed each other in the halls. It was all going great.
Until I got to the girl's bathroom.
"Hey Ally." A girl with red hair said while glaring at me
"Hey, girl I don't know." She rolled her eyes.
"Austin and you are wrong for each other. He's outgoing and your... just a freak." She said as she walked out of the bathroom. I ignored it.
But more comments came.
I finally snapped while I was working my shift at Sonic Boom.
A blonde cheerleader walked in and just stared at me for a few moments.
"What does he see in you?"
Silence.
"I mean, boring eyes, dull hair, super pale."
Silence.
"It's all so wrong. I mean, look at you! Now look at him. I am much better suited for hi-"
"Shut. Up." I growl. She looks taken aback. "This is my life. It's my choice on who I date. It's his choice if he wants to date me. I will not allow some stupid blonde bimbo walk in her and tell me it's wrong. Nor what is supposed to be right."I say as calmy as possible. "Now get out of my store." I growl. She obeys and I see Austin smiling at the door way as he watched the bimbo leave.
I smile to.
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Austin, Trish, Dez and I have all been hanging out. We have out team Austin meetings but we also have times when we go to town.
We take pictures when we want to create and remember a moment.
We sing in the car with the radio blasting.
We let the windows down and let wind kiss our skin.
Trish and I go shopping at leaste three times a month. Its our bonding time.
Dez and I go to the zoo to take pictures of animals. I let my crazy side come out with Dez.
Austin takes me on dates, and falls asleep with me on the phone.
If there is one thing I have learned from this bunch, its to make time for the ones you love. The future is NOT garunteed.
/
I sit in my room writing a song. I am performing it.
I will not stop myself from doing it. Chasing my dream.
I am opening Austin's concert.
And im going to give it my all for my friends.
/
I hug Trish and Dez before I go on stage. I kiss Austin's cheek and wait to be called onto the stage.
Once I do, I hear silence. I feel stares. But I can't see them due to the bright lights.
"Hi, guys. I'm Ally Dawson, Austin's songwriter and I am openign his show tonight. Enjoy!" I say and give a bright smile.
I don't wanna be left behind Distance was a friend of mine Catching breath in a web of lies I've spent most of my life Riding waves, playing acrobat Shadowboxing the other half Learning how to react I've spent most of my time
I sing as the music starts. Its a slow tempo at first.
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
It speeds up and I hear people already singing along.
Addicted to the love I found Heavy heart, now a weightless cloud Making time for the ones that count I'll spend the rest of my time Laughing hard with the windows down Leaving footprints all over town Keeping faith kinda comes around I will spent the rest of my life
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
I prepare myself for the bridge.
You helped me see The beauty in everything
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath!
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now (it's all so simple now!)
Catching my breath, letting it go, turning my cheek for the sake of this show Now that you know, this is my life, I won't be told what's supposed to be right
Catch my breath, no one can hold me back, I ain't got time for that Catch my breath, won't let them get me down, it's all so simple now
Once the music stops, I hear a roar of screams and aplause. I smile with tears in my eyes and turn backstage to see Trish crying. I see Dez filming and smiling with a proud glint in his eyes.
I look towards Austin and I see him smiling like a goof with a camera taking pitcures of the perfect moment. I run to my friends and hug all of them.
"Thank you." I whisper. "I love you guys. So freaking much."
And thats when we all break down crying in each others arms. All of us. Together.
And thats how I want it to be.
Forever.
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Hey guys! I HAVE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG.
Sorry if there is not enough Auslly. I wanted to inlcude the gang to! :)
PM Me for suggesions or in the comments!
KEEP ON SMILING! :)