Thanks so much for the wonderful reviews! You guys are awesome!

madambitch – Thanks, I'm kind of a fan of angst, if you couldn't tell! And bitchy Spencer is so much fun to write. As for what Ashley did…all will soon be revealed.

TutorGirl – I get what you mean, and in this fic Ashley did do the hurting, but I don't feel it is as simple as that. I think that both play a part in what went down, but I'd love to get your view once I post the breakup chapters (which have been written!)

DontMindBnCrazy – Glad you like it so far! I really liked letting Spencer's inner bitch out!

LoveAsh87 – Thanks, I really wanted to get people questioning why and I hoped the flashback (there is also one in this chapter) would make you wonder how they went from so happy to so broken. Hope you like where I'm taking this

SALOVE – Thank you! After such positive review I will definitely be continuing this fic.

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What Went Wrong

Chapter Three - Heart Break World

Spencer parked her car and walked slowly towards the doors that would lead to her being face to face with Ashley Davies again. Her feet felt heavier with each and every step. Spencer had not slept much at all the night before, her sleep plagued with dreams of all that had happened between her and Ashley. The memories that she had fought so hard to repress were back full force, haunting her waking and sleeping hours relentlessly. Spencer felt like utter shit. She had been really tempted to call in sick but her pride refused to let her do that. In her mind that would be showing Ashley exactly how badly this was effecting her.

Spencer took a deep breath and walked into the building. She smiled at the bubbly receptionist and made her way into her temporary office to get ready for the day. She was just settling in a chair and taking a mouthful of coffee from her travel mug when Ashley walked in. Both women froze momentarily on seeing each other.

Ashley cleared her throat, not entirely sure how to act after the drama that had unfolded the day before. Spencer felt her heart race at the sight of the brunette, despite everything Ashley could still do that to her. An awkward silence stretched between them until Seth ambled through the door with a beaming smile and a hearty "good morning."

Spencer tore her eyes from Ashley and gave Seth a grin, "Morning Seth."

"Morning," Ashley murmured, her eyes still on Spencer, who was looking everywhere but at the brunette. Seth looked back and forth between the two women, confusion written on his face as the awkwardness continued.

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The rest of the week consisted of Spencer going out of her way to avoid being alone with Ashley to the point of actually hiding out in the bathroom or even ducking behind doors and under desks to avoid the brunette.

Poor Seth was fighting between extreme amusement at Spencer's avoidance techniques and deep sadness at the situation. Lily, with Spencer's permission, had pulled him aside and given him the run down of the history between the two women and Seth felt nothing but sympathy for the blonde. He and Spencer had been working together for a while now and he loved her like a little sister. It killed him to see her so upset and even he could see that she was the epitome of a broken heart. But he also found himself feeling bad for Ashley. It was obvious that she was hurting and felt incredibly guilty for the past. The way she looked at Spencer was enough to break your heart.

Spencer was constantly feeling tense and anxious. Being around Ashley was fucking with her head. There were moments where she almost relaxed; almost let her guard down and it scared her to death. She had barely survived losing Ashley the first time and she knew she would never come back from heartbreak like that a second time.

Despite the way the relationship had ended they had many wonderful memories together, which made it so much harder to be so angry at Ashley. The love that was between them was that once in a lifetime kind of love that you only experience with your soulmate.

[Flashback]

Spencer rolled over in bed and reached out for the familiar warmth of her girlfriend. Finding nothing but cold sheets next to her Spencer rubbed her eyes and sat up, "Ash?" she called out.

"Just stay where you are Spence, please don't come out here!" Ashley called frantically from the kitchen. Spencer tilted her head with confusion and slipped out of bed. She pulled on her robe and wandered out of the bedroom.

"Ashley, what the hell are you doing?" Ashley was standing on a chair mopping the ceiling. She had bits of fruit all through her hair, flour on her face and what looked like pancake batter spilled down her front.

Ashley froze mid-mop and stared wide-eyed at her girlfriend, embarrassment colouring her face a deep scarlet. "Um, ah…I was making breakfast for you?" Ashley said in a small voice.

Spencer tried to hold in her laughter, but quickly gave in and started to giggle uncontrollably. "Oh Baby, that is so sweet!" Spencer, still laughing, walked over to her girl and helped her down off the chair. Taking the mop Spencer tenderly began picking fruit out of Ashley's hair, "Did we forget to put the lid on the blender again?"

Ashley blushed again and buried her face in Spencer's neck muttering, "Maybe."

Spencer chuckled and kissed her girlfriend on the cheek, "God I love you Ash, you really are so sweet to me."

"Yeah don't go telling anyone, I still have my reputation as a bad-ass to uphold!"

"Hate to break it to you Babe, but no one is buying the bad-ass shit from you anymore," Spencer teased.

"They're not? Oh come on I am totally bad-ass!" Ashley insisted.

Spencer smirked at her girlfriend, "ok Ash you are a bad-ass, but you're my bad-ass." Spencer's smile became seductive as she pulled Ashley towards her.

"That I am." Ashley leaned into Spencer and began playing with the ties on her robe. Neither caring that the pancake batter on Ashley's top was now all over Spencer. Spencer lowered her lips to Ashley's and began a slow dance. Ashley undid Spencer's robe and slid it down her arms. She pressed herself completely against the naked body in front of her, moving her lips from Spencer's to attack her neck…

[End Flashback]

Spencer shook her head to try and clear it of the memory. She spent far too much time thinking back on her relationship with Ashley. She sighed and walked back towards the building that housed the record label. It was Monday of the second week of filming. Spencer had ducked out to meet Lily for lunch and a much needed debriefing session.

Spencer smoothed down her charcoal slacks and navy blue shirt before entered the building. Ashley was standing at the reception desk talking to the overly excited receptionist, whose name Spencer had learnt was Carly. Spencer felt a faint stirring of jealousy watching Ashley interact with the bubbly blonde, which freaked her out.

Spencer gave a brief smile and nodded as she went to walk past them. "Spencer wait, Carly if you could please call Franklin and get him to speak to Madison that'd be great." Ashley smiled at the receptionist and walked up to Spencer. "You just get back from lunch?"

Well duh! Spencer thought sarcastically but in the name of being professional bit her tongue, "Yeah I met Lily for lunch."

Ashley ducked her head and bit her lip, "Is Lily your girlfriend?"

Spencer stared at Ashley incredulously, "Not that it's any of your business but no. Lily, as in Lily Zee who I'm sure you remember, is my housemate and friend." Spencer shook her head and began striding down the hall. Ashley hurried behind her before falling into step with the blonde.

"You're right it's none of my business, I'm sorry. Um how is Lily?" Ashley asked tentatively.

Spencer sighed, "She's good, still working at MTV actually. She is a special events executive producer now. She produces things like the MTV awards and stuff like that."

"That's good to hear. She's talented and deserves the success. It's nice you guys are still friends," Ashley said with a small smile.

"Yeah she's been a good friend to me. We worked together in New York before we both got offered jobs back here. They moved Lily's whole department back here, I just got offered a better job."

"You were in New York? I thought you went to Ohio after…" Ashley trailed off as Spencer narrowed her eyes as a scowl formed on her lips. For a moment they'd been able to have a normal conversation, for a second Spencer had forgotten why she was so angry at Ashley.

Spencer smiled sarcastically and snapped, "Oh I did go to Ohio, I quit my job, left my life and ran as far away from you as I could. I lived with my Dad's sister Tamara and her family for three months while I tried to get over what you did to me. Finally I got a call from Lily with an offer too good to refuse. I packed my bags and moved to New York where I lived for about a yeah and a half. I moved back to L.A. three months ago for a job. There you have all the fucking details now, are we done?" Without waiting for an answer Spencer stormed off and slammed the door of her temporary office behind her.

Why can't I ever keep my fucking mouth shut! Ashley thought as she stared at the door Spencer had disappeared through. She considered following the enraged blonde, but valued her life too much. Ashley walked into her office, eager to drown herself in work to try and not think about the gorgeous blonde who was haunting her.

The following morning Spencer dashed through the doors to the record label, running late, which wasn't surprising seeing as she had gotten no more than two hours sleep the night before. "Hi Carly," she called as she raced down the hall towards her office. She was just rounding the corner when she ran straight into someone, and as fate and luck would have it that someone was of course Ashley.

"Omph," Ashley grunted as she fell backwards, with Spencer landing on top of her and almost winding her.

"Fuck! Shit I'm sorry," Spencer said, jumping off Ashley like she'd been burned.

"No it's ok, that corner is notorious for collisions," Ashley said getting to her feet. God even all flustered she lots stunning, Ashley though to herself. Spencer was wearing a knee length flowing dark purple skirt and a white tank top. A black blazer was draped over her arm and she had black, peep-toe heels on her feet.

"I'll be more careful next time. You ok?" Spencer asked.

"Yeah I'm fine, what about you?" Spencer nodded that she was ok and then started to walk past Ashley to get to her office.

"Spencer?"

"What?"

"Um…I just wanted to know what time we were meeting today?" Ashley asked quietly.

"I have it down for 10 but I'm flexible," Spencer said as she glanced at her blackberry.

"That's fine, I'll see you then I guess?" Spencer nodded and continued to her office.

Ashley watched her go, a look of intense sadness on her face.

"Well I see things haven't gotten any better," a familiar voice said behind her.

"No they haven't, she still hates me not that I blame her," Ashley turned around, "What are you doing here Ky?"

Kyla crossed her arms and leaned against the wall, "Well two things, one I was worried about you and two I kind of want to see Spencer. We've kept in touch but I haven't seen her since she moved back to L.A."

"You kept in touch with her and didn't tell me? Thanks a lot Ky!" Ashley snapped.

"Hey she's my friend and that doesn't change despite what happened between the two of you. I didn't tell you at first because I was angry at you for what you did and also Spencer asked me not to, and then I didn't want to make you hurt any more than you already were so I kept it to myself." Kyla put her hand on Ashley's arm and smiled at her older sister.

Ashley sighed, "Yeah ok I get it. I just wish you'd told me."

Before Kyla could reply Spencer walked out of her and Seth's office. She stopped dead when she saw the younger Davies sister. "Ky! Wow you look fantastic," Spencer said with a warm smile. Ashley hated that Spencer couldn't smile at her like that anymore.

"Hi Spence, you look amazing too! A little pale, but the lovely L.A. sun will help with that!" Spencer and Kyla giggled and Kyla pulled the blonde into a warm hug.

"Yeah the New York weather was not as good for tanning I'm afraid and I've been so busy since I moved back. But enough about that, how's everything and how's your man?" Spencer asked with a grin.

"Aiden is great, working a lot but he is really loving that job. Thank you so much for recommending him for it, he is so much happier now." Wait what? Spencer got Aiden his job? Has everybody been talking to my ex behind my back? Ashley though as she watched the two women interact.

"That's great, I knew he would be perfect for it! But what about you? My Dad working you too hard yet?" Hold up, Kyla is working with Arthur? Why the fuck didn't I know that? Ashley thought as she glanced at Kyla.

"You know your Dad Spence, he is so passionate and he expects a lot. He has been awesome to me actually, great boss to have," Kyla looked guiltily at Ashley, she had neglected to tell Ashley that her boss was in fact Mr. Carlin.

"Yeah the counselling centre is his pride and joy. The day he took over as manager he told me he knew he could make a real difference. Hey I'd love to chat more but I have heaps to do. We should catch up soon, here I'll give you my card. It has my home number on the back." Spencer handed over a business card, gave Kyla a huge grin and Ashley a brief, tight lipped smile, and walked off.

Ashley turned to Kyla who was looking a tad guilty, "Well I guess 'staying in touch' means going to work with my ex-girlfriend's Dad and her getting your fiancé a job. Anything else you wanna tell me?"

"I should have told you, but I hated seeing you so sad so I didn't want to bring up anything linked to Spencer. I saw what it did to you whenever something reminded you of her. I didn't want to hurt you but I also didn't want to lose Spencer from my life. She has been a great friend to me and Aiden and I won't apologise for that.

You know I flew out to Ohio to see her after she left, I told you that. We just got closer from there. I told her how unfulfilled I felt and she got her Dad to come and see me. Arthur offered me a job at the counselling centre that included heaps of training and I jumped at it. Hell he is the one who is helping me do that social work course part-time. I wanted to tell you it was Arthur who was helping me but I guess I wasn't sure how you'd react." Kyla put an arm around Ashley shoulder and pulled her into a hug.

"It's ok Ky, I understand. God this is all so hard! I hate this, the way things are between me and Spencer and I know I've got no one to blame but myself. It's just a fucking nightmare and it's killing me," Ashley cried against Kyla's shoulder.

"I know Ash, and trust me when I say this is hard for everyone involved, especially Spencer. I talked to Lily and she told me that Spencer is really struggling with all this. I think you just need to be understanding of the fact that you broke the girl's heart," Kyla said all this softly, no hint of accusation in her voice.

"I know and I would give everything I have to take it back. I will spend the rest of my life hating myself for what I did," Ashley offered her younger sister a watery smile and they walked up the hallway into Ashley's office.

As they walked into Ashley's office, Spencer stepped around the corner. She had gone out to get something from the van and come back into hear the sisters talking about her. She leaned against the wall, a thoughtful expression on her face as she looked towards the door the sisters had just walked through.

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So there is chapter 3. I have up to chapter 6 written so I will post another chapter tomorrow.

Hope you liked the angst that was chapter 3!