A/N: You all are so lovely for supporting this story. I'm so glad my writing is enjoyable to read. So here is the next installment of Maura's Confession. Let's find out what happened shall we?
Disclaimer: Sadly I don't own R&I, but I do own the ideas in my head and the computer I wrote this on;)
I'm standing there shocked in my kitchen, because my best friend just waltzed into my apartment and kissed me. And the crazy thing is I kissed her back. And I want to do it again. I think Casey is yelling at me but all I can think about is catching Maura before she leaves.
Ignoring Casey completely I start running for the door. I take the stairs two at a time and as I make it to the ground floor I see Maura as she heads out the front door. I book it outside and across the street without looking, thank god there aren't any cars, and catch her right as she makes it to her car.
I don't think, I just act, and I smash my lips to hers once again. It's the most amazing feeling in the world. Kissing Casey doesn't even compare to kissing Maura. I've got her pinned against the car and I have one hand around the back of her neck while the other is against the car, holding me up.
She's kissing me back with such passion that I think my knees might give out. Her hands are tangled in my hair, successfully keeping me against her, not that I want to be apart. We kiss for a few more minutes before the need for air becomes too much and I break away. Resting my forehead against hers I slowly begin to stroke her cheek with the back of my hand. Now that I can touch her, it's all I want to do.
"I'm so sorry I let this go so far. I should have chosen you from the beginning Maur." I say as I lean back and look into her eyes. The urge to kiss her is just too overwhelming so I lean in again and plant a small, tender, kiss on her lips. I can feel her smile against my lips so I pull away to look at her. She has the most gloriously beautiful smile on her face and I'm sure my face looks the same.
"It's okay Jane. I have you now and that's all that matters." she says, but then something catches her eye behind me and her smile vanishes. I look behind me and notice Casey standing a little ways away from us.
"Can I talk to you for a second Jane?" he asks, a nervous hint to his voice. I look back at Maura for permission and she gives me a small nod. I give her a quick kiss and squeeze her hand before turning to Casey.
"Ya, okay." I say as we walk a small ways away from Maura. "So I guess this means that we're done then?" Casey asks, getting right to the point. "Ya I think so. I'm sorry Casey but I can't pass this up. I've wanted this with Maura for so long but I never thought I could have it. You came back and we started things again and I thought I could be happy, and I was, but you leave Casey. It's what you do. You come back, things are great for a bit and then you run off back to Afghanistan again, leaving me alone and heartbroken. Maura has always been there for me and I know she always will be." I can see the hurt in his eyes but he deserves to know how I feel.
"Was I really that bad Jane?" he asks with sadness etched all over his face. "Of course not Casey. You're a great guy and I love you but you're just not the one for me. Maura is, and I see that now." I get a smile on my face while Casey hangs his head in defeat.
"Do you want to know what really sold it for me?" I ask him. "What?" he says as he lifts his head to look at me again. "You told me to chose. It was either you or her. Maura didn't do that. She told me that she would stand by me no matter my decision. That right there shows me that she truly loves me." I say these words with conviction because I know they're true. Maura loves me and I love her. The realization makes me giddy like a little schoolgirl, and for once I embrace it.
"I'm sorry Jane. I never meant to hurt you. I can see that you truly love her so I won't get in the way. I'll go back to Afghanistan and do what I do best. I'll always think about you though. I love you Jane." as Casey finishes talking he leans in to hug me. I hug him back as a few tears run down my face. These are the last tears I will ever cry for Casey. This chapter of my life is over and I couldn't be happier because a new, more exciting and wonderful chapter has just opened up for me, and her name is Maura.
"I'll just go up and get the few things of mine in your apartment if that's ok." Casey says after the hug breaks. "That's fine. I need to talk to Maura anyway."I rest my hand on his shoulder before running it down his arm. "I'm really sorry things turned out this way Casey, but I wish you the best of luck in Afghanistan. I know it might sound dumb but I'd like for you to keep in touch. Only if you want to though." I say as my final goodbye. I don't wish Casey any ill will. I do love him and I want him to be happy.
"I'll see you around Jane." is all he says as he walks away from me, probably for the last time. Surprisingly it doesn't bother me though. I feel as if I really have closed that chapter. And I have a beautiful honey blonde doctor to thank for that. Speaking of; I turn around and walk back to Maura. She is leaning against her car, staring at me as I approach.
"Sorry about that." I say as I rest my hands on her hips. I lean down and plant a loving kiss on her supple lips, something I'm not sure I'll every get used to.
"How did things go? Casey looked pretty sad." Maura said with a hint of sadness in her voice as well.
"Better than I expected. He's getting his stuff out of my apartment right now. He's going back to Afghanistan." I realize as I say this that I sound sad myself. Maura picks up on this and moves her hand up to caress my cheek.
"I'm so sorry Jane. I hate to see you hurt, especially knowing that I'm the cause." Maura said with pain in her voice. Okay there is too much sadness going around. Time to make things happy again.
"Don't apologize Maur. I'm not sad because I have you now. You're all I've wanted for a long time now. I just never thought I could have you, so I settled with Casey. But tonight made me realize that you're the one for me. You're the one who's the most capable of loving me the way I deserve to be loved. This might sound dumb or cliché but my heart feels whole now. Ya that sounded really stupid."
Maura chuckles before grabbing both of my hands and kissing me. God this is amazing! I'll never get tired of this. "That didn't sound stupid Jane. I know exactly what you mean."
After hearing her admit that I just stare at her and smile. It's like my brain has stopped working and all I can do is stare at the beautiful creature in front of me, and she's staring right back.
"Would you like to come back to my house with me? As lovely as this street is, I would feel more comfortable in my living room on my couch. And there are still things we need to talk about." Maura says, breaking our stare.
My brain finally decides to start working again and I form a response. "Ya that sounds like a good idea. How about I go lock up and head over to your house?"
"That sounds good to me Jane." she says as she lets go of my hands. I lean in one more time and kiss her lips before burying my face in her hair at the side of her neck. It smells so amazing that I don't want to leave, but I need to lock up my apartment so I can head over to her house. Slowly I pull away and kiss her cheek. "I'll be right behind you." I say as I turn and head back towards my apartment.
Standing outside Maura's house I suddenly get nervous. Now the serious stuff has to start. We have a lot to discuss since we've decided to enter into a romantic relationship with each other. We can do this though. We're perfect for each other. With this thought in mind I knock on the door with sudden anticipation to see my honey blonde beauty.
She's at the door not a minute later, opening it up and letting me inside. We make out way over to the couch where she has wine and a bottle of beer set up for us. I sit down first and Maura follows, sitting down right next to me. She grabs both of my hands and looks right into my eyes.
"I'm so glad that we're doing this Jane. Just like you I've wanted this for so long, but we do need to discuss some things."
"I'm glad we're doing this too Maur. And you're right, we do need to talk." I squeeze her hands while giving her a smile. "First I want to say I love how you keep my beer here for me. It's a small thing but it really means a lot." Maura giggled at that and it's the most amazing sound I have ever heard.
"You're welcome Jane. I like to keep your beer here. You're part of my life and I want to make you happy. I'm just glad you've finally given me the chance."
"You do make me happy Maur. My life wouldn't be complete without you. And can I tell you how happy I am that there won't be any more serial killers trying to get into your pants." Maura smacks me for that one but it's worth it.
"Shut up Jane. That was one time. And anyway you're all I need. I would like to ask you something though." Maura said, suddenly getting a bit nervous.
"Ya?"
"Well now that we're together I was wondering how fast we're going to take things. I've wanted you for a very long time, and I've even fanaticized about you in sexual ways, and I'm not sure if I can control myself around you now."
"Oh God Maura, why do you always have to jump straight to sex?" way to make this uncomfortable Maura!
"What? Sex is a natural part of relationships. When you feel attracted to people, as I do you, you're body has urges that need to be satisfied. It's completely normal Jane." there she goes again, always so literal.
"Uh, Maur, have you ever...you know? About me?"
"You mean have I every masturbated while thinking about you?"
"Uh, ya. Have you?" I'm not sure I want to hear the answer to this.
"Yes I have Jane, but only a couple times, and only as of late." Maura says as she looks at me a bit sheepishly. Most likely afraid of my response.
Surprisingly I'm a bit excited by this news. I've got fluttering in my stomach and I'm sure my face is red.
"Have you ever pleasured yourself with thoughts of me Jane?" I can tell she really wants to know the answer to this one. If my face wasn't red before, it sure as hell is now.
"Um, well, no not exactly." I say as I suddenly become very interested in my hands.
"What do you mean, not exactly?" she asks
"Well I've never...pleasured myself, but I have to admit that I've had dreams about you. Dreams of the inappropriate kind. " Why is this so embarrassing? She just admitted to masturbating to thoughts of me. That's way worse
Maura instantly has a huge smile on her face at my confession. She leans in and captures my lips in a searing kiss. She pushes me down on the couch and lays on top of me. Her tongue begs entrance into my mouth and I willingly oblige. The kiss gets super heated, super fast, and the next thing I know Maura is sucking on my neck while massaging one of my breasts over my shirt. The feeling makes my toes curl. My hands are moving up and down her back while I try to regulate my breathing.
Maura finds a particularly sensitive spot on my neck and I can't help the moan that escapes my mouth. I dig my nails into Maura's back while she attacks me mercilessly. All of the sudden I hear the back door open and in walks my mother.
"Hey Maura I was wondering... Oh My God!" My mother says as we both scramble to look like we weren't just making out heavily on the couch. "What the hell Ma, don't you knock?!" I yell at her as I quickly sit up. I'm more than embarrassed and I can tell Maura is too.
"I'm so sorry girls. I had no idea that you were here Janie. I, uh... I'm just going to go now." Ma says as she awkwardly heads back out the door.
We sit in silence for a few minutes, thoroughly embarrassed. "Well that was awkward." Maura says.
"Ya it was. Total mood killer." I say with an annoyed tone to my voice. "Well how about we watch a movie and just cuddle? That's safe isn't it?" Maura asks in her cute way that she does. Listen to me, I'm already whooped. I don't normally talk like this.
"That sounds great. You pick a movie while I go talk to Ma real quick. I don't want her getting anymore ideas about coming back. Also I think I need to explain a few things to her." I say as I reluctantly get up off the couch. I kiss Maura on top of her head before heading out the back door towards the guest house.
"Good luck." Maura calls after me. I'm definitely going to need it.
Well there you have chapter 3. What are your thoughts? Reviews are like gold for me.