Aiiiiyaaaahhh! After I'm finished with this story I'm gunna make a ShitsuSaku fic XD

Disclaimer: I do not own Durarara! And it's characters. I only own the crappy story.

Me, Shinra, Dota-chin and sadly Shizu-chan was with us eating lunch on the roof top. When I found out that Shizu-chan was gonna eat with us today. I tried to leave but the idiotic doctor Shinra forced me to stay here and eat. I just kept my head low, staring at my untouched food.

Dammit. I really don't want to see this protozoan right now. Especially when I'm like this.

Dota-chin glanced at me, noticing I haven't took a single bite out of my lunch yet. "Izaya? Are you feeling okay?"

"huh?" I looked up with a slightly surprised look. Shinra and him were looking at me with a concerned look. While Shizu-chan was just eating his food with no care for the world. I flashed them with my smirk "nah~ I'm fine! I lost my appetite because Shizu-chan eats like a caveman. It makes me sick just by looking at him"

Said person almost choked on the onigiri he ate. He shot me a cold glare "excuse me?" He growled.

I grinned at his reaction "you heard me~, your manners are so unprofessional. Honestly, I think a 5 year old can even eat properly without getting rice all over his face"

Shizu-chan cringed at this and quickly wiped his face with his sleeve. He shot me another glare with a little pink dusted in his cheeks from embarrassment. He grabbed Shinra's lunch box and threw it at me with all of his strength. " THE LUNCH MY LOVELY CELTY MADE ME!" Shinra yelled in agony as his lunch was submitted to the sky. I laughed and sprinted towards the door.

"IZAAAAAAAAAYAAAAAAAAA!" He shouted while waving his fist in the air before running right behind me.

I laughed madly as I dodged the flying objects the protozoan hurled at me in the hallway.

I smiled sadly. Yes, this is how it's supposed to be…

There is no such thing as 'love' between us.

As the final period finished, I fixed up all of my things and left the door. I looked around to see if the protozoan was around doing protozoic things, like waiting for me with a vending machine above his head ready to hit me with it.

I smiled from the thought.

I passed from the school soccer field and saw an awfully familiar figure from the corner of my eye. I whipped my head to the direction of the said figure and my eyes widened.

Shizu-chan was talking to that "Mitsukake Hana" girl. From here, I could see that she had brown hair, a perfect body and was obviously, well, a GIRL.

I was practically sticking my face on the window and stared at them wide-eyed.

I could see that Mitsukake-san was fidgeting and telling Shizu-chan like "I need something to tell you". Shizu-chan just scratched the back of his head like the clueless dumb brute he is. Then she shoved a box of chocolate in front of Shizu-chan's face and probably shouted her feelings to him.

Then, from this view.

I could see that Shizu-chan was blushing. He looked like he was having trouble looking for words he should say in return. He held out his hand to accept the boxed chocolate. If he takes that box…

Does that mean he's also accepting the girl's feelings?

His hand was only a centimeter away from the box. I turned away before I could see him take the chocolate. I bit my lip before running towards the exit of the school building. Tears began welling up on the corners of my eyes. I wiped them with my sleeve as I continued running to my home.

When I arrived, I slammed the door open and I ignored my mom's welcome as I ran upstairs to my bedroom. I opened the door and slammed it close. I leaned my back on it and I still had my hand curled around the door knob tightly. I noticed I was still biting my lip when I tasted the coppery flavor of blood in my mouth. I gave out a shaky sigh as I slid down to the floor and pulled my knees closer. I hugged my knees and rested my head on them as I finally let out the sob I was holding back ever since back at school.

I didn't hold anything back. I let everything go. My tears, my sobs, my shudders and my feelings.

I swear, this will be the only night I'll show my feelings. The only night I'll let everything go.

"Izaya? Sweetie?"

I woke up from the knock on my door. I rubbed my eyes with my sleeves to wipe the dried up tears and stood up to greet my mother. I opened the door with my usual happy expression. "Hey mom! What's up?"

She gave me a warm smile "It's dinner time already" her eyes widened slightly. She inched closer to my face with her eyes squinted to observe my face.

God, please don't let her notice.

"Honey, have you been crying?" She asked in a worried tone with a concerned expression painted on her face.

Great. I sighed "no mom. I was just staring at the wall without blinking."

That has to be the worst lie I have ever told.

Her expression bore a pained expression " Izaya dear, I know you've been crying. I can tell because you're eyes are red" She smiled warmly "You can tell me all about it Izaya, I'll listen"

I blinked in surprise. Then I lowered my head down to look down at the floor. "Maybe… after Dinner" I answered in a low voice. I walked down the stairs to the dining table and sat. I looked at my food and saw ootoro. Really, why should I feel this gloomy when there's ootoro, The most heavenly – flavored delicacy I know, on my dinner plate. I tried to smile and giggle in a childly-manner, but I couldn't do it. I just stared at it like it was unknown to me. I heard footsteps come near me and a chair being dragged to my side.

My mother faked a cough to get my attention.

I turned my head slowly at her direction with a blank expression. She just smiled at me and held my shoulder. "Izaya, how about you tell me now because you don't look like you're in the mood for eating" she joked. But I wasn't affected by it.

I looked back at my ootoro and changed the topic "Where's Mairu and Kururi?".

"With you're aunt. Sweetie, don't dodge the question. I don't like seeing you in pain like this" She said as she gave my shoulder a comforting squeeze.

I don't feel like telling her though. I mean, who wants to hear her son being all gay over some guy or worse, his enemy, in school and is about to get a hot girlfriend? I felt down all of a sudden. Great, I just got hurt by my own thoughts.

"I don't really want to talk about it right now mom I-" I lowered my head more "I'm not sure you would like it"

She blinked once in confusion before smiling warmly. She gave me a warm hug "aww, don't worry sweetheart. No matter what it is. I'll be fine"

I looked up at her with eyes gleaming in hope "R-really?"

She grinned "really!"

I smiled and held back incoming tears "Th-thanks mom"

She smiled in response before dragging her chair even closer to me "So? What's been troubling you?"

I took a deep breathe and exhaled. Who knows? Maybe she won't believe that her one and only son just turned gay all of a sudden. And was crying because the guy he liked accepted a confession from someone.

I looked at her with a worried look and stuttered.

"M-Mom"

"I'm in love with a guy"

OH NO! WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO OUR DEAR IZAIZA! STAY TUNED! Sorry if this chapter was a little boring.

Nazupii: I agree with yah :D GO KILL 'IM! XD Joke. We need Shinra to encourage IzaIza to confess to Shizu-chan already :3
Kairichin: OMG thanks! and I'm really sorry for my grammar. 'Cause sometimes I'm in a rush. and I can't have the time to double check my spelling, grammar and stuff.
usa-san1: ahahahaha sorry usa-chan. And thanks alot. and write fics already! Many people will love you're genius!
AsikIkisa: Nah... it's not really that great. And is it really realistic? :D
Deaz: Yes, go right ahead. I will let you. 'cause I also hate her, even though I made her up XD

Please review my lovelies to see what will happen next~!