hello readers!

sorry for the long wait, but, it's summer and well, you just can't really resist those amazing hot days to go have fun

Disclaimer:I don't own Big Time Rush or any songs used in this fic, please keep that in mind as you read

The next morning Logan awoke to a grey sky. The snow was still falling very harshly and there were no snow plows cleaning the streets. A light knock on his door made him sit up and James walked in.

"School's canceled kid. You can go back to sleep." James smiled.

"Thanks." Logan returned the gesture and watched as James left his room.

Logan pulled the covers back over him and slowly fell asleep. When he woke up later, he heard a loud crash downstairs and James yelling at someone. Logan groaned and walked downstairs and rubbed his tired eyes.

"What's going on?" Logan groaned, yawning at the end.

"Carlos banged his head on the wall." Kendall replied with a chuckle.

"Only Carlos would do something like that."

"Hey bud, sleep ok?" James asked, walking out of the kitchen.

"Yep. So, what's the plan for today?"

"Who knows."

"Oh, we should go sledding!" Carlos suggested, taking a piece of bacon from James' plate.

"Get your own bacon kid." James replied, shielding his plate from the young boy.

"Actually, that's a good idea." Kendall agreed.

"Ok, I guess." Logan said, not really wanting to go sledding, but he figured his friends would be a great distraction.

A pretty brunetter woman walked down the stairs and she smiled at the four boys eating breakfast. She walked up to Logan and kissed his head.

"Kids, I'll be home late. Don't wait up. James, take care of Logan. Boys, watch Carlos closely."

"No worries mom, now go before your late." James smiled.

"And be careful if you go out. Roads are slippery."

"MOM!" Both James and Logan shouted, trying to make her leave.

"Alright alright. I'm going." And with that, she left out into the white scene.

"Alright, Logan, go get changed so we can leave." James instructed as he placed his now empty plate in the sink.

"But I haven't had breakfast?" Logan pouted.

"We'll buy you some on the way. Now hurry!"

"What's with the rush anyway?" Carlos questioned as he put on his sweater.

"We don't know if the snow will get worse later on."

"But what if it doesn't? What if it actually stops snowing? Huh? What if-"

"Carlos, just shut it." Logan whispered as he saw James' face change from frustration to anger.

Logan walked quickly ran up the stairs and up to his room where he forgot to close the door and went to his dresser to look for some warm clothes.

Unknown to him, Kendall had followed Logan. And once Kendall was in the room, he closed the door quietly and walked up to Logan, wrapping his long arms around the younger boy's slim waist. Logan jumped at the sudden presence, but then recognized Kendall by his scent. Kendall smelt the best out of James and Carlos. And besides, James and Carlos would never hug him like this.

"Kendall, what are you doing?" Logan whispered, trying to unwrap his arms, but Kendall was a lot stronger.

"Logie, please, I just wanna be with you."

That made Logan blush. Kendall wanted to be with him and Logan wanted to be with Kendall. Suddenly, Logan was turned around in Kendall's arms and said blonde craashed his lips against Logan's slightly parted ones. Logan kissed back and that made the other smile in victory. Logan wrapped his arms around the blonde's neck, making Kendall pull Logan impossibly closer to him and deepen the kiss more.

They both pulled away panting for air. The room filling with Darth Vader like breathing. Logan wriggled himself free from Kendall's hold and walked to his closet, hiding his face from Kendall.

"Baby, I really want to give us a try." Kendall said, now behind Logan.

"I do too Ken, but it's too soon. Give me a few days, please." Logan begged, still not looking at Kendall.

"I'll give you all the time you need Logan. I'll be waiting." Kendall pecked Logan's cheek and walked out of the room.

Logan sighed and sat down on the floor with his knees up to his chest. He really wanted to be with Kendall, but after what happened, the idea of falling for someone as hard as he did with his ex scared Logan.

'In time everything will be fine.' Logan thought to himself and kept repeating it in his head a few more times until a knock on his door snapped him out of his chant.

"Loges, hurry up or we're leaving without you!" James called.

"J-Just leave! I don't feel good." Logan called out, tears burning in the brim of his eyes.

"Logie, what's wrong?" James asked as he walked in.

"M-My stomach hurts." Logan quickly lied.

"Alright. Lie down, but if you feel worse, call us ok?"

"Yeah, now go."

James kissed the top of Logan's head and left his room. Logan could faintly hear a discussion down below, but then the front door opened and slammed shut. He was glad they all left. Logan wanted to be alone and think about everything. That guy. Kendall. Love. Logan wanted to make the best decision. Love again. Find the right guy. Get married. Have a family. But with his new fear, he really doubted he'd find the right guy.

Alll this thinking cause Logan to get a migraine. He slowly got up from the floor and walked into the bathroom to find some pills. Then he proceded down into the kitchen, got a glass of water and took the pill. Logan got a blanket from the closet and curled up on the couch, letting his eyes drop slowly until nothing.

I'm seriously trying my best, but i get distracted easily or get blocked and put it off until i get an idea or "dream" please forgive