A/n: So school is finally over for me and I have two weeks to update my stories before I go out of town for about a week, I'm going to try to update twice before I go, including this update, then once I get back I plan to update weekly, Heres the second chapter , I've only been to one funeral and it was in another country , so if I get anything wrong about what happens at a catholic funeral thats why, I just used what I know in general about funerals, enjoy

-Pessi.Rom

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Chapter 2: Funeral

Elliot stood in the back of the church, watching as Kathy's family and friends approached her coffin , at the wake part of the funeral. The kids ,with the exception of the twins ,had walked over to the open casket ,but,Elliot couldn't bring himself to go anywhere near it. Person after person had come up to him and the kids to say their condolences . After awhile Elliot started to tune them out, and mechanically nodded when anyone approached to talk to him. He wanted to run as far as he could away from the church but ,he had to be there for his kids .

A cousin of Kathy's, Tammy ,came over and started chatting away and reminiscing about her childhood with her cousin, not noticing how uncomfortable he was. She continued on and on and Elliot just wanted to get away from her, he didn't want to hear about his wife in the past tense. It all still felt surreal to him , Wong would say he was in the first stage of grief, denial, and for once Elliot would agree with him.

He turned around when he heard someone calling his name. It was Liv along with Cragen, Fin and Munch, he'd never been more happy to see them all. Their sudden appearance would give him a chance to get away from his conversation with Tammy.

"Excuse me "

Elliot said walking away from her and toward his captain and co-officers.They all tried to give their condolences ,but Elliot quickly switched the conversation to talk of what had been going on at work while he'd been gone, but it was obvious they didn't feel right discussing work at a funeral. As the wake came to an end , everyone took their seats in the pews. Liv wanted to sit with Elliot, but knew it would bring up some curious glances and gossip amongst the others in the church, if a woman not related to Kathy or Elliot was seen sitting next to him comforting him, by holding his hand.

The music director beckoned everyone to stand as the choir and everyone else in the church began to sing a hymn. Three more hymns were sung then the priest approached the pulpit and began to speak.

"Today we gather here to celebrate the life of Katherine Marie Stabler,who has gone to meet our Lord and Savior"

The priest said then signed the sign of the holy trinity.

"Kathy , as she was known by friends and family, is survived by her husband Elliot and their five children and also her parents and siblings"

The priest said then continued to talk about Kathy and her life as well as reciting the relevant scriptures. A prayer was said then one last hymn was sung before the precession to the cemetery began.

Liv watched as Elliot and the kids followed after the men carrying Kathy's coffin , tears in their eyes while Elliot kept a stoic expression. His Mother ,who was carrying Eli's carrier, as well as his Father and Kathy's parents and siblings followed after them. Liv , Don, munch and Fin exited the church soon after and followed the precession to the cemetery.

When everyone arrived at the cemetery, the priest said a few words then handed over the speaking to the friends and family who wanted to speak. Her brother Jake went up first , telling an anecdote about him and Kathy as kids and how he'd miss his big sister and what a big difference she'd made in his life. Her sister, Kaitlin spoke next then her best friend Sarah who delivered the eulogy.After the eulogy the priest came back up to the podium to say a few last words before they lowered the coffin into the ground.

"Ashes to Ashes , dust to dust"

With those words Elliot and the kids each went up and placed a rose, Kathy's favorite flower onto the casket, other's did the same and the funeral ended with the lowering of the casket. Everyone then headed to the Stabler residence for the reception prepared by Kathy's mother and sister. When Liv arrived at the house she looked around but couldn't find Elliot. Her heart was breaking for him and the kids and her guilt about the accident was still weighing on her mind.She needed some air so she walked out into their small backyard, where she immediately spotted Elliot standing in front of a small garden starring off into space.

She hesitated then moved across the yard toward her partner.

"Elliot..." She said putting her hand lightly on his shoulder, which surprised him and made his tense body flinch .

"What are you doing out here?"

He said turning to face her.

"Looking for you"

She said halfway lying, she had wondered where he was , but her real reason for stepping outside was to get air and in the process run away from her guilty thoughts about Kathy and the accident.

"I didn't want to be found..."

Elliot said walking away from the garden and over to a lawn chair facing away from her again. Liv followed after him , ignoring her minds advice to give him some space and walk back into the house

"El, I know how your feeling, when my mom died the only one she left behind was me..." Liv said pausing then speaking again

" I know you want to run away and hide ,but you can't like I did, you have to be there for your kids, especially the twins and Eli, they need you , now more than ever to get through this ,and you need them too, its the only way you'll fully heal from your grief"

Liv said . Elliot sat there not saying a word , making Liv think she went to far and should have walked away .

"El, I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything , I've made you feel worse, I'm gonna go"

Liv said walking away but Elliot suddenly spoke stopping her in her steps.

"Liv, stay, your right" He said getting up from the chair and facing her.

"I've been trying to pretend that all of this isn't really happening , that its all one bad dream that I'll eventually wake up from, but with each passing day it gets more and more real and it gets harder to keep myself together"

Elliot said letting out his feelings and thoughts out, to the only one who could truly understand what he was going through. Liv felt her heart breaking again and all she wanted to do was comfort her partner. She once again ignored her head and listened to her heart as she hugged her partner.

"I know El, it'll get better,I promise "Liv said.

They broke the hug and Elliot again thanked her for being there for him. He took a deep breath then walked with Liv back into the house. Once inside she stayed back watching as he walked over to his kids ,taking her advice and really being there for them.

A/n: So thats it, I'm not sure about this chapter, I feel like Liv/El were a bit ooc , I may go back and rewrite it a little , tell me what you think by dropping me a review, constructive criticism , not flames are always welcome and appreciated , thanks for reading I'll try to have another chapter up sometime next week or sooner if I get inspired

-Pessi.Rom